A Night-Long Lament

I'm sorry

(Your POV)

Jolting up, a sharp pain shoots through your stomach as you clasp your arm over it. Painfully, you reach over to grab a half-filled glass of water to rehydrate yourself. As you begin to drink, you spot Jin slumped in a chair near your window.

"Jin?" You manage to get out.

At the sound of your voice, he springs up from his chair and caresses your face. "Y/N... You're back." Taken aback by his touch, your cheeks glow with pink. "What happened?" 

You look off to the side and furrow your brows. "Someone assaulted me and I was left for dead." You squeeze your eyes shut in fear on the memory resurfacing. 

Suddenly, Hoseok, Namjoon enter while Yoongi is being wheeled in on a chair. "Y/N!" Hoseok and Yoongi exclaim. Hoseok runs up next to your bedside and grasps your hand. "I hope that you are doing better." Hoseok breathes.

You nod and smile warmly. "I'm doing much better, thank you for your concern."  

Yoongi comes up beside you with Namjoon behind him. "I'm glad you're doing better. Please get well soon." Yoongi says quietly.

Namjoon releases Yoongi's wheelchair and clasps his hand around yours. "Y/N... I'm so glad that you've healed." He puts your hand to his forehead, which makes you jump a bit at the surprise action.

As they all leave, Jin waves goodbye to you as they close the door shut. Just as they exit, Jungkook and Taehyung enter abruptly.

"Y/N!" They both shout. Jungkook sits on the edge of your bed and Taehyugn stands next to you. 

"I can't believe someone would do this to you..." Jungkook slams his fist on the bedpost and Taehyung grips his shoulder. 

"The important thing is Y/N is alive and well," Taehyung says, but his eyes trail up to the door and frowns. He leans into your ear and whispers, "Do you want me to stay?" He points to the door.

As you turn your head to look, you see Jimin standing outside with a troubled expression. Looking back to Taehyung, you shake your head. "I'll be ok." He hesitantly nods and grabs Jungkook.

When they exit the room, Jimin inches his way inside. "Y/N..." He murmurs. You shift the position you're sitting in and look over to Jimin.

"Why?" 

Jimin looks up at you with regretful eyes. "I-I'm so sorry Y/N... I never meant for it to hurt you-! I just-- In the heat of the moment, I don't know how I could've made you stay.

"So kissing me would make me stay?" You start to shout, but quickly compose yourself.

"N-No! I- I didn't mean-- I didn't know what I was thinking, I'm sorry." He pleads.

Looking to him with serious eyes, you say, "Was there anything behind it?" 

"I..." He trails off as he looks to the side. His cheeks suddenly grow pink. "Y--" He shuts his mouth for a moment then opens it again. "Y/N... You know I can't answer that now..." 

You nod your head. "Then it was just another one of your flirtatious actions to meddle with my head?!" You raise your voice.

"O-Of course not! I don't mean to be flirtatious--!" He shouts back.

Your side aches but you ignore it. "Then what Jimin?!" 

"Y/N...! You can't understand the position I am in right now! If I answer and my father knows what my feelings are, you'll either be sent out of this castle or be forced to marry me. I--" He shoves his hands in his face. "I'm sorry. I never meant for any of this to happen." 

He looks into your eyes and doesn't flinch away. "I just want the best for you." He then looks down and mutters, "And I'm not that."

Something stabbed you in the side. And it wasn't a knife. You felt guilt and remorse for Jimin. You didn't want to be unkind to him, but you wanted explanations. 

"Jimin..." You say sadly.

He suddenly bursts into anger. "And-And, How could you say that you're a nuisance?! I-I thought we had some mutual understanding for each other- Y/N. You're amazing. You send me in a state of awe every time I interact with you-- I-  I just can't believe you'd even come close to thinking like that!" 

"I'm not as amazing as you think, Jimin...! I fall apart! I-- It's hard. Competing for a hand in marriage and resisting this ...criminal, person, whatever they are!" You wince as you were about to mention the attacker. Pain, anger, and remorse surge through your body.

Jimin runs up next to you and his hand grasps your back gently. "Are you ok?" He whispers. 

Nodding, you look up at him. "Jimin... You know I can't forgive what you've done... But I'm thankful that you took into consideration my feelings."

Jimin stares back at you with hope-filled eyes. "I-I'll make it up to you. I promise." He squeezes your hand as he waves goodbye to you. 

You knew in your heart Jimin was a good guy. 

Eyes tracing back to your stomach, you squeeze your fist together in frustration. 

They were so close... 

Thinking back to yesterday's events, you replay their voice over and over again.

You couldn't quite place it, but you knew that voice.

Thank you so much for 16k reads! It means so much to me. I'm currently working on the ending to this story, so please drop any suggestions on the story or guesses to who you think stabbed you. :)