Never Enough || KIM NAMJOON

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I sat on my bed after taking shower, looking at the bouquets of roses that were from my two dear brothers and my eyes drifted to the big thing placed next to me.

A koala bear, in baby blue colour, the expression of the koala is sleeping, remind me a lot at someone that giving me it.

I remembered my brother's words to take something inside the pocket and I did. There's a note and a necklace..

The one that he gave me when I was forced to be his partner at his father's birthday party, the one that has his name as the heart of the necklace.

Hey, Koala Soo.

I know you're missing me - so much. Well, congratulations on your graduation, you've done a great job and stop acting like a kid after this - crying over your "crush" like a stupid maniac, that's embarrassing and meet Koya! He's my baby bear but I'm willing to give him to you. Be thankful. Hoseok told me that you broke your scooter last week, so I think my bear can replace your damn scooter. I'll see you when you missing me the most. Bye.

RM ;)

"What the fuck?!" I thrown away the blue paper to my bed frustratedly. He basically mocking me especially about my Koya! and he stole my scooter's name into this damn bear!!!

I keep punching the bear with all my heart but then I found myself ending up hugging it with tears falling from my eyes.

"Bastard."

"Egotistical"

"Selfish"

"Jerk"

"Jackass"

"Fuckers"

I muttered every word I hate to him. He is a mean guy. Nobody really know what happened between the two of us before he went away. Nobody. My friends, family, everyone is clueless because we're keeping deep secret.

one month ago before Namjoon went to New Zealand

We went to store, where people selling damn expensive jewels and I don't know why he bringing me here. He pushed me to sit on the tall chair near the counter, the worker came to great us and Namjoon just nodding to her like she knows what she need to do and yes, she is.

She took a small black box, handing it to Namjoon. I knitted my brows in confusion, what the hell is he doing?????

He's smiling at me, the sweetest smile i've ever see from him. He took my right hand, opening the box, showing a couple of beautiful silver rings, simple yet beautiful and i'm sure the price is not compatible for me.

Surprisingly, he slides the smaller ring into my finger, got my eyes widened making him giggling even though it's not freaking funny!

"Yah, why are you doing this?" I whispered but half yelling at him.

He just standing still in front of me, holding my both cheeks before kissing my forehead.

"I'm serious about this, Sooyoung." He said slowly, not leaving my eyes.

I flicked, "What do you mean???? I don't understand, Kim Namjoon!"

"I'm serious about taking you as my girlfriend!" He spoke frustratedly making the worker chuckling at us.

I snorted and looking at him in disbelief, "Seriously? Why? We always fighting and such why are you buying rings like this just to ask me to be your girlfriend?!"

He nodded, "please, accept me."

"Are you pushing me right now?"

"Yes, I am because I meant the words I said."

"I.. I don't know!!!! Why are you asking things like this?"

"I know you like me, stop denying your feeling toward me."

"Yes!!!!!! But you're pushing me right now."

"I am not, because I don't want both us regret this later on.... " He take my both hands in him, looking me really deep in my eyes.

"I know you hate it whenever me with Jennie, stop denying any love feelings between us, Sooyoung. My dad going to push me marry with that girl in a month, you're going to graduate, what more can we do? I don't like her like I like you. I feel better when i'm with you, stop thinking about something else and just focus on me this time. Tell me you're going to accept me with all your heart and I will tell my father, I have my girl now."

"Namjoon... can we get back to car or somewhere else first?" I begged, because obviously we are catching people's attentions here because of him.

"Just answer me now, you're keep making excuses. You know how much I hate it." He growled not moving, locking me with his body still standing in front of me.

I sighed, the worker is looking at me with smile on her face, maybe reassuring me with Namjoon's words. She heard them all okay! This guy seriously.

"Okay! but we need to go ou--"

"Yessssss!!!" He took me into his bear hug, he lifting and spinning me around in his embrace. "Stop it!!!" I'm half yelling and he finally putting me down, kissing my both cheeks, making me flushing with blushes.

end

That shit happened, but he left me after that. He is Kim Namjoon, why do I believe in him at the first place? My stupid mistake.

He gave a promise, and gone like it was nothing. Why am I so dumb? Does it because of the internal feeling that I kept from past 10 years ago for him? I heard from my mom, he went to New Zealand to run from his father, but he going to marry anyway. Marry someone else that isn't me. It's not torturing, because it's making me hurting, especially my feeling the most.

because I..

already..

fallen..

for..

him..