insane ✿ a.i

beg

Ashton let's his hand fall from the door knob and he doesn't turn around.

I feel myself start to tremble and I step forward to him.

Trembling I place my hand in his arm and he tenses.

"Please," I choke out, "stay."

I feel his body relax and he turns to me.

I take a deep breath and look up into his eyes, afraid if what I'll see.

His face is gorgeous up close.

"Okay," he whispers.

-

He sits on the edge of my bed as I pull my knees up under my chin.

We sit in silence and I feel my eyes start to droop.

I fight to stay awake, but feel myself drift off.

-

I hear movement and my eyes open a bit, but just barely and a figure is above me, leaning over the bed.

Ashton.

"I know you're scared right now, Josie. But I swear," he chokes out in a whisper, "I swear, I'll help you somehow. You know," he chuckles a bit even though it sounds as though he is breaking, "I dreamt of you last night. I don't remember any of it, but I knew you were there."

With that he stands and lays a kiss on my forehead and sneaks out.

Something drips down my face and reaching up with a finger I swipe it away.

A tear, but my eyes are dry.

-

Groggily I sit up and realize just how comfy I am. Then I remember I'm in Ashton's clothes.

And everything comes in flashes from yesterday.

The showers.

Being carried out naked.

Running into the boys before I got back to my room.

Asking Ashton to stay.

Ashton talking to me when he thought I was asleep.

Groaning I stand up and rub my eyes.

I can feel my hair sticking out like Einstein so I pull it into a quick side braid.

Out of nowhere Alice groans and I jump.

"Morning," she says giggling as she gets up and then eyes my clothing.

"What," I say innocently.

"Nothing," she says with a knowing smile and intercoms Calum and Luke to take us to the Cafeteria for breakfast.

-

"Josephina," Susan says quietly in our session.

"Would you like to discuss yesterday?"

Which part?

Because the only part I want answers about is Ashton.

"Uh," I reply looking out the window of her office, "Not really. It was a mistake in the bathroom. "

"Darling, there are no mistakes here. What happened yesterday was an episode of your condition."

"Condition? What are you talking about?"

-

"So," Luke says as he escorts me to commons, "Your clothes...."

Uh.

"Oh," I said thinking, "They're from home. Because of last night, they uh, let me where my clothes for today I guess."

He nods, but keeps eyeing the clothes.

We arrive at the commons and see Alice sitting on the couch in a cute dress.

When she sees me she smiles and pats the couch like crazy, "Jojo!!!!"

"Hey Alice."

"So what did she say? Did you finally get diagnosed with your condition?"

Scratching my arm I look down and can tell Alice is wondering what happened.

"Maybe later, okay?"

She nods understandingly and starts to chat away.

The fact that she cares and will just chat with me like it's all fine makes me happy.

-

"Hey," Alice whispers poking my side, "There's the babe."

Pointing out into the garden I see blonde curly hair and feel a blush heat up.

"Who?"

"Ashton, duh."

"Wooah, no no no, wrong not for me Alice."

She pouts and whines, "What? Oh c'mon he is totally into you."

"Alice I'm not pretty like you, plus Zayn is head over heals for you. I'm in a mental institution."

"Pish posh, darling.

-

So what do you think she is diagnosed with?