Nothings Fine I'm Torn (A One Direction Fanfic)

I'll find the words to say, before you leave me today

Author's note~ Okay guys, Josh was just a random character to show Lou and El's friendship. He is NOT their drummer. It will all make sense in the next few chapters. If you're reading please let me know what you think

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Elli's P.O.V

It must have been around eleven o'clock at night when I woke up. Harry was asleep next to me. I carefully lifted up his arm and snuck out of bed. Harry must have carried me back here last night. I crept out of the room and was very careful not to wake Harry. I walked into the kitchen and took out a pen and piece of paper.

'Dear Harry, I'm sorry but I can't do this anymore. It's not fair on you. Don't come looking for me no matter what. You have to move on and forget about me. I really do love you but we can't be together. I'm sure you'll think of something to tell the boys. Please know that I love you with all my heart and always will. There is no easy way to say this but I'm not going to be coming back. Harry you're going to have to trust me when I say this is for your own good.

I will always love you, El xox'

I felt the tears start in my face. I could go now but then Harry would just come looking for me. It's better that he goes to America and finds out when he comes back. He won't go otherwise. I put the note in my pocket and started to walk back into my room.

I slowly crept around the room and started to pack my things. When I was done I hid the suitcase behind the sofa.

"What are you doing El?" Louis asked as he came into the room rubbing his eyes. Crap! I'd been caught.

"Nothing Lou" I lied. His eyes widened as he saw my suitcase.

"You're going, are'nt you?" he asked in a low tone, never taking his eyes of the suitcase.

"Lou you don't understand" I said.

"I uderstand perfectly! I've met plenty of girls like you. You take what you want and then leave. I've been use before, how could you do that to Harry?". I had never seen Louis so angry.

"Louis no..."

"Don't even talk to me El, how could you be so sick. After Liam let you into his family and Harry, after everything Harry has done for you! How could you be such a selfish cow?"

"I..."

"I thought you were better than this El. You were like a sister to me!"

"Louis please you might wake Harry"

"I should bloody wake him up" He snapped, walking up to me so that I could hear his low tone. I suppose he did'nt want Harry to hear. "Then you can explain why you're fucking leaving us".

I cringed backward as he walked up to me. As he approached his hands were clenching and un-clenching into fists. His face was filled with raged. Louis would never hurt me. No matter how angry he was. I had been in this situation so many times before and so many memories came flooding back.

I shook uncontrollably as I stumbled backward. My knees felt weak as I tried to get away. Louis must have noticed as he stopped in his tracks.

"El? What's wrong? I did'nt mean to". He took a step closer to me as I took another back.

"Please don't hurt me" I whimpered as I fell to my knees and put my head in my hands.

"El, I would never hurt you. No matter how angry or upset I was". I was'nt seeingLouis anymore. He sat down next to me and put his arm around me. I flinched and started to cry.