I'm In Love But Homeless? =P

I Don't Want Anyone's Sympathy

Recap of Previous Chapter:

It was my mom. My dad had tears in his eyes.

I had no real emotion.

All I could say were blunt words.

Blunt words and blunt sentences in my head.
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No one said a word. All I heard was my mom crying, I looked over and it looked like my dad was sobbing just quietly.

I didn't know what to really think or say. I can't remember why I was outside or how I even ended up in the way of a car. I don't remember riding here to the hospital.

The worst part of this is having to face everyone.

Even though my mom and dad are the only ones in the room with me at the moment, I know other people are here waiting to see me. I don't have anything to say to anyone. I didn't have anything to say before this happened and I still don't.

I snapped out of it when the doctor came in with a cheerful voice saying "okay Mr. Randell, good to see you awake, how are you doing ?"

I'm thinking bad but I replied "good"

Doctor: "must be the meds we gave you"

"Meds? I'm fine."

Doctor: "I'm glad you feel good, you actually got banged up pretty bad though."

"Really?" I tried to raise up and why did I do that, I was soooo sore; it felt like I belly flopped into a body of water at a fast speed. I quickly laid down.

Doctor : "I'll be back in a few"

Mom : "Son, I love you"

Dad : "I love you, I know we've been through a lot and I know I can be a better dad and I never want to lose you."

I was surprised at my parents words.  There was no screaming, they were paying attention to me and showed so much love. I didn't know what to say, I choose to say nothing, I just closed my eyes. I heard them leave out. I whispered " I love you too" I knew they loved me, but, when things started getting worse our family dynamics changed.

I started to doze off, I heard the door open, I peeked and it was Dayquan. I didn't know what to say it was too awkward. I've avoided him and actually, I am wondering why he's here. I know we aren't on bad terms, I just didn't think he cared enough.

Dayquan: "Hey, Man"

"Hey"

Dayquan: "How are you feeling ?"

"Good"

Dayquan: "Good? I mean overall with everything?"

"Good"

Dayquan: "you can't be, what happened? I mean we had a brotherhood, we were, we are! best friends and it just doesn't feel like it anymore"

"I can say the same, I'm getting tired"

Dayquan: "okay , I hope you get better, I just want everything to be normal again, where we at least talk to each other. I care, your like a bro to me."

I watched him slowly walk out, I feel so confused, I knew in the back of my head everyone cared but maybe, I let my emotions and fear control me. I just can't open up right now.

I thought that was all the company I had, until, the door opened and it was Alexia. I still didn't have words to say, I just don't anymore.  I started getting butterflies.  The closer she got to my bedside, I started getting more and more nervous.