Smile | Yoonmin (Editing)

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-2 months later-

Food, it's been so long since I've had that. I was really hungry, but how many calories would I gain if I ate? But I haven't had food for 3 days and I was feeling drowsy, I needed to eat.

After having a mental argument of wether I should eat or not, I decided to actually eat. So I made my way to my room, got out a pair of clean sweat pants and an oversized hoodie.

The second I took off my shirt, I felt coldness slice through my bones, it's winter yes, but I've never experienced this kind of shocking cold, plus, the temperature is not as low as the past years. I also literally sat in my boxers alone in the past few weeks, what changed now?

'It's because you haven't eaten in days'

My mind was crazy in thoughts of hunger by now, making my stomach growl. As if it's cue, I hurriedly continued changing, not even bothering to look at the mirror before leaving.

The air was cold, very cold I must add, in fact I was visibly shivering. The convenient store wasn't far, it's just my slow pace made it feel like an extra two miles.

As I saw the bright neon lights coming closer into view, I fastened my pace, as if it's the only thing that'll keep me alive.

I came to a halt as I stood in-front of the so called store. I took out my hands from my pocket just to feel even more coldness strike my skin, but at least I managed to push the door.

I went inside as I heard the bell ring behind me, indicating a new customer. It was warm in here, and the smell of hot drinks made my stomach tumble even more.

I made my way to the food aisle, looking at all the options I could have. I hesitated a lot, picking up each pack and reading the nutrition table to count the calories.

As I was concentrating with my 'so important work', I didn't notice another guy standing next to me and staring at me in clear confusion. Unfortunately I was let out of doing my important 'work' by a loud cough.

"Excuse me sir, but you look to be baffled and indecisive about what to choose, may I help?"

I just stood there, quite stunned by the guy, but managed to recollect my thoughts and tried answering as casually as possible.

"Umm, well if it's not something that might bug you, would you mind telling me which food from these had the least calories with the most sufficient nutritious needs?"

After I finished my sentence, I gasped to fill my lungs with air as it lost much oxygen from talking all at once. After I managed to maintain my body's respiratory cycle, I looked up to see a dumbfounded look on the guy's face. I tilted my head in confusion and blurted my question unconsciously.

"Well there, why are you staring at me like that? Do I look that ugly?"

'Damnit, why did I let my low self esteem get a grip on me now, perfect fucking timing jimin, just perfect! Now the guy will think you're an attention seeker, fucking great!!'

But what met me was a totally different reply, never expected it at all.

"No sir, in fact you're the most handsome customer I've seen in a while. I'm just confused as to why you want low calorie food? Because there are two reasons to not want to. First is that you're pretty skinny and you need to fill up, and second is that we're a convenient store, which will most unlikely have low calorie food."

I was shook! Did he just call me skinny? I was clearly a fat fucking pig!

'He's just pitying you, just look at how pitiful you are'

"Well, sorry to bother you then, and thanks for the help and compliment" I said, feeling embarrassed about myself.

I was making my way out the store when I heard him call behind me.

"Hey handsome guy! Take this, it's on me, fill up a little and sorry if I ever saddened you, it was truthfully out of misunderstanding"

I looked back to see him, he was holding a bag of goods in his hands. He also had a gummy smile on his face. He lifted up his hands to hand me the bag, but I just stood there in shock, not moving an inch.

'Did someone just actually care about my health?'

'Are you that oblivious?!? It's totally out of pity! He probably even thought you were poor and couldn't pay for the high calorie food because it's expensive! How pathetic can you be?'

"Hey there, I don't like moving, so lifting my hands this long is probably exercise for me and I can't endure any longer, so are you gonna take it?"

I was broken out of my thoughts at that moment. Looking at his smile made me think otherwise, it just made me think that someone, just someone, actually cared about me. I smiled at him, hiding all my emotions and laughing it all off. I gracefully took the bag and thanked him before leaving the store and freezing all the way back to home....

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I reached home, unlocking the door of the dreadful place. Walking to the kitchen to finally quite down my stomach and satisfy the arguments in my head.

I placed the bag on the kitchen counter, opening it to reveal its goods. My stomach growled for the hundredth time today. There were indeed many things there, from ramen to chocolates and chips.

'This must've cost a lot'

I sighed in frustration, feeling guilty that I made the poor guy pay for MY food that I'll probably throw away sooner or later...

Looking through the bag to find the least calorie food, my hands stumbled upon a single piece of paper, it was handwritten. The handwriting was scrambled up, almost unreadable, as if someone wrote it in extreme hurry.

I slowly took out the paper, reading its contents carefully.

Dear handsome guy,
Consider this a gift from me to you so that you could gain a little bit of weight. Even if not, food makes people happy, so eat. It might be awkward as I've never seen you before, but you looked quite sad at the store, so I've sent ice cream too, it helps believe me! So quickly eat it up and keep the rest in the fridge(in case you can't finish it, hehe). Hope I see you here again!

Best regards,
Yoongi

I don't know why, but my eyes started to tear up. I've never received such letters. The only letters I recall were ones body shaming me.

'This guy actually cares for me, he might be the sweetest person I've seen in a long time'

'Oh my god can't you understand the whole thing yet?!? HE. IS. FUCKING. PITYING. YOU!!'

'IF HE PITIED ME, WHY WAS HE SO GENEROUS IN THE LETTER HUH?'

'BECAUSE HE FUCKING HAS TO,YOU IDIOT! YOU DON'T SHOW PITY TO PEOPLE BY HARSH WORDS DO YOU?!?!'

'JUST STOPPPPP!!!'

"Just fucking......stop" I started crying. No longer having the thought of eating. I just slid down by the counter and cried myself to sleep. No one really cares. No one really stays. No one really matters anymore...

A/n: HEY GUYS!! THIS CHAPTER IS SO SAD LIKE WHAT THE HELL? BUT OH WELL, WHAT TO DO? ANYWAYS HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS CHAPTER AND DONT FORGET TO COMMENT AND VOTE!!❤️❤️