Undo This Hurt

Chapter Forty-Six

Soundtrack: Lost Stars, by Maroon 5

ISMAEL

I can't help myself to cry while I'm watching my twin in the monitor. It was a dream that I couldn't figure out without Payton. She was carrying my second and third child. It's really true that I'm going to have a big family—with my three beautiful kids and my Angel.

My big boy was sitting in my lap and he was so happy as I am. This is the best genuine feeling I was being felt, and this is also made me and molded me as what kind of man I am. This is my dream as well my happiness I would probably cherish with my love ones. I have family with Payton and this is the thing that won’t change anything in this oasis world. They are enough for me.

I helped my love to sit at the edge of the bed while Nigel is talking to the doctor about his siblings. She hugged me like she hadn’t done before. “Mag kakaanak na tayo, Ismael.” She cried.

I kissed her head, “We made it, we are finally had them.” I whispered in her ear.

She nuzzled her nose against my chest before she’d lift her head for me, “Thank you so much.”

And before I thanked her back, Nigel suddenly popped in between the gap while holding the copy of ultrasound of his siblings. “I thought the doctor would give me my siblings but she gave me these photos instead.” He pouted.

Payton ruined his hair and hugged him with her left arm, “It would take three more months before your siblings came out, Nigel. But as of now, they would still stay in mimmy’s bump.” My love explained.

My big boy displayed with frown, “Why would take it so long? Nigel so excited to… to see them and care them.”

“Are you willing to take care of them every day?” I asked him with a huge smile.

He stopped for a second to think for an answer, “Hmm, yes but you also have to help Nigel.” He grimaced.

I chuckled, “Of course, daddy and mimmy would help you.” I answered him.

I parted with hug and I lift my big boy, and he bade goodbye to the ob-gyne.

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PAYTON

Nag uusap ang mag-ama habang nasa salas silang dalawa at ako naman ay nasa banyo. Humarap ako sa salamin at tinignan kung madami pa bang pasa sa buo kong katawan. Hindi ako nag kamali dahil may ilan pa ring nandoon. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko pa ito maipapaliwanag at sasabihin sa mag-ama ko na ngayon na sobra-sobra ang saya nila dahil sa kambal.

Paano na kapag lumala itong sakit na ‘to? Napag alaman kong rare lang ang nakaka-ligtas sa Leukemia at hindi na ako umaasang mai-include pa ako sa mga taong iyon. Mahal din ang mga gamot pati na ang chemotherapy, radiation therapy at stem cell transplant. Wala akong million million na halaga para mailigtas ko pa ang sarili ko sa sakit na ito. Siguro kung maipanganak ko ang kambal saka lang bibigay ng tuluyan ang katawan ko dahil alam kong silang dalawa ang nag bibigay lakas sa katawan ko ngayon at si Ismael at Nigel na lang ang nag bibigay pag asa sa akin ngayon.

Ayokong ma-disappoint si Nigel kapag nalaman nyang hindi ko maisilang ang mga kapatid nya. Hindi ko alam kung paano na ang buhay nila kung mamamatay ako. Ayoko silang iwan, gusto ko pang maranasan kung paano mag alaga ng kambal habang nandiyan si Nigel at si Ismael. Kahit ‘yon lang sana maranasan ko ulit. Gusto kong bumuo ng isang masayang pamilya kasama sila, dahil iyon ang pinagkaila sa akin ng mga magulang ko.

Nasa tamang edad na rin ako at kaya ko nang gawin lahat para sa kanila basta nandiyan si Ismael para lalo akong palakasin. Nag bago na sya at handa ako sa ano mang mangyayari.