Dream // David Dobrik

{There goes the love of my life}

    (Disclaimer: This is a long, sad chapter.)

There goes the love of my life
Passing by in my dreams
It's been so long since I've knocked on his  door
Sometimes I wonder how I will stay strong
And I can't sleep
And I can't think
And I will keep driving this long road
Until the darkness fades and the morning rises
Until I see him again
It's been so hard
Some days I can't wake up
Some days I fall apart
But he has never left my dreams
There goes the love of my life.

He stopped kissing me and pulled me into his chest.
"Let's go get my camera." David said
"Nooo I don't wanna leave." I whined.
I started kissing his neck, trying to persuade him to stay.
He laughed softly.
"Stop." He said pushing me away softly.
"Why?" I giggled.
I place my lips on him once more, nibbling his neck.
He sighed and snickered.
"Stop that." He smiled.
He lifted my chin so we would lock eyes.
"Why are you doing this?" He asked chuckling.
"No reason." I shrugged.
I pulled down his shirt slowly, revealing the space between his collarbone and his shoulder. His weak spot. I placed my lips there and nipped his skin. He let out a light breathy groan.
"Okay stop." He laughed pushing me away.
I chuckled.
"We gotta go get my camera." He said turning around and stepping off the bed.
He turned back towards me.
"We can do that kinda stuff later." He joked.
"Nope too late." I said crossing my arms.
"Oh you're gonna be like that?" He asked.
I nodded my head yes.
"Fine." He said getting on top of me.
He placed his hands above my shoulders, pinning me down softly.
"You sure about that?" He smirked
"Yep." I said turning my head.
He placed his lips on my neck.
I place my hands on his shoulders and pushed him away. We both laughed.
He stood up.
"Okay let's go." He said heading toward the door.
"Okay, But can we not go to that abandon place? I'm tired." I said standing up as well.
"Yeah we can just vlog here." He said.
"Good."
I followed him out the door.
We got in the elevator and walked to the parking garage.
We both got into the car and headed to David's house.
"Babe, do you think this is forever?" He pondered
"Yes, do you?" I asked.
He paused and stared out the windshield. Gripping the steering wheel firmly.
I locked my gaze on him. I had a bad feeling.
"Do you?" I repeated the question.
"Yes." He said in a monotone way.
It wasn't genuine. And I knew that.
"What's wrong?" I asked
"Nothing." He insisted.
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah yeah, I'm all good. I'm just.. I don't.. I'm fine." He struggled to find his words.
"Tell me please. I love you." I said.
"I'm gonna miss you." He said
A confused look glazed over my face.
"I'm not going anywhere." I said.
"I know but, tomorrow I'm probably not gonna be with you all day and I'm gonna miss you." He said
Maybe it was nothing and he's just sleepy. I brushed it off. But that bad feeling I have dwindling never went away. We all of the sudden felt so distant. I felt like I was bothering him.
We pulled up to his house and he stopped the car.
"I'm just gonna grab my camera and I'll be right back okay?" He said
"Okay." I said.
I rested my head on my hand. I looked at the stars that were cascaded over the clear night sky. I felt so lucky to have a love of my life. Finally, after all theses years of wishing for a guy like him, he's mine. And I'm his. But I didn't fall in love with him because of his looks, or his money. It was his heart. He was a giver, the most selfless person I have ever met. He is a breath of fresh air compared to all the selfish people that surrounded me my whole life. He was the only different one. Thats how I knew I was in love with the way he was, his mind, his soul, his heart. And he claims to feel the same when he says he loves me. Promise me its real. Please let this be real.
He came back in the car with his camera in his hand.
"Got it!" He said like an excited little kid.
I couldn't get rid of that feeling. Something bad was going to happen.
"Are you good?"
I didn't realize I was in a blank stare.
I snapped out of it.
"Yeah I'm okay." I said.
He looked at me as if he didn't believe me.
"Yeah sure you are." He sarcastically said in a quiet tone.
"What?" I asked harshly
"What is your fucking problem? Why are you being a dick?" He asked.
"Oh my god I didn't do anything David. I'm not being a dick what's wrong with you?" I said confused at why he was acting this way
"Whatever. Be that way then." He rolled his eyes and pulled out of the drive way and headed back to my apartment.
"You're an asshole." I said under my breath.
"Ava what the hell?! Why are you all of the sudden so pissed at me?" He said.
"Well you're being all fucking snappy. And you asked me if I thought this was forever and I said yes and you hesitated, then you give me a fucking attitude, it's just annoying." I said
"Well when I asked if you were okay you were all like 'yeah I guess so'" he said mocking my tone.
"What's wrong with that?" I asked
