Mental-Taekook

~6~

pls watch the video above it goes so well with everyone's characters, especially further into the story.

~Taehyung~

~flashback~

I need to kill you,

thats the only way to get you out of my head, to silence all the sweet little things you said,

rainy days, and black umbrellas.

who's gonna save you now?

ill be at the wake dressed in all black, i'll call out your name but you wont call back,

i wont mourn you when you go.

i used to say im sorry, so now im really sorry, sorry for being the apologetic one.

so my condolences, i'll open a bottle up, pour a little bit out in your memory.

i'll hand a flower to your mother when i say goodbye

because you're dead to me.

I remember, i remember when i lost my mind, there was something so pleasant about that place,

i painted white roses red, each shade from a different persons head, it's a dream, dream is a killer.

because all of me, loved all of you, and you threw it away like it was nothing, you treat me like nothing, am i nothing now? Tell me now your life is in my hands, Am i nothing now?!

"You're fucking crazy"

"all the best people are." I chuckled,

"i think you're crazy too, i know you are it's the reason we got along."

"g-get away from me"

"you scared? do i terrify you? I wanna torture you, I'm just addicted to watching you in pain, no emotions thats what this business is, we both know it."

He shook in fear,

"I'm no longer the victim."

this case won't be solved, it will be revealed, I'm not afraid to tell the world, the world gets to know how Kim Taehyung got his revenge on his abusive rapist boyfriend,

but they won't know your name, you wont get the publicity you always wanted,

You will die a wasted man,

You will die a slow painful death.

You expected me to be fine, exit it all like normal, like im normal, you turned me into this, now its time for you to pay the consequences you're going to be a slave to my games.

~present~

Deprived  by society, that's whats happened to me

something was said in that room that day, the day it started,

'no emotions that's what this business is'

This whole business is my life,

so why does Jungkook keep ruining it, he makes me feel something i havent felt in a long time,

wanted.

he seems to like, and weirdly look up to me, he obviously doesn't know what happened, im glad he doesn't, I for some reason don't want him to be afraid of me, I need someone to trust,

i know he's not my friend, no one wants to be my friend, i know Hobi is secretly in it for something, they all are, they all want something in the end, Jungkook just wants a promotion, Jimin wanted me to get to Yoongi, Yoongi wanted me to get to Jimin, jin hyung barely even speaks to me after what happened,

and namjoon,

namjoon tried to kill me, Probably why Jin doesnt speak to me, they think i Dont know,

i know everything

im fucked up, and built for the abuse, i've got secrets nobody knows, i dont want what i can get, i want someone different.

~jungkook~

tears started dripping down his face, i've never seen someone look so broken, i took off my seatbelt i had just buckled, leaning over and wiping his tears away,

"w-why jungkook?"

"what do you mean why?"

"why are you so nice to me after what i did?"

I turned his head using my finger, to face me, my eyes locked with his tear fulled ones,

"You clearly regret it-"

"but i dont, thats what scares everyone, no one will ever forgive me,"

"You're only a human."

"what i did wasn't humane,"

"no such thing, you like to think of yourself as the smartest person here taehyung, then tell me why can't you understand people make mistakes"

"it wasnt a mistake."

"Listen you're great you help people all the time now, like a hero."

"heros don't exist Jungkook and if they did im definitely not one of them,"

"crazy thats what they call you, but i promise you, now you've met me, you won't ever be lonely again."

he smiled, his second general smile since i saw him, yet I can't get over it, it was so cute, a little box almost,

He isnt evil, just confused, he isn't crazy just influenced, i can tell, i may not be able to read everything like he can, but i know when someone is hurting, from first hand experience.

"I dont know why i trust you Jungkook, but i don't like it."

"You trust me tae because im here for you, im not evil or a prick, i don't care about your past if it only brings hurt on you, im here for now,"

"you're a good person, i overheard your conversation with Yoongi, i understand if you don't want to be friends jungkook."

"dude, you really think i'm going to follow him like a dog?"

he chuckled,

"Jungkook, sorry for what's about to happen,"

"wha-"

darkness.