Me, Mom with(out) Daddy (COMPLETE- ENGLISH)

37. The Mansion

Nathan White

I'm shifting and awake when I feel sunshine touched my face. I struggle to wake up with all these sore in my body..

I just recall what happened last night.. It's been two days, I always went to the club at night and end up with wake up on my bed with this terrible headache. Even I didn't remember how can I get home last night or night before. Darren should help me with that..

I took a quick shower and put on my sweater. I wince a bit while I wear it. I just take my watches and look at my self reflection on the mirror. 

Nath.. you looks horrible.. 

I got bruise on the edge of my lips, and bruise on my left cheek. I sighed and grab my car keys and heading downstairs.

I sit on the barstool and Jane was coming through me.

"Do you want breakfast of should I call it lunch?"

"No... just take me a glass of water and advil please." I said and hold my forehead. I hate being drunk but nothing could I do to ease this feeling.

"This" Jane put a glass of water and advil on my palm. I take and drink it. I hope that could makes me better.

"What happen?" Jane ask me. I just look at her and shakes my head.

"If you already found her than tell her everything she needs to know, make her your mine.."

"I tell her everything.. but I have no chance anymore to make her mine."

"What do you mean? just ask her to married with you?" she retort.

"Someone has proposed her two days ago." she seems shocked and I could see her pity eyes on me.

"I'm sorry to hear this.. so this is the reason you're being like this?"

"I don't know how to deal with this feeling.. I love her Jane... I love her so much.. so much till I don't know how to stop it.. even I don't know what should I do or what should I react with these." I sighed and made my walk to the elevator.

"Nath.. where are you going?" she asked.

"Don't worry.. I'm not planning to go to the club now.. the club is not opening yet.. not until midnight.. and it's still afternoon." I smile get in the elevator and waves her goodbye.

"Nath.. at least don't get drunk.."

"I can't promise Jane.." I smile and the elevator closed, take me to the basement.

"Sir" Darren greet me when I get out and walk through my BMW I8.

"I drive on my own Darren.." I said and get into the driver seat.

"But sir.."

"That's okay.. I'm not planning getting drunk tonight.. If I did then I will call you.."

"Yes sir" and I drove my car.

What should I do then after these? I just drove my car to one place. I park my car and walked into the mansion. Yes, I bought this mansion seven years ago, while I was thinking about showing it to Ella for our wedding gift. But she even not yet know about these. I just rebuild and refurbish every part of this mansion.. I don't know why but I just did.. Maybe there's a part in my heart still hope that one day we could live together in here.. This is quiet a huge mansion, with a pool in the backyard, and also the view of lake and mountain from the backyard. I just imagine again while Anna and Alya was playing in the backyard and swimming there while I was stay on the edge of pool and looking to them.

Right after I knew that I have daughters, I called my architect to help me rebuilding the bedroom for my kids. Now their room was already prepared.. Pink wall, any design like a princess things was fill in the room. I smile when I wandering and get into their room. I just imagine how excited and happy when they found out their princess room like these.

I also prepare a main room, should be our bedroom Ella. The main room has the best view of this mansion. In this room we had a big glass that shown us the view of lake and mountain at the same frame. In this room, I made a little room for my desk and also a little library for her. She will love it cause I knew she's a bit possessed with books. I smile stupidly while thinking about these.

I could see the sunset is almost coming. The view is so beautiful here, but not yet complete and prefect without her. I just stand still looking through the glass with that view.

What should I do with this mansion? This place saving much of my imagination to have a little family together with her and our kids.. Now, just me here.. alone by myself.