Lolita's POV
Next week is going to be The Lightning Bolt tour of Pearl Jam. I have to admit it I'm starting to get pretty nervous...I mean what if Jake is right? About Jeremy cheating on me or getting too overwhelmed about all the girls chasing after him and him telling me that he doesn't want a relationship anymore? Or even worse, what if he cheats on me behind my back and doesn't even tell me anything?! I don't know what to do. I really want to talk to him about these feelings that I'm having or else I think I'm going to explode and just cry out of nowhere sooner or later.
I still haven't even told Krisite or Megan that I'm spending the summer with my boyfriend going on tour with one of the worlds most famous rock bands. They're going to freak! I don't know of it's going to be in a bad or good way but since I waited last minute to tell them, I think it's going to be pretty ugly. I decided to get it over with though so I grabbed my cell phone of my bed and dialed three-way so I could talk to both of them at the same time. I know it'll be quicker and easier but then I got two voices screaming in my ear...oh well too late now.
"Hey Lolita! It's about time you called us ya bitch!" Megan said laughing, but I could tell she sounded pretty annoyed.
"Yeah really What took you so long? We were just talking about visiting you soon,". Crap. What are the chances? I took a really deep breath and tried to being but..was interrupted by Megan.
"Yeah, so Kristie and I were thinking of visiting you and staying in Seattle for the whole summer! Doesn't that sound great?!". Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale.
"Guys listen, there's something I need to tell you."
"Oh my Gosh you're pregnant!"
"Are you serious Megan?! No of course I'm not pregnant!" I couldn't believe they even THOUGHT of me getting pregnant! Unbelievable...
"This is what I need to tell you, I'm going on tour with Jeremy for the whole summer across the U.S.." I think I felt my heart stop as soon as the words were out and it took them a lot longer to respond thenI wanted them to.
"Your joking right? I'm sorry sweetie but do you really think that you and Jeremy are going to make it? Aren't you stressed out?". Kristie said to me, sounding harsh. Well that was a blow to my heart.
"I'm sorry I'll admit that was harsh but don't tell me your not worried?". I sighed into the phone really loud and long.
"I guess this means were not going to get to see you for like another year now too right? Cause you know you wouldn't want us to come or anything." Jeez what did I do to deserve this crap?
"Maybe I can talk to Jeremy and see if I can wait and not go till the middle of the summer?". That sounds pretty fair right?
"We get it you choose him over your two best friends."
"Why don't you guys come with us?". I don't even know why I bothered trying to fix this...i'm going to have to choose one or the other because I know Kristie and Megan will not be okay with that option.
"You can't have it both ways Lolita." Kristie said. Gosh I knew this wasn't going to be a good day I just had a really bad feeling!
"I'll talk to Jeremy about it okay? This is a really big deal for me I can't believe you guys are acting like such jerks!". I felt bad immediately after I said those words.
"We're acting like such jerks?! You're the one whose choosing your boyfriend over your two best friends!". Megan screamed and then I heard her hang up.
"Kristie if you'll just let me think about it.."
"I don't know anymore Lolita, I'm starting to think that Megan is right...". And then she hung up...I grabbed my favorite purple pillow and sobbed until I started hiccuping and that's when I heard someone knock on my door.
"Lolita, why are you crying?" It's Jeremy. I took a deep breath and explained everything to him, how Kristie and Megan wanted to visit me the whole summer and that they were wondering if I could take them with us..I saved the cheating part for later, because to tell you the truth right now I'm way overwhelmed to tell him how I've been feeling lately.
"Well seems to me that you gotta make a choice. You can stay here and be with your friends but honestly babe I can't guarantee that things are going to stay the same between us.". I felt my heart drop into my stomach. I have never wanted to scream so much before in my whole life then I do right now.
"Well if I go with you things will stay good between us right?". Jeremy just gave me a sad look.
"Yes things will definitely be better between us if you come with us but then you lose your two best friends. Am I really that worth it? think about it okay babe? I mean don't get me wrong, id be very happy if you decide to come with me."
"But even if I do go with you guys there's a chance that we might not make it."
"That's what I'm trying to say, yes. But I really really like you-". I just cut him off right there and told him to leave, I needed to think about it. I don't know how long ill need maybe in time for the tour to start maybe not...all I know is that I want to listen to my music and cry myself to sleep.
