I havent been myself and neither has suie i want us to be as happy as we were
"Suie, suie wake up"
"No leave me alone"
"Nope come on im not playing get up and get ready"
"Oh my god what do you want"
"I want you to get up and get ready"
"Okay fine only if it makes you leave me alone"
He goes to that bathroom while i think of more things to plan for this day to be good because lately theyve all been bad we argue a lot and some of the arguments turn violent.
Suie walks downstairs with an annoyed look on his face
"What the fuck are you wearing you look huge"
"Okay I'll just go change"
No dont you'll take forever and i already dont want to do whatever you just woke me up for"
"Then nevermind you dont even have to go" i finally snap at him
"Dont talk to me like that"
I get irritated and go up to mine and his room grab a makeup wipe and wipe my makeup off and then grab some pajamas and walk to the guest room and shut and lock the door.
I put my pajamas on and lay down
I think about it and i start to cry because i dont deserve this its like everytime something goes a little wrong he wants to give up until i finally snap. Im going to leave him i cant do this anymore its all getting to be too much.
I go to our office and grab a piece of paper and a pen and walk back into the spare bedroom
I start to write the note
Suie,
I cant do this anymore. You are too quick to give up no matter what happens even og we are doing good you somehow find a way to fuck that up. I just want to be genuinely and i am when you are cause you're a great boyfriend but when you dont want to be you are rude you cheat suie you have even put your hands on me and i do everything and anything to make you happy and that doesn't seem to be enough for you and i dont understand what i did wrong to deserve this i i really dont. But it is what it is i really hope you find someone to give you what you want. Anyways I'm taking most of my stuff today but ill be back for the rest tell me when youre going to the studio and ill come get my things
Samantha
"Samantha"
"What"
"Come here" i hide the note under the bed and walk out
"What"
"Im leaving"
"K"
"Do you want to come"
"No"
"What the fuck" he yells, i walk back to the room and lay down
"Hello dont fucking ignore me"
"What suie"
" you just wanted to leave and now you don't"
"Quit yelling"
"No you woke me up to leave the house lets fucking go."
"Yeah i did cause i had the whole dat planned for us and you turned into an asshole"
"Why wouldn't you tell me that"
"It doesnt matter"
"Whatever"
He leaves and i put the note in a envelope and tape it on the door then start packing all my stuff i put all our pictures in the garbage get most of my closet cleaned out and go to get my dresser cleaned out and i hear the door open but i didnt even try to hide the bags i mean he already has the letter i hear the door shut and silence for like 4 minutes than stomps up the stairs
"Really this is what i get home to"
"Yup"
"For what"
"Did you read the letter"
"Yeah i did and it seemed like a lot of petty shit"
"Petty shit,thats petty to you?"
"Yeah it is"
"Wow okay thats fine"
"Youre not leaving"
" yes i am"
"No youre not"
"Give me one good reason i should stay"
"I can give you a million"
"Well then tell me" i said calmly he starts yelling right away
"Samatha there has to be something wrong with you in the head do you understand im with you for a reason i fucking love you and i try so hard but you just dont get it i have literally turned into a psycho because of you, you expect me to always be as happy as you and with you i cant do it with the constant thought in my head oh im not good enough all the time and i dont like talking to you about it cause i feel like you are going to use that shit against me and you just dont see that do you?"
"Why would i use that against you that makes no sense at all. Ive always been there for you and i always listen to what you have to say but it seems like i dont get that in return and you obviously dont see that i try to be the best girlfriend i can be for you but its like a slap in the face to me cause you do fucked up shit all the time you dont pay attention to me you cheat and you have put your hands oh and youre disrespectful to me and if you are actually "trying" than why do i feel like this suie?"
"Ive just been stressed sam you know i dont mean none of it"
"Okay so that means that you take it out on me"
"No it doesnt"
"Suie what am i doing wrong i want to know so i dont do it no more. I hate getting treated this way but i always do and i told you how my past was with my father and you still do this and it hurts"
"Mamas you dont do nothing wrong you are amazing and you really do deserve much better than what i give you and im so sorry. But please just unpack your things"
"No bro this isnt healthy for me at all" i cry harder than i already was
Suie starts crying too
"Please samantha i will do anything for you to stay please"
"I dont want you to do anything you had the whole relationship to do all this stuff and you only want to do it now that youre about to lose me thats crazy to me."
"Please sam" he walks to me and hugs me as tight as he can and pulls me towards the bed and lays down with me on his arms
"Please let me go"
"You arent leaving i can't let you leave"
"Suie please"
"No samantha"
"Okay well me and you arent dating no more but if you prove yourself i might consider it"
"So we are in the talking stage again"
"Yeah something like that"
