A Night-Long Lament

please forgive me

"Y/N! What's wrong?" Namjoon rushes over to you, wiping your face with a tissue. You touch your cheek and feel a wetness.

"S-Sorry-- I didn't expect to cry--" You rush over to Yoongi grasp his hand. "I'm so sorry Yoongi... I'm sorry I did this to you... I attracted all of this, and now you're hurt!" You cry into his hand and don't look back up.

"Y/N...! No, no, you didn't do this!" Yoongi clasps his hand over yours. "Y/N, please don't cry... It's not your fault...!" 

You didn't want to see Yoongi leave you. He helped you through so much, and at this moment, you feel so helpless. You can't help but feel utterly squashed under fate's foot. As you continue to cry into his hands, you look up at him. 

Yoongi was crying too. It was silent, but you feel the tears on your hair, sliding down to your face. Deep down, you felt Yoongi knew too. He knew that he was in danger. 

"P-Please... Stay with me." You sob. Yoongi brings you up and hugs you tightly, smothering you in his tears.

"I-I'm so sorry..." He mutters between cries.

You squeeze him, but not too tightly so you hurt him. "Don't be." You look back at him, determined. "I'm staying here tonight. I can't see you very often... So please just let me stay to keep you company." 

"No! You might catch- whatever I have! I can't let that happen." He shouts. 

Shaking your head, you squeeze his hand. "Yoongi, please."

"I'm still against it." Yoongi shakes his head and lays down on his pillow. Quietly, you pull up a chair next to his bedside.

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You wake up to wheezing and panting. Panicked, you shoot up and look at Yoongi, caressing his cheek. "Yoongi?! Yoongi?!" You cry. His eyes don't open, but the gasping continues as he clutches your hand and squeezes. 

Yoongi finally opens his eyes, sweat pouring for his forehead. "Y-Y/N..." He pulls you into a tight hug and stays in that moment for a while. Yoongi manages to sit up and take a sip of water. 

"Yoongi, are you alright?" You inquire. He nods his head.

"Yes, I'm alright. I'm sorry I woke you." He looks out the window and then back to you. "You're probably confused."

You blink and realize what he's getting at.

His previous case...

You couldn't help to feel curious about the previous events, but you knew that it was the wrong route to take. You just didn't want him to relive his past. 

"You don't need to tell me." You grip his tricep.

Yoongi shakes his head. "You deserve to know." His eyes don't meet yours when he begins to talk.

"Jungkook and I never got along too well. Although I was older than him, I couldn't get myself to just cooperate with him." He sighs. "When the first round of girls came for our weddings, several weeks went by and just a couple of girls were left. I had my eye on one of them, and I guess so did Jungkook."

I didn't notice that things were so rough with those two...

"After she was accused of killing the Queen, she was brought to court, in which I was her defense, like yours. I lost the case." Yoongi's voice cracks. "She was sentenced to death soon after. Soon after she... passed, it was revealed to only a few months after, that the King had killed the queen, and not... her." 

"Yoongi, it's alright you don't--"

Yoongi shakes his head. "Jungkook and I never really talked after that. We didn't get along either. He's good at concealing his pain, so no one noticed how much he was suffering except me." Touching his ribs, he continues. "Just before your court date, Jungkook and I got in a fight. He expressed more emotion towards me than I had ever experienced from him. And that was all because of you."

Yoongi shifts his eyes in your direction, finally meeting your gaze. "He was telling me that I wasn't capable to take up another case and that he couldn't afford another loss." He exhales a tired laugh. "I couldn't take another one either. If... If I had lost your case, I don't know what I would've done."

You didn't know what to say. All you did was hug him. That was all you could do. 

Suddenly, he pushes you off of him, but still gripping your shoulders. "Y/N, no matter what happens to me in the near future, please, please, don't forget me. I know I haven't done anything that memorable for you, but at least keep me in your memory." Tears run down his face.

"Yoongi... Of course. Of course, I would. And don't say you didn't do anything, you did everything for me. Thank you."

Yoongi embraces you as the morning birds begin to chirp.

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