Different // Why Don't We

The Feels// Part 27

"Jonah. Come on... Dance with me", I say as I follow him to the kitchen. He shakes his head. "Jonah? What's the matter? Aren't you happy to see me and Al?" This time, I have his attention; his eyes widen and he takes my shoulders firmly: "No! No. Gosh no. Amber. Don't think that. It is wonderful to see you again. But I have some thoughts and I can't get rid of them." I hug him tightly. I know it's a bad idea to ask him about it, so I say nothing. "Dance with me. Forget about them for a second", I whisper. I want him to be happy. His happy self. I can't take it, seeing him sad... It is just not him. He normally has this smile on his face, a twinkle in his eyes... Now his eyes are... I don't know... Colorless.

Suddenly, the doorbell rings. Hanna walks up to me: "Amber. How late did you say your mom was going to arrive at home?" I reply: "She wouldn't get home tonight..." Hanna looks confused:"Then.. Who is at the door?" I shake my head.... She leaves to open the door and Jonah whispers: "I believe it is-" Hanna interrupts him:"Amber! It is Tatum!" I look at Jonah:" Did you invite her over?", I exclaim in anger. I don't wait for an answer and turn around. I face Tatum: she is incredibly beautiful. Brown, sparkly eyes, Brown, wavy hair. She is perfection. Jonah walks up to her: "Amber. This is Tatum. Tate, this is Amber."

She looks at me in despise. I say "hi", very kindly. "Hi, nice to meet you", she says with a sarcastic undertone.
Jonah hugs her from behind and Tatum asks if she can talk to me for a second. "Yeah, sure...", I say, I feel uncomfortable. She takes me apart and her facial expressions turn angry:"listen to me. Very carefully. Jonah. Is. Mine. If you, ever, try to take him away from me. I'll kill you!"

I stay as calm as I can be:"He is my best friend, I am happy as long as he is happy" but I turn mad as well:"Now I have a warning for you. If Jonah ever gets hurt, because of you, you'll have to deal with me. She nodds and a real smile appears on her face:"great! We understand each other. Sorry for being so rude...but I-" I shake my head and smile: "No need to apologise. I understand. We both care about him"

We give each other a hug and she goes back to Jonah. I take my coat and go to my back yard. "I know I'm good at hiding my feelings... But acting?" It was hard. Hard to act like I don't have any feelings for Jonah... "JoJo.. Will you ever know?", I whisper to the sky. I see the stars and, right above me is my constellation: Capricornus.

"You couldn't tell me you needed some air?" I turn around in shock:"sorry, Corbyn... I didn't think it was necessary." He follows my gaze: "Is that-?" "Capricornus, yeah...", I smile. The sky is clear. The stars are bright and it is full moon. "Do you see mine?", He asks reaching for my hand. I grab his hand firmly. I feel loved when he worries about me. It is the cutest. Of course Hanna and Alsace's have the same effect, but for this moment, Corbyn is the one I need. "Sagittarius is slightly to the right", I say while tilting his head, "right, there. You and Hanna share the same Zodiac" He giggles: "I love stargazing"

"Me too", I sigh," Why did Jonah invite Tatum over?" Corbyn shakes his head: "I guess he felt a little alone..." I raise my voice: "What?! Aren't we good enough?!" Corbyn tries to shush me: "He is the only one of us who was single... Remember?" It doesn't help: "No! No he wasn't... I am single as well! So that is a bad excuse! Besides, I wanted to have a party with just the 8 of us!"

I'm overreacting for not having feelings for him: "Sorry... I'm overreacting..." He smiles and grabs my wrists, which forces me to look at him: "Bambi. I understand. You wanted a surprise party for us and now some, for you, complete stranger, casually walks in..." I nodd. He takes me back inside saying we should have some fun.

We walk in on Jonah and Tatum making out. Something inside of me snaps, but I don't show it. In fact, I put a smile on my face as Tatum looks up at me. Corbyn squeezes my hand. "Jonah... Can we talk?", I ask a little angrily. "Yeah... Sure?" I walk outside and face him: "Why... Jonah, Why?"