Mental-Taekook

~20~

Major trigger warning, please don't read if you're sensitive to topics such as:

Rape,

Violence,

Suicide.

~no ones p.o.v~

You can't wake up, this is not a dream, these voices won't leave you alone, there's a fault in your code, you're now pulled apart at the seams too, it'll all turn gray soon, don't worry.

Screams of horror, tears of pain, but he starts to give in, to the sin.

"It's going to feel so good slut, first time, I can tell, fresh meat, silly boy, you should've behaved"

His eyes were full of lust, the younger, Jungkooks Of course, full of fear and tears.

He gripped his thighs, "welcome to the final show, you won't be needing any of these clothes."

The man quite literally ripped off his clothes, the only shred of humanity he had left, because he's only human, he can't hold his breath for too long, but he can bite his tongue if that's what helps,

He couldn't move, he couldn't escape, he could only hope, because he's crashed and broke down, he's fell apart, and he can't build himself back up on his own,

There's a war inside of his head, he's really hoping he was dead, he's broken, no need for a therapist he can't be fixed.

"P-please n-no,"

A snicker came out of the mans mouth, the whimpers clearly, egging him on, it made him more determined, to strip the young boy off his innocence,

A quick thrust, but a shit ton of pain, and another scream of horror.

~Taehyung~

It can't be empty, n-no it can't, he's supposed to be here- I figured it out, he's supposed to fucking be here, so I could fucking shoot the person who's kept him here

HES SUPPOSED TO BE HERE.

I stare at my hands, before punching the wall, I-I've failed him.

I'm supposed to be right, I'm always right "I'm always right, I can't be wrong now, Jungkook?! JUNGKOOK?"

I ran around anger taking over my brain, I punched the wall again and again, my hands bloody and red, but there was a very small part of me that actually cared,

I screamed loudly, a mix of rage and defeat, before looking down at my phone

"It's too late."

The phone shone, a simple message,

It's over

I'm too late, I let him ruin him, the one fucking thing I have in this world.

And I couldn't even help him- oh but I could, I was just too fucking dumb to figure it out, nothing ever, gets me angry like this.

Nothing can kill me like this does, it's gone straight to my head, now I'm heading straight for the edge, I picked my weakness and it was him, and they used that, they-they've used him, 

I looked back at the gun, stroking it slightly, "you've killed so many people for me haven't you, bittersweet, I'm out of my mind, I let the weakness get hurt, I've failed you,"

I load the gun, I always thought I would own the way I felt, I told myself I'm done with games, but I always come back to the pain, I'm on the ground, I can hear your screaming.

I can't take it, i get so numb with all the fucking thoughts I have, my mind can't stop, I don't know how to make it stop.

But you could make it stop, you drag me down you fuck me up,

And I guess you'll never know, all the shit I was going through, you were the pill to ease the pain, you stress me out you kill me,

I know how to make it stop.

I don't wanna hear sad songs any more, i only wanted to hear your song,

Fuck I'll admit it, I'm fucking madly in love with you jeon Jungkook, but I'm too fucking late now.

I held the gun up to my forehead, ironic, I'm being killed by the thing I killed so many people with, Ive found my heart again, but yet again it's been ruined,

I'm in love I'm in love I'm in love.

But I dont wanna wake up, one day knowing that my love is once again ruined, I'm not coming home tonight,

I won't be back in the morning when the sun starts to rise,

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry,

I got my problems, but I can't push all that shit aside, I wanted to live fast, never look back, that's what I was here for,

Dry those eyes.

I pressed my finger gently on the trigger.

Don't stress your mind Taehyung, let it rest for the first time in forever, I took the price, i risked it it was a game, i hoped i won.

But I lost.

Maybe I'm a fool, maybe I don't know to love, or maybe I did, but I wonder does it even cross their minds that I'm leaving them all behind,

It wouldn't, the one person who cared about me is gone now.

Because I couldn't save him, because I was too weak and fucking dumb to help him, because I put other things infront of it, because I let others doubt me

I smirked slightly, god, atleast I'll die being killed by the only person worthy enough to kill me,

Me.

lord heavens above, I 

Goodbye.

I pressed the trigger harder.

One single noise could be heard.

BANG.