giant book of 5sos imagines

reminder - lrh (5)

Sleepless nights of fighting with him, and doubts of each other's loyalty ran from our mouths. The house we built was trashed and so was he. We even fight over our dog. It's not fair he has so much power over me to make me cry when he looks at me in that way, the way of which he hates me. He despises the words that I was screaming at him, he's nonchalant about it as he watches me from the chair in our living room. Petunia watched from her doggy bed by the bathroom as her owners fought for at least the 10th time this week. He never cries, not one time have I seen Luke's eyes fog up and hear him choke on his words. I just wanted him to look at me with glee in his eyes and tell me I'm all he wants. We haven't said I love you since he returned at least two months ago and neither have I. We sleep beside each other but we never touch, the kisses are limited to only when he leaves the house now. He won't even look at me unless I'm in his face, yelling.

I stopped all my actions and all my yelling. I was holding a half empty beer bottle that I ripped from Luke in the midst. I stood in the kitchen and it all felt foreign. My eyes looked over at the our pup laying in her bed looking just as lost as me. I turned my head towards Luke who hadn't changed out of his clothes from his night out. He dressed up like we were going on a date, to go to the club. He was slouched in the chair with his head back but he wasn't asleep. I wanted to be invisible now as I slowly started walking around the room picking up clothes, trash, and anything to make this look normal again. When I grabbed something off the tiny table beside Luke's chair he lifted his head to look at me. I didn't want to look at him but I knew I had too. He looked tired, the bags under his eyes were clear. He was still angry, I could tell but his eyes were confused on my actions.

"Are you done?" He muttered to me

I nodded and walked away to throw away the trash. I heard feet shuffling around and I turned around and watched the blond boy stand from his spot and pull his hair back in a ponytail.

"Why are you cleaning?" He looked around before at me. I just shrugged my arms. He rolled his eyes at me
"So what now!? You are gonna ignore me? For fucks sake! You tell me how shit of a man and boyfriend I am. You tell me about how nothing is right here and how I don't care and.... and-" he stopped talking to look at me. I leaned against the door frame of the kitchen with crossed arms and I just stared at him. He looked upset over my calmness and he started back up yelling.
"And you beat me down! Why aren't you yelling at me?!" He tensed up and I gave him a confused face.
"Yell at me! Tell me I'm not good enough for you! Tell me how much it hurts to see me this way! You can't just be quiet this is what, you wanted me to yell at you!" He basically speed walked towards me and any other time I'd cower away but this time I stood in my spot and looked at him.
"You want me tell you how bad you are? You mess with my head all the time. You never let me have any fun! You never talk to me unless you're screaming in my face. When I'm in your face you get nervous, why aren't you nervous?! Tell me you hate me again" He was worked up, he didn't notice the tears rolling down his own face. He didn't notice the voice crack and him breaking down. I did and I watched him ask me to say what I've said before again like he wanted to hear it. I uncrossed my arms and I wiped his tears and he shied away from my touch at first. After what seemed like forever he leaned forward and he kissed me. He whimpered at the feeling as soon as he touched me. His hands ran down my hips and he slowly pushed us to the floor. My hands took out the hair band he put in earlier so I could take my fingers through it. He sat up and unbuttoned his shirt as fast as he could and I messed with his pants button. As soon as his shirt was off he went straight to removing mine. He unclasped my bra and as soon as I was bare his lips attached to my neck and kissed down my chest his hands held my hips and mine were in his hair. He kissed the whole way down to my pants he pulled my pants off along with my panties and he leaned up and removed his own pants. He leaned down and kissed me and I wrapped my legs around his hips and he held himself up on the tile with his hands. He pushed himself in me and he threw his head back as I watched his eyes flutter and he whimpered, I moaned quietly and he slowly thrusted and he put his head against mine and his eyes stayed screwed shut and his mouth open letting out grunts and whimpers. I was a mess my hands dug into whatever I could grab and I let out moans and tried to talk every now and then. He went faster and I let go of whatever skin my hands were digging into on him and wrapped them around his neck and I made sure he heard how good he was and how badly I wanted him. He took one hand off the floor and laid it on my back and I whispered "m-make me cum Luke" he whimpered through his words answering me "of course love" he thrusted with everything he had and he let my moans and pleads make him go faster. I pulled his hair and he groaned as his head pulled back. He knew I was going to cum and he kept going at his speed and the hand on my back scratched down my back and I yelped but I admittedly was taken back to moaning as I clenched around him and he moaned "oh fuck!" I held onto him as I came and he kept going while I shook in his arms letting my orgasm ring through my body. He came just after I knew because his body tensed and he used the hand on my back to grip my hair and held it till he was done. We stayed in that spot till his hand let go of my back and I was leaned on the cold, sweat filled kitchen floor. Luke's hair stuck to his forehead and his eyes were shut as I watched him. His eyes flung open and met mine and we just stared into each other's eyes. He pulled out of me and helped me up knowing that I can't really walk as of now. He gave me the shirt he was wearing and slipped on his boxers and the rest of our clothes laid scattered. I leaned on the kitchen counter and watched Luke walk around the house as if nothing happened. He walked into the kitchen and looked at me and then put some stuff in the sink. He turned to walk out and I grabbed his arm. he looked at me with kind eyes, I haven't seen that in awhile. He still had bags under his eyes and he was still sweaty, just as I was.
"Luke... I uh" he raised his eyebrows at me waiting.
"You need sleep let's go to bed, come on"
He didn't protest, he just walked down the hall and I followed. Making sure to pet Petunia on the way. I watched him throw himself in bed and under the covers. I walked around the bed and got in and tried to sleep but just ended up staring into the darkness in my thoughts. I felt the bed move and arms wrapped around me and a warm body press to my back.
"I love you" he whispered and I nodded
"I love you Luke" and I fell asleep with a snoring Luke on my shoulder.