"I know you you dummy. I know somethings bothering you but relationships aren't fucking guessing games. Like are you five or something? I love you but fuck I'm sick of wondering why you're not okay." He said
"Fuck you I'm not five. And I am fine I just have a bad feeling, but I'm fine." I said
"Wow." He said bleakly.
"'Wow' what?" I asked
"I would never say that to you." He said
"Say what?"
"I would never say 'fuck you'. That's fucking mean." He said
"Are you serious? You called me a five year old, you called me a dick, but as soon I say something I'm mean."
"Just drop it, I'm the bad guy and you're right. Let it go." He said
"No you're not the bad guy. We both said mean things. I'm sorry." I apologized
"I'm just gonna drop you off and then go home." He said.
"No please don't be that way." I weeped
"Babe, I'm just upset I don't wanna be here right now." He explained
He parked in the parking lot.
"Bye." He said.
"Come in with me please." I pleased
"Ava I wanna be alone right now." He said softly
"I'm sorry." I said
"I am too. But I'm just pissed off right now." He said.
"But we were gonna vlog..." I said in a baby voice.
He smiled slightly.
"I know we were but then we got all mean." He said in his baby voice as well.
I laughed
"But I love you and I wanna vlog with you." I said
"Fiiiinnnneee." He smiled
We got out of the car and walked to the elevator and to my apartment. We opened the door and closed it behind us.
David set his camera down on a table and hugged me. I hugged him back tightly.
"Ava, what ever happens just know that I love you and that I never stopped loving you." He said
"I know."
"No you don't. I want to be with you just know that. Know that I love you and that I'm never gonna stop." He said
"Davie, I know. I feel the same way." I explained.
He lifted my chin so our lips could meet. Kissing him was like a dream. He pulled away and picked his camera back up.
He pressed record.
"Okay guys so I'm a Ava's place right now, and a lot of you guys in the comments are wondering if we're dating. And to answer your guys question...no Ava and I are just pals." He said flashing a fake smile at the lens of his camera.
"Just buddies." I emphasized
He vlogged for a few more minutes, we told a bunch of stupid little childhood stories and had a good laugh but all I wanted to do was cuddle with him and watch a movie.
He finished up his last story he was sharing with the viewers and turned off his camera.
"Ugh finally." He sighed
"What?" I asked
"I get to be all over you with out a bunch of comments in my face." He said placing his soft hand on my waist and pulling me into him. I placed my hand on his cheek and looked into his eyes a if I could see the cosmos floating in them. My pupils dilated and became huge as if I had just done ecstasy.
Desire to kiss him burned within me, but I didn't. I wanted to want it. I let that desire incinerate me no matter how much it hurt. I wanted to feel that pain. I wanted the agony of wanting him. I wanted to ignite a fresh spark. To feel that high of love in its strongest dosage.
His pupils became enlarged as well. I knew the fire scorched deep within him too. Something we both longed to feel with another person.
He couldn't bear it anymore. He leaned in and interlocked his lips with mine. He extinguished the desire that blazed in my core and to himself vice versa.
He ran his hands up and down my back causing a shiver to shoot down my spine. My heart throbbed and almost pained me. His lips parted and his tongue slipped into my mouth.
I pulled away and kissed his cheek.
"Why'd you stop?" He asked
I shrugged.
He chuckled.
I released myself from his grip and sat down on my bed. He quickly followed me and sat down next to me. His pupils were massive. Lust was flooding through his veins. He wrapped his arms around me. I leaned in close as if I was going to kiss him but before our lips could meet I backed away.
"Kiss me." He whined.
"No." I said with a smile
I wanted him to want me. His urge to put his lips on mine was like a strong magnetic field. I just looked in his eyes, allowing the silence to corrupt his mind. He leaned in one more time and attempted to kiss me once more. I turned my face and his lips met my cheek.
"Please." He whined.
I faced him and ran my fingers along his jawline. I leaned in as if I was going to kiss him but as soon as his lips were about to meet my own I pulled away.
"Stop it." He said wrapping his hands tightly around my waist.
I laughed.
My eyes peered at his neck. I placed my lips on him. I rained kisses down his neck slowly. He stopped me.
"What?" I asked
"My turn." He smirked.
He slowly got on top of me causing me to lay down. He placed his lips on my collarbone and nibbled my skin. He kissed up my neck. Tingles surged through me. A douse euphoria
came over me. He pressed his lips against mine. We made out heavily. I sat up and so did he.
"My turn." I mocked him.
