insane ✿ a.i

untouchable

Ashton looks down for a moment and I'm dying to reach out to him, but I'm frozen.

"Josie..."

I whip my head around the room but realize Ashton said it.

"Yes?"

"Are you okay?"

I look into his eyes and see he truly means what he is asking.

And that is when the tears fall, and for once I'm not embarrassed or ashamed. Because no one has asked me that question and actually wanted to know the answer.

Not Alice. Not Luke. Not Susan. No one. 

A violent shudder passes through my body as I start to shake with sobs.

"N-no," I choke out and see he is frozen, "I'm not okay. I'm crazy. I'm a freak. I'm a loser. I'm a loner. And I will never get to be normal or happy."

Ashton scoots fully onto the bed and takes me into his arms and I melt into them perfectly. 

Cliche' I know, but I like the way his inked arms look wrapped around my pale untouched skin.

He sighs as he strokes my hair softly, "You're none of those things. We all have our demons. But you know, we all get through it. One way or another, one day you will get rid of the demons, one by one, and when you do, even along the way, you will get to experience happiness. Because I see beautiful things for you Josie. You are something else. I honestly know I shouldn't be here right now. I shouldn't care for you the way I do. I'm not going to lie, I'm bad news Josie. But I feel like that when I'm with you I'v finally found my sweet escape and even though I know its wrong I'm not willing to give it up because I'm greedy and selfish."

I look up at him and see a small streak of wetness.

"Why are you crying," I ask quietly.

"Because I know something terrible is going on in your beautiful mind and I wish I could take it all away."

-

Ashton holds me all night long and we don't speak. A silence settles over us and our breathing is the same. He is leaning back against my headboard with his legs parted a bit. I'm sitting between them, leaning back against his chest and his arms are snaked around my waist.

-

Yes a lot happened. But this isn't one of those stories where the girl gets the guy right away. 

Just to let you guys all know, Josephina has been in the facility for 3 weeks now. 

Im thinking about doing a chapter from Ashton's pov so you can get an insight of what he feels. Let me know.

But this is just the beginning.