I'm In Love But Homeless? =P

Where Do We Go From Here

I was really surprised that my dad stepped up to the plate and spilled his heart out to me.  Apart of me wanted to cry so bad, because,  this is all I have been wanting for this whole time with the exception of wanting to know the whole truth about the status of our house and everything.  I know people say grown's folks business is grown's folks business and I truly understand.  It's just, if there is anyway I can help, I will.

Even though my dad has said things that I have been wanting to hear for a long time,  I wasn't sure if he was going to own up to his words.  Also, I didn't know where to go from here.  Like what know?  I was lost for words and actions at this point.  How am I suppose to act after this.  I feel like a missing piece has been found after my dad had this talk with me, but, I don't know how to act normal anymore.  It is almost awkward now, since he hasn't expressed his love for me in a long time.

He slept in my room that night.  It was something comfortable about him just being there.  I mean my dad and I were close at one point, we weren't spending a night in each other's rooms or anything like that, but, we actually did have conversations.  I can't really say I had a parent that I was closets to but, now a-days I'm closets to my mom.

What if when we return home everything is different; my dad gets help, a job and common sense, everything will be dandy!  I mean I will be happy!  I can't tell you if I will return back to old Jake but, I think my happiness will shine through.  I will become more sociable, maybe.  I started getting anxious.  I guess the thought of all of these things are making me anxious.  It's overwhelming to think about this stuff.  Even though this would be a positive change, it makes me nervous because,  I really don't know what's to come next.  I know if things will start getting better for me, people are going to stay asking me "what happened to you, though? you were so down, what was going on?  You know you didn't have to stop being our friend, right?" I kind of feel like I wouldn't be able to go back to my normal life.

I just don't know where we go from here.

   ~3 1/2 Weeks Go By~

It's the expected week for my discharge.  Unfortunately,  I have not improved enough to leave.  I am so upset,  I can't even lie to you and tell you that I thought I have been doing good when I know I haven't.  I kept thinking something was wrong with me the reason why I wasn't improving.  That wasn't the case though, the doctors realized that my injuries were categorized as severe.  This means that my healing time is somewhat unpredictable because, of the impact of my injuries.

I was beginning to get excited and anxious about going home.  I wanted to see my dad improve the most and see my life begin to come together again.  Everyone was focused on my recovery that they didn't have time to work on things they needed to work on.  Surprisingly, I enjoyed the attention but, really only from my family.  I don't trust anyone I use to be friends with. 

Everyone knew I was upset about not being able to go home.  The doctors, nurses, mom, dad and even Jakey knew I was like a sad puppy.  Jakey said to me one day " Jake! pwease don't be sad, for me!"  It was sooo cute, I tried not to show any sadness around Jakey because, it would make him sad too and it broke my heart.  By the end of the day I learned to cope with what was going on.  It wasn't so bad being in the hospital.  I got feed, treated with respect, got checked on, time off of school and physical therapy actual gave me something to do.  Also, the exercises were fun.  Once, I quit football I stopped working out even though, it was my passion.  I'm going to try to remember the good out of this experience but, I wouldn't want to experience it again.
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Author's Note: Heyy My Readers! I hope you enjoyed this chapter. We get to see Jake in a different light, but, will his dreams come true? Will a bond be mended between Dayquan and his dad? & will he ever trust his ex-friends again...

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