On My Own: Summer Vacation a Diggy Simmons Love Story

Chapter 38: Puppets

Elana P.O.V

For a few days now; I’ve isolated myself in my bedroom. Not on some dramatic type stuff but I wasn’t feeling well emotionally and physically. Diggy and I haven’t talk since that last argument and since that friendly date with Amy and Chris; Amy hasn’t called me. I wonder how I end up in these stupid places in life and why it’s me who go through this. I sat in bed with the laptop on my lap. I was ready to leave and what I mean by leave I mean leave for good. I kind of want to stay with my aunt Lidia. I haven’t really talked to her as often as I did before she got into that relationship with the big time lawyer. I looked at the flights from Malibu to New York. My phone ring as scrolled down the page.

“Elana; can you meet me somewhere? I’ll text you the address.” It was Amy.

I got up and put on some sweats and a shirt. I had some stomach pains from some seafood I ate so I couldn’t move as fast as I needed to. Within 5 minutes I was driving towards the address where Amy was located. I was frantic and felt uneasy because I didn’t know if she was in danger or not. I pulled up to a vacant parking lot. Her car sat in a parking space. She sat on the hood of her car. I got out and waved. She waved back as I walked closer to her.

“What’s up?” I grinned.

“Elana I have to tell you something.” She straightened her posture.

“What is it?” I asked.

“First I will like to say sorry. I didn’t want that to happen. Chris is so controlling and I can’t really do anything. When I met him he was cool and he had my back but overtime he was just aggressive. He never really hit me but he did little things like pull my hair and push or pull me. I’m not from out here. Chris kind of lead me into leaving with him to here. Everyone at home thinks I’m a runaway or I’m dead. He only cut off contact because he didn’t want them to take me back. He did me wrong but I did him wrong too because I got pregnant a few months ago. I met up with an old friend from back home. He was like my best friend. We hung out secretly but he became my boyfriend. I’ve been trying to get away from Chris because my stomach is getting bigger. Chris would kill me if he found out I had a baby. Oh and the marks on my arms are due to injections. Chris is a drug dealer and when he has a fresh batch he makes me try them. But I replaced the drug with like water and Tylenol pain relievers. He doesn’t know that the stuff he sending out might be faulty or no good. It isn’t my fault because he’s a cheap bastard. Rumor on the street is their going to hit up Chris’s apartment tonight or even do a drive by because he’s been screwing over everyone. I need you to get me out of here. I don’t care if you have to make me pay rent to stay at your house but I’ll do whatever. Just please help me out.” She told.

I sighed.

“Maybe I shouldn’t have put all this off on you so fast.” She frowned.

“It’s okay it’s just that I was trying to leave sometime tomorrow or the day after. I’m going back to New York.” I revealed.

She gasped. “Why so soon?”

“It’s just a lot of stress and drama. I’m having problems with almost everyone or everyone has a problem with me. It’s a lot to go through. I don’t want hurt anyone or make them feel as if I am a burden especially my guardians and my boyfriend.” I scratched my head.

“Your boyfriend? You guys are like the cutest couple from what you’ve told me. How would you be a burden on him?”

I sat on the hood of the car and looked up at the skies. “We haven’t had the best of a relationship since before my ex-boyfriend got involved. Since then we’ve been up and down. I remember we used to argue over petty things; stuff that we would easily recover from in a few hours now the arguments are just horrible. I played with his emotions terribly and I regret it.  Sometimes I just lash out or do things I couldn’t find myself doing.” I looked down at the floor.

“Maybe it’s that Jionni guy. Have you ever got closure from him?” She asked.

“Closure?”

“Yeah an apology.” Amy detailed.

“No.” I laughed. “He’d never say sorry.”

“I think you should visit him.” She looked at me.

“Visit him?!” I stared at her crazily.

Elana P.O.V

“Yeah. He’s the one who caused all of this. Jionni did all these things to you and now you’re starting to do it to your boyfriend; He turned you into him.” She shook her head.

“Why would you say that?!” I started to tear.

“Because it’s the truth!” She yelled. “Are you really stupid to believe that when he got done with you; he was going to let you go back to your boyfriend? No you told me he hates him. So he trained you to hate him too. He’s clever. He made you break up with him, had you lying, he made you play with his emotions. He needed you to be away from him. If your boyfriend saved you that first time he was going to do it again and Jionni knew that. He do this stuff to you not out of emotions but more so on purpose. I call it tumbling towers. These guys knock down all your walls and friendships until you feel isolated like there is nobody there for you. Your self-esteem becomes low and you do whatever they say anything they want. If you Jionni wanted you to do his whole crew you’d do it not because you like it but that’s the only thing you feel you’re capable of. “

“He wouldn’t have been able to do that.” I start to cry.

“But he did! Jionni won even if he is in jail he still won. The objective of the game is to get you weak and under his control. Jionni only lost on one thing and that’s to have to deal with the fact he’s in jail and your boyfriend is still alive but other than that he won. He trained you well enough to hurt him even while Jionni is in Jail so when he come back you’ll be waiting right there for him single with nobody. That’s why you need to go up to the prison and talk to him and let him know he ain’t break down that wall and he didn’t win sh___t but a jail sentence. You have to let him know that you starting over fresh with your boyfriend and that you’re going to rebuild what he knocked down. You do it with your head up high to don’t show him that you’re hurt. Once he hears all of this he’ll crumble and probably start crying too.”

I was crying hard by this time. She grabbed both of my shoulders.

“You’re not his puppet. You’re not! You have to get over him you have to. You’ll be dead in some months if you don’t.” She started crying.” I don’t want you to end up like me or Alicia. Please don’t end up like her.” She sobbed in my clothes making them wet with her tears.

“What about you?” I wiped my tears.

“I got my closure now it’s time for me to leave.” She said.