A Cup of Coffee

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Elizabeth

Friday/Saturday (14 days left)

I tried to sleep but being with Adam earlier made me realize why I always loved love. It may not be love just yet but I felt something for him. To be honest, I was surprised he showed up and suddenly asked to spend the whole two weeks together.

He was leaving for New York eventually and that scares me because what if I fall in love with him? And what if he doesn't feel the same at the end of it all? Adam may be my soul mate but he can leave just like how Daniel left me. I can't deal with that type of pain anymore. It was terrible and to have no direction in my life at that point, I was lost because my life revolved around Daniel.

I tucked myself into my bed, readying to sleep, because I wanted to get groceries early in the morning and I had to make it to the sale at nine or ten. Katie's been staying over at Nathan's for a while now and I barely see her because we had completely different classes. I was quite upset because we usually spend time together on Friday or the weekends. I ended up falling asleep after a few minutes and I drifted off to dream land where my family was still complete and I was happy.

Few hours later...

I was woken up by knocking on the front door, I tried to get out of my bed quickly but I ended up getting tangled up in my sheets and falling off the bed. The knocking stopped after I fell off the bed, I guess they heard the loud thud.

"Are you okay?" A familiar male voice called out.

"Yeah, give me a minute!" I replied. I hurried to the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth before opening the front door.

"Hey," we said in unison. He was clad in a white T-shirt and blue trousers, his hair was still damp and combed to the side. I could smell his cologne and after shave, and I wanted to jump into his arms in that moment. He cleared his throat breaking our staring contest.

"I wasn't sure what flowers you liked, so I got every kind the store has," he handed me a bouquet filled with red, pink and yellow flowers. I took it and admired it for a while.

"Thank you, that's so sweet of you, I usually like roses,"

"Anything for the beautiful lady. Roses, hmmm I'll keep that in mind,"

"Do you want to come in? Or you can stay outside," I could feel myself blushing because of his comment. I had no make up on and I literally just got out of bed.

"Sure, I woke you up didn't I?"

"Pfft, what do you mean? I was awake the whole time, like I love being up at seven in the morning! And, I mean it's not like I fell off the bed,"

"Haha, I heard you fall."

"On a Saturday morning!" I stepped aside letting him in, trying to remember his smell so I won't ever forget. I set the flowers on the dining table and closed the door behind him.

"Gramm opens the shop early, I drive her and umm, instead of going back home, I decided to spend the day with you with whatever you had planned. Do you have plans today?" He looked at my nervously as he rubbed the back of his neck.

"Yes I have a date,"

"Oh," his face dropped and he tried to avoid my gaze from a moment.

"A date with the grocery store," I continued, trying to hold back my laughter. The look on his face was priceless, I know he planned our day today. Plus he was the last person I talked to before going to bed, how could I possibly find a date right after?

"That scared me for a moment,"

"Yeah haha I saw your face!"

"Can I come along?"

"I mean if you want. But it's too early, there won't be any new stock yet, they usually stock up at like nine in the morning."

"What are we gonna do then?"

"Sleep,"

"We're going to sleep?" He looked at me with both eyebrows raised.

"I'm going to sleep. You can watch on my laptop for a while if you don't want to,"

"Sure," I gestured him to follow me to my side of the room and pushed the curtain out of the way.

"If you want to sleep, you can have my bed, I can sleep on Katie 's bed."

"No stay here," we just looked at each other as he grabbed my hand. My heart wanted to leap out of my throat. Ahh! He's holding my wrist! My entire system is going crazy.

"Okay," I whispered, knowing he could still hear me, I walked past him and headed back to my warm covers that are still on the floor. I picked it up and climbed onto my bed. Then I shifted to the side nearest to the wall to give Adam sone space. He sat on the edge of the bed, hesitantly as he looked around my side of the room. I took my laptop from the table and handed it to him.

"041892"

"Hmm?"

"The password,"

"Okay thanks. What time do I wake you up?"

"In an hour?"

"Okay, I'll just stay awake on my own, all by myself."

"You can sleep if you want Adam," I rolled my eyes trying to hold back a giggle. He was so similar to me.

"I'll think about it. I didn't plan out first date to be like this. Straight into the bedroom," he wiggled his eyebrow causing me to smack his arm. Date. The butterflies in my stomach is going out of control.

"Don't. I'm sleepy,"

"I'm just teasing you. You can trust me," he offered a handsome smile and for some reason, I wanted him to hold me.

After hearing him type away on the laptop, I tried to get some sleep. But an urge to be hold him was so strong and I wanted him to be with me in bed. Not to have sex. I just want him to be beside me. And never leave.

But he will.

A little voice in my head said. And I believed it, like I always did. I can't get too attached. After a few minutes, I finally fell asleep. I could still hear typing in the background but I was too tired to care. All I remember was waking up with my arms around Adam's waist whilst he stayed sitting down on my usual side of the bed. His feet was also on the bed but the laptop was on the table now and his eyes were closed.

As he slept, I studied every part of his face, drinking his every feature in. I didn't want to forget this moment. It was so intimate. I never been on a bed with a guy before and I never felt this close to someone. This was special. His breathing causes his chest to rise and fall regularly. And he looks like he broke his nose few times in his lifetime. He had terribly long eyelashes that are so gorgeous. I let my arm stay on Adam's waist and tried to go back to sleep again.

I wanted all this. Maybe not with Adam, but I wanted this. I wanted to feel all this and experience it all. I wanted to hold someone and to be able to hold someone too. For a long time, I always felt like I had no one. Even when Ellie was alive, she had Carlos and I see them hold each other when the going gets tough. I think that's what love teaches us, even from a young age. To hold hands when it's scary. And even as we get older, we still search for someone to hold. However, that someone can become something over time. And I didn't want to hold onto something anymore when I'm scared or when I'm having having a really rough day.

I know to myself that I'm a strong independent woman on my own, and I didn't need a man but I wanted one to share my life with. It may be Adam but it may not be Adam. But I'm glad that I'm starting to feel things again. I tightened my hold of Adam's waist and pulled myself closer to him. He woke up suddenly and looked down at me to smile, he got the gesture and slid down to lie down beside me. He wrapped one of his arms around me and shifted himself so that he could be under the covers as well.

And for a moment of staring into his eyes, I could stare into his soul. I wanted to cry but I didn't. Instead, we held each other to sleep.