Lucid is finally going to be here and my feeling for Suie have gotten worse. its so annoying cause i know he doesn't feel the same and to tell him and break up our friendship would be stupid of me and i don't want to but he knows somethings up like every time he posts on his instal story i just look at it and smile. he sometimes asks me what I'm smiling at but I'm not going to tell him but always just tell him my best friend said something funny to me and he gets annoyed cause he thinks its lucid. but today was off i was really sad and i didn't know why so i went to my gallery and looked at pictures of me and Suie and i felt myself blushing and Suie popped up "what is little miss Samatha blushing at"
"Does Sam have a crush?"
"NO"
"Sam you cant lie to your best friend"
"okayokayilikelucid"
"Sam English, please"
"I like lucid"
truth is I don't like lucid i like suie. And now we have bigger problems cause now i have to tell lucid about the entire conversation. Lucid knows about me liking Suie, but he isnt going to like the fact that i told suie i liked lucid. actually i dont know how he'll feel i guess we'll find out in two hours
time shkipppppp
lucid gets here and i was so excited to meet him and he really is so nice and i'm so glad i replied to him but suie keeps looking at me cause he wants me to tell lucid so i ask him if we could talk so we both go to my room and i tell him the entire situation
Sam: sosuieseenmeblushingandknewilikedsomeonesoitoldhimitwasyousohedidntknowitwashim
i rambled and he asked me to talk slower
Sam: suie saw me blushing and knew i liked someone so he asked me who and i said you so he wouldn't think it was him
Lucid: Sam why would you do that
Sam: what else was i going to say, can you just make a scene like you turned me down and i can run out of here crying and we'll never speak of this again
Lucid: no S-sam i can't do that
Sam: why not
Lucid: i will seem like the bad guy and i don't want to be kicked out of our friend group
Sam: no lucid i won't let that happen, please we're supposed to best friends
Lucid: Okay fine
Sam: LUCID PLEASE SAY SOMETHING
Lucid: WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY I ONLY SEE YOU LIKE A SISTER
i then run out of the room and leave the house pretending to cry and i get a text from suie
suieeeee: what happened
Sam: it didn't go well he sees me as a sister
suieeeee: you want me to talk to him
Sam: No if the feeling isn't mutual I'm not going to force it on him we will just stay friends
suieeeee: okay but be home safe and get home soon
Sam: okay
after an hour I go home and we have a movie night and i felt like lucid felt left out and i felt bad so i text him
Sam: you good? i don't want you to feel left out
Lucid: yeah don't worry about it i'm fine
Sam come over here lucid says across the living room i walk over to him and we lay together on the couch and suie looked mad for some reason
then Lucid text me
Lucid: he seems mad
me: i thought the same thing
Lucid: he likes you cause he only seemed that way when you came over here
i looked at the text then blush then look at lucid and i then hear suie yell
"if you guys are going to act like a couple do it somewhere else"
"thought you only saw her as a sister"
"suie whats wrong," i ask genuinely concerned
"nothing but its supposed to be all three of us and no you two and me third wheeling, if i would have known it was going to be like this i wouldn't have been your best friend" he then storms off and it got awkwardly silent for a minute then lucid finally speaks you should go talk to him but i really do think he likes you "okay and i doubt it"
i walk up the stairs and knock on suies door
"WHAT"
"can we talk"
"I guess"
"suie whats wrong you wanted me to talk to him why don't you want me to now"
"how blind are you sam, when we first met i told you that you were pretty and you said i was cute back which made me happy every day for the past three week you've made me happy no matter what and now you tell me you like my best friend i was trying to be supportive and be happy for you but i cant because i like you and i thought you would be able to see that by now but no i have to spell it out to you when i know you don't like me back so there isn't really a point im just making a fool out of myself and i don't want this to ruin my our friendshi-"
I KISSED HIM
we stayed like that for a minute but then pulled away and stared at each other
