The next morning I felt like shit. My head was throbbing, my body was soar and my throat felt like I could drink a gallon of water right now. At first I couldn't remember what happened last night but after I forced myself up and brushed my teeth and got some-what decent looking, it all came flooding back to me.
"Can you believe they're still together?"
"I'm sure he's cheated on her by now." I put my palm on my chest to steadying breathing as all the horrible memories came back. I heard a knock on my door. I took a deep breath and prayed it wasn't Jeremy. I was even more shocked though, to see that it was his beautiful mother Jill.
"Hey how are you doing sweetie?" I laughed and I stopped when I saw that she was actually serious.
"How am I doing? Well physically I feel like I just got hit by a train...and emotionally I feel like someone ripped my heart out and stomped on it until it broke in two perfect pieces." Jill sighed and pulled me into a hug.
"I'm so sorry he hurt you honey. I promise you though Eddie and I are going to make sure he gets his consequences. Eddie will be very ashamed Eddie would never did that to me."
"Is it hard? How do you get through it knowing there's so many girls going after him?" She laughs and it sounds like gentle church bells.
"Well, I just trust in him and myself.". I gave her a confused look.
"You have to be secure about yourself too you know, that makes things much easier for the both of us." I sighed. It sounds so much easier said then done.
"It took years and years of practice trust me. But I kept telling myself that Eddie loves me and eventually I learned to love myself." I smiled at her and hugged her.
"Thank you."
"You know, Lolita you can come to me for anything right? And to Eddie too. We really love you, Jeremy just hasn't matured enough yet just like ninety five percent of all guys."
"Yeah boys suck." She gave me a sad smile and gave me one more hug.
"Your parents are waiting for you downstairs in the lobby, they're all ready and packed so you can new them whenever your ready."
"Okay. And thank you again Jill, for everything I'll never forget how good you and Eddie were to me."
"Anytime sweetheart." I gave her one last hug and went back to my room to start packing. When I finally got all my clothes together and organized and neatly folded into my suitcase I zipped it up and threw my phone charger and my book in my coach bag. As I was about to unplug the charger from my phone I saw a text from Jeremy.
Jeremy: Can we talk about this please? I'm so sorry, baby don't leave me give me another chance, I know I was a dick and I messed up but I need you, please don't leave me?
I decided to make a promise to myself right then and there. As soon as I'm done texting Jeremy, once that thumb presses send I'm done with him.
No we can't talk about this. Do you even remember how you were to me last night? Not only were you a dick you were a dick who broke my heart, and I have no idea how to even think to put it back together again. Don't text me, anymore don't call and don't you ever even think to come near me. I'm going to always love your dads music and respect him and always love Pearl Jam but I'll never make the mistake of loving you again.
After I hit send I turned my phone off and grabbed my suitcases and headed downstairs to meet my parents. That's the one kind of love that you really only need, your family and a couple of good friends. Once my mom saw me she gave me a huge hug.
"Oh, Lolita Jill and Eddie told me what happened..Im so so sorry sweetie. It's going to hurt for awhile but time will heel itself don't worry. Come on lets go get some ice cream shall we?"
"Yeah ice cream sounds really good right now." I tried to smile but it quickly failed and I started crying. My mom put her arm around me and hugged me close to her. After we let go the three of us walked back to our car. One thought wouldn't leave my mind though..I want to go back to New Jersey. But I also know that running away from your problems doesn't make them any easier or disappear. So I didn't say anything the entire ride to Dairy Queen. I just looked at my phone and that's when I saw all the messages from Kristie and Megan.
Megan: Answer your phone women! What do you mean we were right?!
Kristie: Seriously, if you don't answer your phone by tomorrow I will come down to Seattle and beat the shit out of not only Jeremy but you too cause you didn't answer your fucking phone and you scared the living shit out of me!
I laughed and typed them both as quickly as I could.
Jeremy and I broke up, I'll call you guys later to explain. Right now my parents are taking me to Dairy Queen so I can drown my sorrows in their new fudge brownie blizzard."
When we got there I ordered a large and tried to eat it slow not wanting to get sick later. I told my mom what happened, how I over heard the girls talking about Jeremy and I when I went to the bathroom, how he admitted that he cheated on me. When I was finished explaining the story my mom just looked like she was even about to cry also.
"I am going to take such good care of you honey. When we get home well finish our ice creams and watch comedy movies okay?"
"Just not the romance kind." My mom looked down at her ice cream and frowned.
"Yeah most comedies are romantic aren't they?" I nodded sadly.
"Well we could watch horror movies!!"
"I definitely like that choice much better. When we get home I just have to call my friends and let then know what happened." She nodded understandingly.
"Of course, come on lets go home." My mom, and dad and I
Walked back to our car and we put Pearl Jam on of course. Even though its only about a ten minute drive from Dairy Queen to our house I wanted to close my eyes anyway. After what felt like two minutes I felt my mom shake me gently awake. I yawned and got out of the car. It was a crummy looking day, clouds look dark and mean but I'm happy that the weather matches my mood for once and I have an excuse to sit on my couch and watch scary movies and let myself grief and cry.
As soon as I got home I took my phone out of my bag and decided to face time Kristie and Megan. As soon as I saw their faces I began crying.
"Let it out, just let it out." Kristie said. It was comforting not only hearing their voices but also seeing their faces. I won't move back to New Jersey, running away from your problems won't change anything. So I just held my phone and cried and cried and cried some more and they didn't say a word they just let me get it out and honestly, that's what I needed the most.
