Save me (Amyplier)

chapter 19

Amy was sleeping so I read more of her journal, it has been about 5 days since she tried to walk with Garret. Something is wrong the entry I just read proved it. She still hears them. It makes sense now,  look in her eyes when I was taking the bars away. I am glad I did, she is going through so much. At least the staff is leaving us alone, the lady came in a apologized to Amy when she read what her husband did to her. She took her pain out on Amy and didn't know that Amy was the real victim.

"Mark?" Amy asked rubbing her eyes.

"I'm here," I said looking at her.

She looked at me then smiled and went back to bed. She has been doing that a lot, calling for me. It's like she thinks I left. I picked her journal up again.

Mark, I don't want you to know this but I know you are going to read this. I know I could have not written it but then it will be stuck inside of my head. You are going to hate me and want to leave my side and I understand why you would. You trusted me, you trusted to leave me alone for five minutes while you took a shower. I tried to kill myself.

I looked up at her, she was still sleeping.

A staff caught me, Kenny was yelling at me in my head, he was telling me how stupid I am and that I would be better off dead. I grabbed the pen and was getting ready to stab at my wrist. she walked in to check on me and saw what I was getting ready to do. She stopped me. She said it is normal for me to want the voices to stop but I broke your trust. She didn't tell you because I begged her not too.

"Amy," I said, she didn't move. "Amy, please wake up." I got up and sat next to her in the bed.

"Mark?" She rubbed her eyes again.

"Is this why you have been sleeping so much? You think I am going to leave you because you tried to kill yourself?"

Her eyes started to water and her breathing got rough.

"Amy, Please breath." I held on to her.

After she calmed down enough to talk she asked.

"Why are you still here? I broke your trust, I tried to kill myself."

"I am not leaving you, the voices, they will go away in time. Please don't ever try to take your life again." I was fighting the tears but I lost that fight. I held her tight. " Amy, please if you hear them let me know, I will make them go away. They will not hurt you anymore."

"Why don't you hate me?"

"I could never hate you."

"But... I did something horrible."

"You know it was bad, that's good. Please don't ever do it again. If you go then they win. And to be honest, if you go then I am going right with you."

"No! don't take your life! you have so much to live for!" She freaked.

"So do you, here make a deal with me."

"Okay?"

"If you don't try to kill yourself then I will not try to kill myself."

"Deal. Please don't do it." She started to cry again.

We stayed like that not saying a word until Tyler walked in,

"Everything okay?" He asked.

"Yeah, It is now. What's up?" I asked playing with Amy's hair.

"We know which state she is in, and she changed her name to Stacy."

"Is her real name even Jordan?" Amy asked.