i'd like to explain the events which transpired during a relationship of mistrust and mistreatment.
1. he made his intentions clear.
he wanted me for my body and learned to like me for my personality.
2. he attempted suicide.
"i wasn't thinking straight"
— i wish id left then and there—
3. he grew distant.
decided i wasn't worth his time.
4. he got into fights.
i asked him to stop.
he did not.
5. he smoked pot.
i asked him to stop.
he did not.
6. he broke up with me.
"i need time to figure stuff out. one month. then i'll be back and it'll be better"
7. two days later he was ready to get back together.
i accepted.
it only got worse.
8. he got into a bike accident.
9. he continued to get into fights.
10. he was more affectionate and protective of his friends than he was of me.
11. he attempted suicide again.
12. he apologized for being distant and not talking to me.
13. "good morning" "good morning" "how'd you sleep?" "fine" "ok have a good day text me when you get home" "ok"
14. he was sick for a week.
15. he called and apologized for how he's been.
he said he was going to be better.
16. a guy messaged me.
17. i was finally, completely honest about the relationship.
18. i made up my mind.
19. i gave him one more chance.
it did not go well.
20. i ended the relationship.
21. a week later i asked for him back.
22. he sends me a picture of him and his new girl.
23. i blocked him.
24. i ended up more broken than i was when it started.
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Slick Depression
RandomI pour my heart and soul into you. I give you my time. My money. My love. My trust- something I don't give freely And I'm still not enough. **gets better as you go, I promise** Inspired by @revengeavenue Self Restoration. Amazing poems in there...
