Bent

□ CHAPTER: 22

Kathy's P.O.V

I can't believe I did that. I literally cannot believe that I just kissed Jace like that. Why on earth did I do that?

And the way I just walked away afterwards. So pathetic. Utterly pathetic.

But I just couldn't stand the way he was staring at me like I just told him that I'm pregnant with his child. Was I that ridiculous to him?

I run my hand through my untied hair as I pace around my room. He must think I'm an idiot now. Who kisses someone, reveals something so important, then walks away like nothing happened and remain sane in another's eyes. How?!  Argh!

Like I said... utterly freaking pathetic!

You need to calm down. I'm sure Jace doesn't think that you're pathetic.

I do!

Well it's a good thing no one cares about what you think isn't it?

Grrrr!

He probably thinks I'm worse than pathetic Sub. I mean I must be if I'm having conversations with myself right?

Right!

Okay why the hell have I started insulting myself now?

Why do you suddenly care what Jace Clarke thinks about you? He's an even bigger idiot than you are!

I don't know actually. All these crazy emotions and thoughts of him started when he started giving me those stupid roses of his. Argh! Why does he have to be so freaking thoughtful! And handsome! And funny! And annoying! And tall! And so smouldering! Why are his eyes so hypnotiseing? Why is he such a great kisser! Why do I have to care so much about him!

I could go on and on but with each thing I think about the more I seem and sound pathetic.

I look myself in the mirror and examine all of my bruises that are all almost gone. There's just a few scares here and there that are barely noticeable.
I guess maybe I could start trying more in terms of how I dress when I go to school.

I think that that's a great idea!

I smile looking at my face that looks a little brighter than normal. I think it's because of all the time I spend on the field today during L.O sports. Next week we are going to be in the indoor swimming pool so at least I won't have to listen to Trisha going on and on about how she's losing her complexion. I like her skin colour, even when she gets burned a little it's always bright and nice. Not like mine which is always pale or grey looking because of that man.

Exactly! I don't know what makes you think that you stand a chance to be with Jace. He's hot and you're ugly as fuck!

That's harsh! And the worst part is that its coming from my own subconscious. But maybe she's right.

I walk away from the mirror and I walk to my bed getting under the covers. I reach over to switch the turquoise lamp on my bed side table, which was the only light on in my room seeing as though I had to be sleeping by now, off.

Before I allow myself to fall asleep I check my phone for any messages from Jace. He usually sends me a dozen a day but now there's nothing. Not since our conversation about Kimberly.

He calls her Kim. Kim! So disappointing!

Let her have him! She's more in his league than you are anyway!

You know what, I'm just gonna go to sleep. What was I thinking that I could be pretty enough for Jace to even be interested in me.

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