A Night-Long Lament

hesitancy

(Your POV)

As you entered the library, you got a cold shiver down your spine. You look to your right and see Namjoon. Just, looking at you.

"N-Namjoon! Good morning." You speak. 

He approaches you slowly. "Y/N. I heard you made up with Hoseok and Jin."

"Y-Yes, We did makeup."

Namjoon sighs and looks at you. "You're great Y/N, but I don't know how they could forgive so quickly! I know Jin has a soft spot for you, but Hoseok? I just don't know what to think anymore."

Soft spot?

"I don't understand it much either, but either way, I am eternally thankful for their forgiveness." 

Namjoon exhales sharply. "That's it! I can't understand you. Or this!" He points at himself and plops himself down at a chair.

"I have to organize an event, figure out what's going on with Yoongi-Hyung, and look out for everyone in this kingdom!" Namjoon sighs.

You rest a hand on his shoulder. "If it'll help, I'd be happy to aid you with your work."  

"You may be able to help with a couple of the tasks but organizing the event... You can't."

"Why?"

Namjoon looks back at you with serious eyes. "I don't think you understand, but Father... He hasn't been seen ever since the court day. He's hidden in his room. I've been the only one who's seen him since, and even so, it's only been to get his permission..." He trails off. "I don't want you to be scared here, but he is not helping you out." 

You nod. "Namjoon, even if he's around, I'll be ok. I just want to help you." 

He sighs, defeated. "Alright then. Let's just start off with the upcoming event." He grabs some papers from his folder and looks through them. "It's a potluck... Of sorts, but people from all around will be coming. We have to ask his permission..."

Namjoon looks down at you. "I'll be fine, Namjoon. Thank you." As the two of you walk down the dark corridor, you are finally met with the door you once entered with Namjoon. When you both enter, The king is already waiting for you. Just... Standing in front of the door. 

"Father, we need permission to host the annual potluck in the gardens here," Namjoon speaks confidently as he pulls you behind himself. 

"Ahh... Y/N! Congratulations on winning the case. Yoongi really pulled it off, huh?" He shoots a look at Namjoon with gleaming eyes. "Now, as much as I love your company, I think it'll be best if you leave. For good."

"Father--"

"Y/N, You see, Namjoon over here--" Namjoon hooks his arm with yours and pulls you out of the room. 

You wriggle out of his grip. "N-Namjoon, what was that?" 

"Nothing! Just, Let's just go onto the next task. We'll host it anyways." He storms off but calls over his shoulder. "Y/N, we have to go check on my brothers and Yuna, so I'd get it if you want to leave. It's rather tedious."

"No, I'd like to see them it's alright." You jog after him. 

The two of you go to Jin's room first. "Good morning, Hyung. I'm just checking in." Jin waves to you and Namjoon and gives a thumbs up.

As the two of you visit Hoseok, Jungkook, and Taehyung, you finally arrive at Jimin's room. You start to grow apprehensive. But you try to push it aside for the sake of Namjoon. 

"Morning, Jimin. Just checking things over." Namjoon waves to Jimin as he turns his head to face yours. You grow stiff as you meet his eyes. 

"Y-Y/N!" He exclaims as he trips over items on the floor to come up to you. "I--"

You back away, hitting your head on the doorframe. "I-I'll see you later." Namjoon catches up to you as you speed down the hallway with a red, flushed face. 

"Y/N? Is something the matter?" Namjoon asks, concerned. 

You shake your head in denial. "No, I just felt a bit embarrassed." You lie.

"To visit Jimin? You didn't seem that way with the rest of them." 

"Let's put this aside, yes?" You suggest, showing a sad smile.

Namjoon backs off and nods. "Sorry for prying. Let us visit Yoongi-Hyung?" You nod your head and stride towards his room. 

As you arrive, a doctor bursts out of his room, frustrated. When the doctor comes out, he shakes his head. "Good luck getting anything out of him." As he leaves.

Namjoon and you exchange looks and head inside. "Hyung?" Namjoon says quietly. 

Yoongi turns his head and smiles. "Namjoon-ah! Y/N!" He exclaims happily. 

He turns his body to face you while still staying in bed. "I've been quite immobile ever since the court day." He sighs and lifts up his shirt, revealing the extremely purple and black bruise on his stomach. "It's also just this illness. It's really getting to me." He coughs and ruffles his hair. "Don't worry, I'll be out of here soon though." 

Namjoon smiles and pats his pack gently. "Of course you will Hyung! I'm glad you've been keeping up the spirits." 

You didn't know how to react. Thoughts of what Hoseok said coming flooding back into your head, blurring your vision of Yoongi. You were scared of what could potentially happen to Yoongi. You just didn't want to acknowledge his illness.