Yes No or Maybe

Joey

Time really flies.
Well, you don't see clocks flying around like pigeons, but damn, time really flies.
It's been four months since Alfie and I decided to get together. It's been about three months and three weeks since we came out to Tess and Shawn. It's about three months since we came out to our friends. And to say at least, I think it's time for us to come out to our viewers on YouTube.
Alfie and I had talked about it the previous week. We're scared and we both know it. Alfie loves me and I know that, but it's not that easy to come out to over four million people. Of course we know we are going to lose subscribers. And there will be a lot of hate. But they don't matter. Real fans would support us.
And that's how we ended up in Alfie's room, getting ready to film or coming out video. Alfie is sitting next to me, and we're wearing a matching pair of shirts we'd gotten. My palms are sweaty and I constantly have to keep wiping them on my jeans. My heart is pounding and to say I'm nervous is an understatement.
I'm fucking terrified.
"Ready?" I hear Alfie ask from his spot beside me.
I hesitate, but shake my head. I let out a nervous chuckle and just sigh. "No... but yes. I'm ready."
Alfie just laughs full-heartedly. "It'll be okay. I'm right here beside you, Joe..."
I smile before turning to him I smile before turning to him. I give him a quick peck on the lips, mumbling a, 'thank you,' before turning back to the camera.
"Ready?" Alfie asks again.
This time I nod, and Alfie turns the camera on.
"Hello everyone!" Alfie greets first, smiling widely. "Guess who I'm here with?" He taps his chin and looks thoughtfully. He then grins and gestures at me. "Who are you?" He whispers loudly.
"I'm Joey," I say my voice coming out a little rusty.
"I can't hear you," Alfie mocks the SpongeBob intro and I just laugh.
"Ay, Ay, Captain. I'm Joey!" I say a little louder, feeling some pressure being lifted off my shoulder.
"That's right," Alfie assures, turning back to the camera. "I'm here with the one and only, Joey!"
I just chuckle hesitantly.
"Alright, so, this video will be a little different from your usual video. I know I haven't been uploading a lot of videos lately and I apologize for that. Life has been... different. I'll explain."
"You might be wondering why Joey is here, considering this isn't like our usual collab videos, but he plays a big role," Alfie explains.
He glances at me from the corner of his eye and smiles a little. "You okay?" he mouths, and I just nod.
"Alright!" he says loudly. "Um. So, recently, well, it's been a few months actually, our lives changed. For good, might I add? And... um."
I can feel him tense up next to me and I know he's getting nervous. He's hesitating.
I take his hand and decide to take it from there. "We're boyfriends," I say loudly.
Alfie just chuckles and nods. "It's weird. Different. But in a good way. I love Joey. Like, a lot. and I know we will probably lose subscribers but I don't care. I don't want to hide our relationship," he says, lowering his head.
I just smile and press a chaste kiss to his cheek. "I love you," I mumble.
I turn back to the camera. "So, yeah. There you have it. Alfie and I are dating. We love each other a lot and your support would mean the world to us."
Alfie nods in agreement. "Wow, that just got serious," he adds with a laugh. "Well, anyways," he says, wrapping his arms around my neck. He nuzzles his head on my neck and presses kisses around the area. "We'll be doing the boyfriend tag on Joey's channel or something. I don't know. Comment below?"
I just chuckle. "Well, that's it."
Alfie pulls away and does his outro. "And I'll see you next time with another video."
I just put two thumbs up and then Alfie gets u t turn the camera off.
"That went well," he comments.
I nod. "Yeah, better than I thought." I chuckle and get up.
Alfie starts to put his camera back and I just smile at the sight. He's beautiful, even when he's just holding a camera.
I let out a sigh of relief and walk over to him. I wrap my arms around his waist and rest my head on the crook of his neck. I press a kiss on the back of his neck and hum happily.
"I love you," I say.
Alfie just chuckles and brings up a hand to par my cheek. "What're you getting serious for all of a sudden about?" he asks light-heartedly.
"I don't know," I admit. "I just love you. You're so perfect and beautiful and I love you so much." I slide my hands down to the hem of his shirt, just lifting it playfully before sliding my hands into them.
I feel Alfie shudder and a gasp escapes his mouth as I brush a hand over one of his nipples.
"I love you," I repeat.
"I- I love you too," Alfie responds, leaning back against my chest. "Joey- wow, okay, I- fuck. Bed. Please.
I just chuckle and pull back before taking the brunette's hand into mine. I drag him to his bed and gently press him down against it. He lays there with half lidded eyes and I just smirk at the sight. He's hot.
I climb on top of him and kiss him again. I pull back and repeat the kisses. They're chaste and close mouthed, and I can just hear Alfie whine every time I pull back.
Alfie brings a hand up to grip my hair, to which I just groan slightly.
"Kiss me, you fool," he mumbles, pulling me down.
I just chuckle as our lips connect again. This time the kiss is passionate and slow, and soon I find my tongue begging Alfie's mouth for entrance. Alfie grants it and I just hum into his mouth contently.
As our mouths make love, my hands slip down the hem of his shirt. My hands linger there for a second before lifting it. Our lips disconnect for a second so that I can take his shirt off. Before I can connect our lips again, Alfie stops me.
"Your shirt," he points out. "Off."
I obey and take a moment to slip my shirt off. I toss it to the side before leaning down to capture his lips into mine.
"I love you," I mumble as our lips connect.
I love saying it. I love telling him how much I love him. I just love him.
I bring my hands up his chest to his neck. I rub slightly at his neck and then his shoulders as our lips dance alongside each other's. I slide my hands down to his chest and remove them slightly to move them over to his nipples.
I find myself rubbing them, rolling my thumb over them, which causes Alfie to make noises that is like music to my ears.
I remove my lips from his and latch them onto his neck. Alfie moans and tilts his head to give me more access. I smile a bit before nibbling at his neck, leaving a mark shortly after.
I press my body down to Alfie's, my hands still playing with his nipples and my teeth still digging into his skin. I hear Alfie mewl softly, which causes me to harden in his pants, and it gets worse when I feel Alfie's hard-on rub against my stomach.
I pull back slightly, breathing huskily. And then it begins.
Lips desperately find each other, and hands roam around for the feel of skin. Hands find pants and clothes are being taken of. Hands roam bodies, stroking and touching and stroking until we reach out climax.
"I love you," I say for the millionth time that day.
"I love you too."

The end