Bent

□CHAPTER: 15

Trisha and I are sitting at the pavilions on the field underneath a large tree. We're eating our lunch and catching up.

"I told you that Jace likes you. But no, you never wanna listen." Trisha says and I roll my eyes.

"No Trish. It was just a joke. He was going along with what Mr Krain said." I try to give excuses. I don't think Jace likes me. I mean what is there to like?

"I don't think so." She says with a shrug.

"Well it's the truth. But now look Mr Krain is going to make jokes about it for the rest of the term if not year." I say rubbing circles on my temples.

"I don't think it's a bad thing actually. Don't you like it, even if its just a little when he says stuff like that? And did you see how all those jealous girls were annoyed?" Trisha goes on and on.

"I didn't like it one bit. You know how much I hate it when people stare at me." I say taking a bite of my homemade pie.

I didn't even know that Evan could make pie. He sucks when it comes to pastries but this pie is good so I'm not complaining.

Speaking of Evan. That child is up to something. I know it! He is being so secretive lately. And it's worrying becuase we have never kept anything from each other. I know who gave him his first kiss. I know who all his ex girlfriends are. From the first one to the last one.

I know when, where and with who he lost his virginity. I even know that he does some of the work by himself if you know what I mean.

Anyway, the point is that I don't know why he became so closed off all of a sudden. It makes no sense.

"Kathy! Are you okay?" Trisha says. I blink my eyes repeatedly and look at her concerned face.

"Yeah I am. Why?" I reply.

"You have a troubled look on your face." She says. I smile at her.

"No. I was just thinking about a few things. Don't worry about it. I'm fine." I assure her. She gives me a certain look and I know that this conversation is about to go in a direction I don't really want it to go.

"Look don't take this the wrong way and it's good but I'm just concerned that's why I'm gonna say this. You're acting weird." She starts and creases form on my forehead.

"Weird how?" I ask.

"This is a good thing yes, but you're acting so hyper and you have more energy. I saw you last night and you seemed conflicted and angry and sad and then now you're extremely happy. Yesterday you didn't want to hear about Roger and I but today you're being so nice to him. I didn't think that you were actually going to give Jace a chance to be your friend but you are and you're smiling more. And I can see when you force your smiles and when you're actually smiling. Girl the force-mentation is strong. What is going on?" She explains. I don't like it when people put me on the spot like this.

"Trish-" I start wanting to tell her to let this go but she interrupts me becuase she knows this tone very well.

"It's him isn't it? He did something to you to make you like this didn't he?" She asks and I look down. I've been doing so well. I didn't want to think about it.

I nod my head. If I lie she'll know so there's no point in trying.

"What did he do?" She asks turning her body to me and takes my hand in hers.
I don't say anything. I don't even look at her. I just keep looking ahead of me at...yes looking ahead of me.

"There's no one else here Kathy. You can tell me. I declare that this is that day." She says squeezing my hand with both of her hands. I know what day she's talking about. I'm glad she still respects that I don't like being deep everyday.