Mental-Taekook

~15~

~Taehyung~
Why I even put myself in this position I couldn't tell you, the simple answer was that I didn't know, I didn't know why I got myself arrested.

I just felt guilty, but it wasn't guilt about the murder, but something was eating away at me, it kept telling me to fix it, and this was the only thing I could think of.

It still hasn't fixed it, I'm tempted to just run away again, I know how to get out of here, they haven't sealed all the exits, but I know I'd have to keep running, and leave certain people behind.

And I feel like that would only make this feeling worse, much worse.

to say my life has changed would be an understatement, a big one, since he's came my feelings have gone rapid, my thought became a maze, unclear, I became confused.

And I tried to get rid of it by running, but that gave me this different feeling, a feeling that was eating me alive and I couldn't handle it, I just couldn't. I felt mentally and physically sick it was that bad, I don't know why they think I turned myself in but I know they don't think it's that,

Jungkook took me back so quickly, I say took me back, he stopped hating me so quickly.

It's almost sweet how much I clearly mean to him, I sit up on my bed sighing, I haven't felt like this in years, I hummed softly, the memories coming back, of him, the one who started it all, many memories, the first time he kissed me, told me he loved me, well they turned bittersweet relatively fast,

I almost scoffed thinking of when he left me for that night alone, the first night he cheated on me, emphasis on first, he liked to get around it hurt me so much then, it felt like my world was slowly ending, but it got worse, much worse.

But that doesn't matter now.

Smiling to myself I chuckle, I don't have to deal with that anymore,

I turn my head as my door opens, revealing an almost concerned looking jin, i can only assume he was concerned because I'm stuck in a house that many, misery's happened in, they don't bother me now,

But jimin says I've just convinced myself that it doesn't, I wonder if he's right sometimes, sometimes.

"Yes? May I help you?"

"I don't think you're in the position to help anyone right now tae,"

Smiling slightly I sighed "maybe, are you going to tell me why you're here?"

"I wanted to know how you're doing, I know things happened-"

"I forgot about that stuff a long time ago."

"Then why do you know what I'm on about?"

"Because I'm not dumb."

Groaning he sat next to me, "Tae I'm here to help, you've always been like a little brother to me, remember? You used to come to mine and Namjoons when..." trailing off he sighed looking at me.

"When Kang-dae used to cheat on me, or did something to me, I remember." I looked away, not wanting to see his condescending and worried eyes on me,