Never Enough || KIM NAMJOON

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Knock Knock

"Come in."

Mom came with a tray with a white bowl on top and a white mug. I'm helping her to put the thing she brought on the night stand as she's sitting on the end of my bed where Namjoon is still sleeping. It's already passed 8 in the night and I wonder when will he going to wake up?

"Don't you want to go eat dinner with your brothers?" Mom asked with unexpected soft voice, she got me little surprise and I just shaking my head no, it's because they're eating outside. Nobody when this bucket guy going to wake up and he might pretending he's still sick after I came back and trying to sleep on my bed for the whole night.

"Do you like him, Sooyoung-ah?" Mom asking me another question that I keep hearing from people surrounding me. I sighed, "Why do you guys keep asking me that question, eomma? I'm seriously tired of that question. I don't know him so much, it's just.. he's making my--"

"It's because you lost your childhood memories," She suddenly said, cutting my words and got me super speechless. I don't fucking know what to say.

"W-What do--"

"When you was 11, you and your father are involved in accident, we all thought you going to die but God know how much we love you. Your father can't forgive himself until now for what you're losing. Namjoon didn't even know about that because I only told his father plus he didn't want to burden him more after his mother died when he was 11. It's like you guys having the same hard time when you're in the same age."

"His mother died when I was having the accident??... and.. I lost my memories when I was a kid???..."

Mom nodding slowly to me. "We've tried our best to help you, but the doctor said the more we pushing you, the worst your brain cannot cooperate with us. So we're letting it be until now. Hoseok crying so hard when he came back for a month just to meet you after the accident and you forgot about him but then you managed to remember. Same goes to Jungkook. I have videos of Hoseok crying next to your bed in the hospital every night, He said he don't want to go back to America until you remember him.."

My tears falling to my cheeks listening to my mother, I thought my brother never come here in the period he's studying there, God really helping me with everything but why can't I still remember Namjoon?

"Eomma is sorry for overreacting sometime, but I saw one of the way to treat someone in your case is their mom to be strict and demanding. I've been trying that way since you're big girl but seems like you upset with me."

I frowned at her words, "It's look like you love Kookie and Oppa more than me.."

"Shhhhh, I love all of you Soogie.." Mom took me in her embrace and making me sobbing even more. "Don't cry.. you look ugly later on in front of Namjoon,"

I pouts at mom and I feel happy knowing the truth. I always thought that she treating me differently than my brothers, that thinking make me sad, I want to be a good daughter for her.

"ugh.. Sooyoung..."

"He's awake!" Mom checking his forehead but then her hand flinched, "He's still hot.." She looked at me with worries. "So what?"

"Ishhh, go get him damp cloth." Mom scowls and I just following her instruction. After I returned with damp cloth and some medicines for fever, Namjoon already opening his eyes and he look kinda weak? I suddenly snorted remembering his allergy to cheese. He furrowed his eyebrows looking at me as my mom pulling me to get close to him.

"Are you not dead yet?" I asked and got a soft smack on my butt from my mother. "If I'm dead i'll drag you along with me." He muttered and I just rolling my eyes to him.