Nothings Fine I'm Torn (A One Direction Fanfic)

It's all that I can think about

Elli's P.O.V

I was aware of someone talking to me while I slept but I was'nt paying much attention to what they were saying. I buried my head in my pillow. Last night was the first time I had been able to sleep properly since moving to Liam's.

Who ever it was kept talking so I rolled over so that I had my back to them. They placed a hand on my back and started to shake me gently. 

I reluctantly opened my eyes and sat up. I was in my pyjama's and it was Liam who was on the phone.

"What time is it?" I asked him as I rubbed the sleep from my eyes.

"It's 9 in the morning" he answered. Wow. I was'nt really a late sleeper. In fact, I was always usuaklly up by 8.

I swung my legs around and of the bed. Liam handed me a cup of tea.

"Thanks" I said.

"No problem, I'm going out with Danielle in a minute but Zayn will be here soon". Out of the boys, I never really spoke to Zayn. It was never awkward or uncomfortable around him, the conversation was just rather quiet. A yawn escaped my lips and I stood up.

"Have you heard from Harry at all?" I asked. Harry's foot was healed now so he was able to walk on it. I had'nt heard from him all week which wasd a bit strange. he must have a reason though...right?

"No, sorry El" Liam sighed. I guess he knew how I was feeling. One of the many things I liked about Liam is he could usually tell what I was thinking. As much as I liked this about him, it was also a pain at times.

If I did'nt want to show what mood I was in, Liam could see straight through me. I usually locked my bedroom door at night. Only because I did'nt want Liam or Danielle or anyone to see me when I woke up in the mornings.

The nightmares had been getting worse. Up until a few weeks ago, it had only been one or two nightmares that reoccurred every night. Not this time though. These nightmares were different. The very thought of them sent a shiver down my spine.

Remembering Liam was in the room, I pushed those thoughts to the back of my mind.

"Well, I might go and see him later" I said as I walked over to my wardrobe.

"Okay, try and take Zayn with you though. Harry will kill me if he knows that you're going by yourself" Liam said as he walked towards the door.

"I will".

I shut the door and pulled out my phone, searching for Harry's number. I started to ring and paced up and down my room. Yet again, it went straight to voice mail. A sigh escaped my lips.

"Hey Haz, it's El but I guess you already new that right? Let me know if you get this. I miss you...alot". I hung up the phone.

I quickly got changed into my jeans and a peter pan collar top. There was a knock at the front door so I went and answered it. It was Zayn.

"Hey" I said, smiling as he walked into the house.

"Hi, are you ready to go" he asked me.

"Gimme a minute, what are we doing today?".

"That's for me to know and for you to find out" he said with a big smile on his face. I put on my converse and grabbed my bag.

"Let's go then".

I sat on the bench next to Zayn as we waited for the train to arrive.

"So am I allowed to know where we are going now?" I asked.

"Nope" he answered, popping the P.

"Urgh, I hate surprises"

Zayn laughed and pulled out a cigarette. I did'nt like the fact that Zayn smoked but I'd never said anything. I was worried about him. I looked away from him and fiddled with my hair.