Be Careful What You Wish For || Irwin

The Accident

This chapter will completely mess you up, but if you want the full effect I suggest listening to

Goodbye Song - MKTO

If You Don't Know - 5SOS

I'm A Mess - Ed Sheeran

Everything I Didn't Say - 5SOS

In that order, other than that.. Enjoy :-)

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Without another word I'm on my feet and walking, no running out of the bar and away from her.

"Ashton! Ash- please!" She calls out with her heels clicking against the pavement. I hate the sound, I hate hearing my name from her mouth, I hate her.

I stop in my tracks suddenly turning around with my face probably red from how angry I am. This makes her come to halt, standing not even three feet in front of me trying to catch her breath. I just now realize I had a ran a block away from the bar, I guess I was too busy focusing on getting away from her.

"Ash-" she breathes. "Talk to me please." She begs.

"No, why the fuck are you even here? Shouldn't you be in Colorado with your boyfriend?" I snap.

"I broke up with him, I'm back because I missed you." She tries to reason, but I'm not having it.

"That's bullshit!" I yell, visibly scaring her.

"Ashton, I've seen all of the articles of you being different, sad, not the same happy Ashton. I know you missed me too."

"I did, but then I realized how better off I am without you." I say quickly. I will not fall back into her trap.

"But I lo-"

"Don't you fucking dare." I warn her.

"Why are you being like this!? Why are you acting like you don't miss or love me!?" She yells.

"Because I don't! Don't you get it, Cleo!? You left me, when I was crying and begging you to stay you ran away. You didn't consider me at all, then you get a boyfriend in a time span of three weeks after we break up and have the audacity to come back and tell me you love me and miss me!?" I scream with a dry laugh. It's like the day she left, but this time I was fighting for myself.

"Ashton.." She whispers. Her blue eyes were searching mine for something, but I looked away.

I can't believe she's actually here. I can't believe I'm yelling at her. I can't believe she's saying all the things I've been waiting to hear, I can't believe it's not how I imagined seeing her again. I taste vile in my mouth just looking at her.

"No, fuck Cleo!" I pull at the roots of my hair frustrated with the way she's pouting out her bottom lip. "You ruined it! You ruined me! And you know what? I don't miss you or love you, I hate you! I want to forget you and all of the stupid, fake memories we made! I want you out of my damn head! I wish I never saw you, I wish I never danced with you, I wish you never called me, I wish I never fell in love with you! I wish I could wake up with amnesia and forget you and finally have you out of my life!" I scream with no limit. And it felt amazing. I felt like with each breath the ache was breaking down bit by bit.

I was letting it all out, but my heart betrayed me by aching at the sight of tears forming in her clear eyes. I begin shaking my head, I can't let her win. I won't.

"I'm done with you Cleo.. Just go back to Colorado and save us both the time and heartache."

With that I take one last look at the girl who I thought I'd marry one day, turning away I begin walking.