I straddled his lap and connected my lips with his once more. Our tongues swirled in each others mouths. He kissed down my neck and gave me yet another hickey.
"No ugh." I whined
"What?" He laughed pulling away from my neck.
"You gave me a hickey." I said
"So?" He chuckled.
"Its only fair if I give you one." I insisted.
"Nooo." He said with a laugh
I leaned in to give him a hickey.
He pulled away. I tried to give him a hickey once more.
"No!"He exclaimed
He pushed me off of him and pinned me to the bed to I was lying down again.
"Let me give you a hickey." I laughed.
"I'd like to see you try." He said holding my wrists down.
I swiftly pulled my wrists out of his grip.
I leaned up and sucked the skin on his neck. He pushed me down softly.
"You jerk." He laughed
"You started it." I giggled
He sat up and dangled his feet off the edge of my bed. I mimicked his actions. He crossed his arms and glared at me.
"What?" I laughed
"I didn't want a hickey." He complained
"Neither did I!" I exclaimed
He laughed and wrapped his arms around me.
"I'm sowwy." He said kissing my cheek.
"I hate you." I chuckled, draping my arms around his shoulders.
"You love me." He said
"No." I joked
"Yes you do." He smiled
"Maybe."
He grinned and kissed me. He pulled away and looked into my eyes. It was as if he was reading poems that were written in my pupils.
"Hey I need you to know that no matter what happens with us, I love you. And I don't want anyone else except you. I need you to know that." He said
"Dave I know. I know that you love me. I love you too. You tell me all the time."
"I'm gonna miss you so much." He said. His voice sounded like it was struggling to form words.
Why was he going to miss me? We're together all the time. But he mentioned this before so I decided to brush it off.
I just hugged him. I didn't know what to say.
"David everything will be okay. I will always be here. No matter what. If something bad happens and we break up or something I'm a text away. And we are together and nothing could ever keep us apart. I love you." I explained.
"See this is why you're so amazing, you always make me happy and you are literally the sweetest girl ever. You're the best person I have ever met." He said
I smiled.
"Shut up." I snickered
"You shut up." He laughed pushing me away softly.
I pushed him back.
"Owwww. You're a bully." He joked
"You pushed me first." I retorted.
He laughed.
There was a pause for a moment.
I decided to turn on my tv so we could watch a movie and cuddle until we fell asleep. I stood up and began searching for the remote.
"Avaaaaaaaa." He whined loudly.
"What do you want?" I asked.
"Lay with me."
"I'm looking for the remote." I laughed
"I don't care I wanna hold you." He said
"I'll lay with you when I find the remote."
I looked under my bed and spotted the remote. I picked it up and plopped back into bed.
"Remember when we put this bed frame together?" He asked.
"Yes." I laughed.
"It's so weird how back then I thought we were just gonna be friends." He said
"I know." I agreed
I selected a movie on the tv and laid the remote aside. I rested my head on David's chest. He chuckled and placed his hand on my waist. He kissed the top of my head.
My heart leaped as I felt his chest rise and fall in sync with his steady breathing and heart beat witch echoed through my ears like a sad song. Goose bumps developed on my skin due to his soft breath hitting the back of my neck. I wrapped my arms and leg around him as if I wanted to be a piece of him. As if it was the last time he was going to hold me in his arms. I closed my eyes but the back of my eyelids weren't pitch black, they were bright with the thoughts of his face. My thoughts raced, our memories flickered through my consciousness  like a slide show. And these thoughts rushed through my mind until I was asleep.

time: 3:57am

My eyelids parted slowly revealing an almost pitch black room. The only thing giving the room light was the dim numbers on my old digital alarm clock. Due to the lack of light, I barley saw David get up off of the bed.
That's why I woke up.
I thought to myself. I assumed his insomnia got the best of him and he was getting up to use the bathroom.
I shut my eyes once more and allowed my self to drift out of consciousness.

time: 9:10am

My eyelids fluttered open. I looked to my right, expecting to see David. But all I saw was my duvet cover pushed to the side and  wrinkled sheets. I stretched and stood up off the bed. I walked over to the bathroom door which was shut. I pressed my ear to the door, listening for any sign of him. I knocked on the door.
"David?" I called 
I knocked once again. This time I paused expecting a response.
"Hey babe I'm coming in." I said
I twisted the doorknob. The door slowly creaked open. I was baffled at what I saw.
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Hi I'm bad at posting. What will happen next? What's in the bathroom? I'm so sorry I took a month to post. I'm going through a lot of bad things. I'll do better. Expect longer chapters. Love you all byyyyyeeee.💗👋🏼