Mental-Taekook

~19~

this is going to be a two chapter sort of thing,you'll see why.

~Jungkook~

They say virginity is like a flower, one you're supposed to protect and look after, until the one who loves you the most takes it,

I thought back to when tae said he thinks I seem to be the sort of person to fuck someone and go, it's the first time he's ever been wrong, because I still have my flower,

I look around my body, nothing but blood pain and scars, mental scars are cutting into me too, I'm about to give up.

For once and for all, it hurts too much to believe someone is going to come, to believe this could be like some story, fuck, Taehyung already taught me that life isn't like this, but I didn't listen, I never do, he's always fucking right,

Heaven can't help me now.

Just say you'll see me again, even if it's just in your dreams, I'm too close to breaking, 

I don't think i can live through this any longer, 

just remember, i'll be there in your wildest dreams, 

i'm trying to sleep all these demons away, but it won't work, the pain won't allow it, you wouldn't allow it taehyung, you'd make me fucking fight through it, 

I'm feeling used but im still fucking missing you, i realise how much i need you.

I can't but no body, not even myself above you, I miss you now, when i can't sleep, or right after the shocks.

fucked around and got attached to you, I don't mean no harm i just want you for my own, lie to me, now my feelings are all fucking mixed, you said you'd fucking help me no matter, everyone i do right, does me wrong,

so i hate you.

but i love you.

you don't care you never did, you don't give a damn about me, you can't, you're not able to, but how is it that you didn't notice, that you were slowly killing me, 

this all turned so sour so quickly, but hey, i guess that shit is karma, karma for being such a dick to everyone, for my fucking past, i was such a cunt to everyone in school,  i was such a cunt to jimin, to jin hyung, just because i couldn't say what i meant, that i couldn't say how much i needed them in my life, 

"i've fucking tried...i promise you i have, i promise im trying to fight tae, for you, fuck, p-please c-come,"

i lifted my head up, footsteps, loud clanging ones, like metal  boots hitting the ground, the noise just haunting me, i edge myself back as much as i can, it hurting me even more, but i need to escape i have to if i want to live, but i know i can't any more, i'm too weak at this point. 

fuck.

~taehyung~ 

is this my new legacy? saving a guy who has fucking turned  my life into something i never expected? i guess, a part of me isn't fine with that, but i think i should be.

i grabbed my gun, shoving it by the side of my pants, hiding it, 

only i can help him now, im going to get him out of this town, I ran out of the front door, looking around for my car, of course

of fucking course they hid it, they think they know everything, they always fucking do, they know nothing.

i have to be right-i need to be,

i bit my lip, fuck, i started running faster, the wind blowing my hair, he wasn't built to fall apart this quickly, I remember thinking how dumb he is, he's not.

i should've fucking stayed.

none of this would've happened if i didn't just leave you, the sun came up and i was looking at you, i remember,

oh i remember, 

i walked out thinking "Setting you free" but you started crying,  thats what jimin said, but listen i did too. 

the more i think about it now, the more i realise, i drove us off the road, all i had to do is stay, hold you in my arms, hey, now i want it back, but it might be too late, all i do was stay 

 people like you are gone forever when you say goodbye, why'd i have to go and lock you out? when you let me in. Could've been easy, all i had to do is stay.

this is what i wanted- i ended it, 

i was too blind to see, you were all i wanted,

but not like this, no-not like this.

  all i do was stay.

from street to street i ran, trying to find you, it's midnight, theres no headlights, you got that, daydream look in your eyes, and i have that fucking 'mysterious' look that you like, we wouldn't of ever went out of anyones minds, 

~no one's p.o.v~ 

taehyung ran, as fast as his legs could carry him, he knew exactly where the younger was, he wanted him now, jungkook had very few thoughts in his mind as the footsteps didn't stop

"just take me home"

"i'm going to take you home."

legs, running, cars driving by,

"n-no go away, p-please d-dont."

heavy breathing, arms swinging back and forth as the speed increased.

"P-PLEASE STOP." 

 determined, and angry, buildings everywhere.

"please...don't" 

cars speeding, legs moving faster.

"NO GET AWAY."

door broke open, wood everywhere and...