Save me (Amyplier)

chapter 31

Amy's Pov

When I woke up I heard a lot of beeping noises, I kept my eye's closed as I remember why I was taken to the hospital. Mark has to hate me, I wanted to leave him. I don't want too but it seems like the only right thing to do. He shouldn't have to go through this with me. 

"Are you okay?" It sounded like Tyler.

"No," Mark said taking my hand.

"She will be okay, They had to force her to sleep so she will calm down. She is so scared of all of this."

"She was going to leave, she said that she is too broken for me to love her." He was crying. 

"Did you stop her? 

"I told her if she wanted to leave, I will help her with the things she will need to make it, I told her I don't want her to go."

"Hello." It was a female, I know this voice.

"Dr. Niki, how are you?" Mark asked my therapist. 

"What happened?"

"She had a memory lapse, she thought I was her master and she disobeyed me for not wearing the pants I gave her to sleep in. They didn't fit her. She thought I was going to be mad and yell at her. I walked her back and she got so scared when she came back that she said she was going to be sick, so I had her lay down. I went to go to the bathroom when I came back she was trying to open the window. I told her she could go if she wanted to, that I would help her but I don't want her to leave. She said that I need to be with someone who doesn't have to be told a billion time the monsters are gone. Then she asked why I wanted to be with someone like her. I told her the truth. That I am in love with her. Her legs gave out and she fell to the floor."

"She is still in shock on everything. Well, and she is brainwashed. She thinks she is useless and worthless, her brain doesn't understand why you want to be with her when that is all she has heard. She doesn't understand why you show her love, you treat her like a person when she is used to be treated like trash."

"She is so much more then what they made her feel."

"This will all take time for her, it is not going to happen overnight, It will not happen in a year. She has been through a lot and she will need to hear that this healing is normal."

"Whatever I need to do to help her I will do, I can't lose her, she will not have to go through this alone."

He really does care, and I tried to leave him.  what is wrong with me? Why do I keep doing this?

"Baby girl, I know you are up. Your heart monitor is going crazy. Whatever horrible thing that is happing in that intelligent head of yours is not real."

I slowly opened my eyes and looked for the sound of his voice.  

"I am right here, as long as you want me here I am staying right here with you."

I looked around and saw that the only thing I am connected to is a heart monitor, I pulled on his hand as I scooted over on the bed. He got up and sat next to me.

"I am so sorry," I said laying on his chest.

"You did nothing wrong."

"I always do something wrong, and this time  I did. I hurt you."

"Everything is okay, your safe. Nothing bad is going to happen to you. Not on my watch." He played with my hair. 

"What's wrong with me?"

"Too much stress at one time, your brain overloaded."

"Will it happened again?"

"Most likely, but that is okay, we are going to take everything day by day."