Trusting Again (5SOS)

Seven

Michael

Calum and Luke were hogging the laptop, so Savannah and I went in my room to get away from them. We started playing Mario Kart since it was one of the few she knew how to play. The boys came in and continued the video through our yelling. When she won we decided to join the video again. “Really Mikey, you drew Mike-ro-wave?” Luke laughed.

“Well, yeah, you didn’t think I would draw Dr. Fluke did you?”

“Who drew Psycosis?” Calum asked. I could literally see Savannah’s face fall and feel her becoming gloomier.

“I did,” she sighed.

“Where’d you get the idea for the costume?”

It took her a moment, but she eventually answered,” My favorite rock band, Quiet Riot. Their mascot always wore a mask like that and he was locked up in a crazy room in one of their videos.” I knew she was lying. Why didn’t she trust any of us enough to actually tell us the truth?

“Mikey! Your turn!” Ashton yelled as he walked back into the room. I kissed Savannah in front of the camera once just so everyone knew she was mine. I walked off laughing at the boy’s gaging.

Savannah

I was fine until Calum brought up Psycosis. I don’t even know why I drew that stupid hero! I felt like I could trust Michael, but I know I can never trust anyone ever again. Not after what they did to me.

I excused myself from the twitcam and ran out in the backyard. I climbed up a tree that was so far away from the house it would take the boys a week to find me. Once I was seated so that I wouldn’t fall out I lost it. I broke down and cried my heart out remembering those stupid memories. I could have stayed out there all night like I used to do back home, but I didn’t want to make Mikey or the others worry about me.

I got my tears and breathing under control before I climbed down from the huge tree. I checked my phone and saw three missed calls and five new texts from Michael.

“Where r u???? What happened???”

“Please answer I’m starting to worry.”

“The boys r getting really worried and so am I.”

“TELL ME WHERE U R!!! I’M FREAKING OUT!!!!!”

“I’m coming to look for u.”

“NO, don’t do that. I’m coming back to the house. I just wanted to get in a run.” This way I wouldn’t have to explain my red face and slight loss of breath. I jogged back to the house so I wouldn’t feel so bad about lying to them again. I could tell that Michael knew I was lying and I could tell that it was hurting him, but I also knew that if I told him the truth he would treat me like a freak.

I ran in the door and was tackled into a hug by four super tall boys. “Where the crap were you?!” Ashton yelled near my ear.

“We thought you got kidnapped!” Calum said as he held me by my shoulders.

“Why is your face red?” Luke asked. I panicked for a millisecond before I remembered what I told Michael.

“I went out for a run,” I lied. They all believed it because I was in shorts and a tank top, except Mikey. He was kind of glaring at me like he knew there was more to what I was saying.

“Savannah, could you come in here with me?” Michael asked as he started walking towards his room.

I started after him and mumbled,” Sure.”  I walked in the room and saw Mikey sitting on the edge of his bed, looking sad.

“I just don’t get it,” he mumbled,” I can tell you’re hiding so much and I don’t get why you don’t trust me.” He looked up at me with tears in his eyes. I grabbed his hands and sat next to him. My hands might as well have disappeared because of how much bigger his hands were than mine.

“Don’t take it personally. I haven’t trusted anybody since I was fourteen. I want to trust you, but I.. I just can’t,” I cried, “I really do like you, so please don’t think it’s about that.” For a moment all you could hear was our sniffling. “I wouldn’t blame you if you left me for someone better right now.”

He picked me up slightly and set me down so I was sitting on his knees. He put his forehead against mine before whispering,” Who could be any better than you?”

“Everyone and anyone would be better than me,” I whispered as he pulled me closer and I wrapped my arms around his neck.

“I don’t agree with you,” he said as he kissed me,” at all,” he added between kisses.

We broke apart and just stared into each other’s eyes. Suddenly, he picked me up and threw me against the bed, starting a wrestling match filled with giggles. I had just pinned his hands above his head when someone started banging on the door. “Aye! Shut up already, some of us are trying to sleep! You two are being louder than me,” Ashton yelled only causing us to laugh louder.

Once we got our laughter under control we agreed that it was time to at least try to sleep. I brushed my teeth while he changed into pajamas and when we were both done we switched. I lay down on the edge of the bed and curled up around a pillow. I heard the door open and Michael gasp,” What do you think you’re doing?”

“Trying to sleep,” I said as I turned my head to look at him.

“You’d rather cuddle with a pillow than me? Am I just a bad cuddler?” He tried to keep a sad face, but a smirk found its way to his lips after a minute. We both laughed as he lay down next to me and pulled me into a hug.

“G’night Mikey,” I yawned.

“Night Savannah.”