I come out of my room in a sports bra and cotton shorts. My hair out and wavy down to my waist. "It was so hot last night" I hear people say coming downstairs. I make myself comfortable sitting in the kitchen counter as I nurse a cup of tea. "It's tea Calm down" I say as Logan eyes my cup. "Ok" he says. "Why are you sitting up there?" Daniel asks. "My grey are cold on the floor" I say. "Here" Logan says handing me a pair of maverick socks. "Thanks" I say.
"It's been an hour Your still up there" Zach says. "Fine jeez" I say I get down. "Morning" Logan calls to Jonah and Maddy coming downstairs. "Watch out!" Jonah calls. I see jack behind me with silly string. "No!" I squeal. I run away and see Logan with two cans. I run outside as they follow me. I grab a water gun. I start spraying them. "It's freezing!" Jack yells. I continue to squirt them until they put the silly string down. We walk inside. "It's cold out there" I say. "Freezing actually" Logan says. Chloe walks in. "Hey Chloe" I say. Logan comes and picks her up. "Eww your wet" she squeals. "You guys are cute together" I say.
I sit on the kitchen counter again watching time tick away. "Hey" Jonah says coming up infront of me. "Hey" I say looking at him. "Can you do the filming while you have your chemo?" He asks. "No" I say sadly. "I was really looking forward to it" I say. He hugs me. "I'm sorry" he whispers. Shivers run down my spine as he says that. "I'm gonna get ready Jax is going to be here soon" I say. I jump down md walk to my room. I find Maddy in my room going through my desk. "What the hell!" I yell. She freezes. "What?" Logan asks everyone appears behind me and sees Maddy standing in front of my open desk draws. "Sorry I needed a black pen" she says. "Get out" I demand. "Calm down" Logan says. "Get out" I tell everyone. "Don't be so rude" he tells me off. "She was going through my personal stuff" I say. "She was looking for a pen" Logan argues. "So then why was she searching through my drawers and cabinets?" I ask. "She just needed a pen, Calm down, being angry isn't gonna help your health" He says. "What would you know" I say. "Have you had cancer before have you sat in a hospital room wanting to die everyday?" I ask. He stays quiet. "I didn't think so" I say angrily closing my door.
I come down stairs my hair tied up and a pair of slides on.
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i walk outside past everyone watching me. I climb a tree and sit in it. I see everyone come outside in swimming clothes. We still haven't unpacked and the boys haven't left yet, so they have there suitcases with them. I watch as Maddy sits on Jonah lap as he wraps his arms around her. I start to cry as I remember the other day when that was me. "You ok?" Daniel asks climbing the tree. Everyone watches as I turn away. "Why are you crying?" He asks. "You see how Maddy was on Jonah's lap" I say. "The day before you guys left for New York when you went and visited Anna that was me" I say crying a little more. "Every night I can't help but think did I do something wrong, did he even like me" I say. Daniel puts an arm around me. "I guess I just got my hopes up that someone would want me after Corey" I say. "I mean there was obviously a reason he cheated" I say. "You can't think like that!" Daniel exclaims. "You are perfect and gorgeous and my best friend, the best friend I've ever had, those guys are idiots, you can do better!" He continues loudly. "But there's always a reason" I say. My phone buzzes in my hand. "Jax is here I'm gonna go" I say climbing down. "See ya" Daniel says hugging me. I walk quickly away, I see Jonah watching me concerned. Oh god.
We go through all the procedure and what I can and can't do and everything I have heard before. Jax sits beside me listening to every word he holds my hand as they put the needle in. It hurts a lot more than a regular needle. "I'll leave you to it" the nurse says. "Thank you" I say as she walks out. "So two hours" I mumble. "Have you had chemo?" He asks. "No my last one wasn't as major so I just had another treatment process" I tell him. We spend the next half an hour talking about my Old treatment and his moms. "Your phone is blowing up" he says. "Yeah" I look at the texts from Logan, Jonah and Jake.
"Hey do you mind if I call somebody" I say. "Sure I'll go get some food" he says. "Thanks Jax" I say. I get my phone out and FaceTime Jake. "Hey Millie!" He exclaims happily. "Hey Jake" I say without the enthusiasm. I see Erika vlogging and Arie with a camera. "Hey Millie!" Erika yells coming over. "Can you turn the cameras off please?"I ask. Erika turns her camera off and goes away giving Jake privacy. Arie stays downstairs as Jake goes up to his bedroom. "What up?" He asks concerned. "Where are you?" He asks. "I'm in the hospital" I say. "Why?" He asks. "My cancer came back" I say as tears sting my eyes. "Oh lord" he mumbles covering his mouth. He looks like he might cry. "Hey Jake, sorry didn't realise you were up here" I hear someone say. "What's wrong?" She asks. It's Erika. Tears fall down my face. "Amelia what happened?" She asks. "I have cancer" I whisper. She covers her mouth. Jake looks down. I explain it all to them.
