Nothings Fine I'm Torn (A One Direction Fanfic)

I see you every time I close my eyes, what am I gonna do?

Elli's P.O.V

"Is she awake?" I heard a voice say.

"I'm not sure" said another.

"Maybe we should wake her up" someone added.

"Do you think we should?" another person asked. I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"El babe, you need to wake up". It was Harry's voice. I sat up and opened my eyes. "Good morning sleepy" he said grinning. I wiped my eyes and yawned. Liam was in the room as well. There were two other people there but they looked unfamiliar.

"Morning Haz. Morning Liam" I said.

"El, I'd like you to meet my parents" Liam said. They aproached me and shook my hand.

"Hello Mr and Mrs Payne, My names El". I was so nercous. I was terrible at interviews and meeting new people. I must have looked like a bit of a mess this morning.

"We know who you are silly" Liam's mum said. "And please, call me Karen".

"Nice to meet you Karen" I said smiling at her. Liams dad geve me  smile.

"My name's Geoff and I am Liam's dad".

"It's very nice to finally meet you". Wow. I had just met my new parents. There were four people around my bed. Harry, Liam, Karen and Geoff, my family. Not forgetting of course about Niall, Zayn and Louis. Harry looked over at me and smiled. I sat up on the bed and swung my legs around so they were hanging off the edge. Harry's face turned from happy to worried.

"El, I think that you should..."

"Stay in bed? Haz, I've been in hospital for a week and a half now, I think it's time that I started to get up and walk about again" I said.

"I now, I just think that you could..."

"Don't worry. I won't hurt myself. It's my wrist that's broken not my legs"

"I know but you've got a broken wrist and you've just been stabbed in the..."

"My stomach is healing. Don't worry". I stood up. I did'nt like argueing with Harry, I was just so bored of staying in bed all the time. He grabbed my hand.

"Please El, at least ask the doctor if it's safe for you to start walking around". I gazed into his deep green eyes.

"Harry, I don't need a doctor. Anyway, even if I do hurt myself, I've got you to look after me right?" I smiled at him. He pulled me into a tight hug and kissed my lips.

"Your so stubborn sometimes". He let out a small chuckle and ran his fingers through my hair. Harry let go of the hug but put his arm around my waist. I looked at Karen and Geoff.

"So El, would you like to stay at Harry and Lou's or would you like to come and live with us and your new sisters?" Karen said. What should I do? I wanted to stay with Harry and Lou, but how would my new parents feel bout me living with two teenage boys?. I looked at Harry.

He put his lips close to my ear and whispered "I don't mind if you want to El but I really love having you at mine and Lou's". I did really like staying with Harry and Louis. Louis had become my bestfriend and Harry was my entire world.  "And think of all the fun we could have" he continued. He winked at me.

"Erm...thanks for the offer but, if you don't mind, I'd like to stay with Harry and Louis, please?".

"That's fine, just remember that we'll always be here if you need us".  I nodded my head and smiled.

"Karen, we need to go now" Geoff said. He then turned and looked at me and Harry. "Goodbye El, It was nice to meet you and Harry, look after our new daughter or you'll have us to answer too" he said jokingly.

"Goodbye" I said as I gave them both a hug. It was weird. I'd never known my parents, I'd never had a proper home and now I have. Karen and Geoff left the room.

"I should go now aswell" Liam said. "I need to go and meet up with Danielle but I'll try and visit againg as soon as I can". I gave Liam a hug as well and he left the room. As he ;eft the doctor walked in.

"Good morning, It's nice to see that your up and bout again El".

"Thanks, I guess I'm just getting bored sitting in bed all day" I admitted.

"Well then, I've got some rather good news. You can go home tomorrow".

"Really?". I could go back home? I could go back with Harry and Louis where Taylor would never find me.

"Yes". I swung my arms around Harry and Kissed his lips. "I'll leave you too alone shall I?". The doctor left the room.

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"Stop it please! Please leave me alone! Please!" I squealed as I felt the cold blade on the knife pressed lightly on my skin. I was laying on the ground and I felt his knee digging into my stomach. His tounge forced entry into my mouth and all of my attempts to push him off were useless.

"Harry! Liam! Anybody, somebody please help!". He pinched my arms and pounded my stomach as I cried out in pain. It was the sme attack, in the same place. It was haunting me in my dreams and no matter how hard I tried to forget, I could'nt. Liam, Zayn and Niall will come. They'll find me. They'll save me. No one came. It was worse, the violence continued for what seemed like forever and when it was all over, the knife was once again stabbed into my stomach. No one was there. It was just me and him, the man in my nightmare. I could'nt wake up, I could'nt escape.

I felt the room spinning as everything went black. All I could see was his face. The face of the man that took my baby from me, the man that damaged my body, the man that damaged my mind. He was laughing at my suffering.

My eyelids swung open and I sat up. I was sweating and  my whole body was shaking violently. Harry was'nt in the room. He was'nt there to hold me and tell me everything would be okay. I held onto my legs as I curled up into a ball on the bed. I let the tears flow from my eyes as I took deep breaths.

Harry walked in holding a coffee and dropped it when he saw me. He ran to the side of my bed and held me in his arms. The dream replayed in my mind.

"Did you have another nightmare?" he asked. I nodded my head and did'nt look at him. "Everything's okay. It was all a dream. It was just a dream". He stroked my hair and kissed my forehead.

"No it's not. Nothing will ever be okay Harry. I let him take my baby away from me. I let him try to kill us".

"It was my baby too El" he reminded me.

"I know" I said as I felt the tears start in my eyes. "We did'nt get the chance to talk though. I did'nt know whether or not you... whether or not you wanted it" I admitted.

"Of course I wanted it El. It was our baby".

"I'm so sorry Harry. It's all my fault. I should've tried to stop him but I could'nt..."

"Don't ever say that El. It's not your fault and it never will be. You can't blame yourself for what he did to you". It was true though. It is all my fault. I should've tried to stop him more. I should've protected our baby.

"No, Harry. You don't understand. It's all my fault and I'm sorry". I avoided eye contact with him but he gently lifted my chin up so that my eyes met his gaze.

"El. Don't even think that. It was'nt your fault. You tried to stop him. You tried to get away. He was just to strong and you should never blame yourself". I thought about it some  more. He was right. I did try but he was to strong. I nodded my head. I started to cry and leaned my head on Harry. All I wanted was to be safe at home with Harry. I wanted things to be how they were before the attack and before Taylor showed up.

"Can we go home soon Harry?" I asked.

"Actually El, all of your bags are packed and we can leave in an hour or two". I wiped away my tears and kissed Harry's lips.