Different // Why Don't We

Weird moment // part 13

Hit the road Jack from pentatonix was playing on the box. I have a choreo so I let myself go. Dance is a part of my life since I was 5. I make my own choreos now and I join competitions. The moves on this song are girly and actually, super sexy. After my choreo I dive in the pool. I stay under the surface for a few seconds and when I come up I hear Jack: 'You have dance skills!' Daniel is impressed as well: 'The Smooth Step? That is just amazing!'

Zach grabs my shoulders from behind: 'Where did you learn that?' I giggle as Alsace winks: 'Well, I dance for like 11 years now.' Jonah asks me if i want to be in a music video as a dancer and I laugh: 'Well, I'll think about it.' He nodds. 'I am going to make dinner', Christina says. Alsace and I decide to help her. I hear all the boys whispershouting 'damn' as we get out of the pool. 

'I'll prepare the salad!', Alsace says as soon as we've put on our clothes. 'I'll do the meat', Christina adds. I tell them I'll make the drinks and dressings. I look at the boys: 'They look so happy, they must feel like the luckiest guys on earth.' Christina smiles: 'Yeah, they do.' Alsace pokes Christina and tells her she is very lucky with Corbyn. They both turned their back at me when I feel someone grabbing me from behind and dragging me inside. I see it is Zach as he closes the door. 'Zach, what -', He interrupts me and pins me against the wall: 'What, do you think you are doing?' 

'I don't know, Zach, but please let go of me. I don't like this.' He lets go of my arms, but put his hands at the wall on both sides of my face. He is so close to my face: 'You are teasing me Amber, and I don't like it.' I giggle: 'I didn't mean to, Zach. By the way, I need to finish the dressings', I say while going to the kitchen. He mumbles angrily and goes back to the others.

I ask myself whether or not I should've just kiss him. Was that a better reaction? Just kiss him? But then I lie about my feelings. He is my favourite, but I don't have feelings for him. I love him, but the feelings aren't there... I already feel sorry.

'Amber? Are the dressings finished?', Christina asks. 'Yeah, you ready too?' She nodds: 'Lets go and surprise the boys!' When I get outside, I see Alsace got back in the pool with Jack and Daniel. They are having fun chasing each other. 'Kids', I say with a smile. Christina yells: 'Dinner is ready!' Zach immediately pops up out of nowhere shouting 'Food!'

I keep thinking about what happend. Would he hate me now? 'Amber? Can I have a virgin mojito?', Jonah asks very seriously. I give him one and he is gone. I see Corbyn talking with Christina and Zach talking with- Alsace. They both gave me a quick glance. All of a sudden, it is way too hot outside. I get inside and tell myself to calm down, that I imagine things. The questions fly around in my head: What is she up to? Am I going crazy? She is my GODdamn best friend! I tell myself I am making things up. I hear people at the door so I run upstairs and lock the door. The tears are streaming down my face as I yell to myself internally. I hide my face in the pillow until I can't breath. After what felt for hours I hear someone at the door: 'Amber? Are you okay?'

a/n: I know. Amber sounds a little mentally disturbed... maybe she is.