we stayed like that for a minute but then pulled away and stared at each other.
i then ran out of the room before he said anything because this was already a bad situation he thinks i like lucid but i really like him then he ranted about him liking me I kissed him and then ran out the room i walked past lucid but i knew him and suie were both following me because of the faint footsteps from behind me but before anyone could speak i slammed my door forgetting my phone is in suies room and i don't want to see him right now as it is. its really nothing against him but i know how he is he can get any girl he wants and i couldn't blame any girl for wanting him he is great and i also can't get the thought out of my head that he is fifteen he doesn't need to worry about me and his carrier just started i mean cashing out is doing well and he doesn't need a distraction like me stopping him from another song that does really well. i finally snapped out of my thoughts and realized my face was wet i didn't realize i was crying until now and have all those thoughts also made me realize i really do like suie. so I lay down to try to take a nap but then flashbacks of the last three weeks with me and suie started to flood through my brain
flashback
"Oh my, my best friend is so pretty," suie says smiling as i walk out of my room
"no I'm not but thank you" i replied looking down to see I'm wearing pajama pants and a tank top thinking this is everything but pretty i look rough
"Samantha you are pretty" he sort of yells
"no, I'm not"
"do you want to fight about it? whoever wins also wins the argument."
"ok suie but im about to win"
we start play fighting and he is on top of me tickling me but then stops and looks at me for a minute and just smiles "I think i win" then gets up and leaves.
Or when he asked me to take out his braids and it took forever just because of the fact we couldn't quit laughing at things he said
i doze off but 30 minutes i was rudely awakened with someone knocking on my door i get up hoping it wasn't suie but luckily it wasn't it was Landon with my phone in his hand "suie told me to give this to you, whats going on with you two" he asks
"Landon i love you big bro but if i talk about whats going on its going to be with suie first but right now i can't bring myself to talk to him but after i do I'll fill you in on everything
i message
Bestooooo Suie!!!
I'm sorry for saying all of that
Sam
i know you're reading these
you have your read notifs on
he was right so i turned them off and also my phone falling back asleep
THE NEXT DAY.
I was scared. of what you may ask. to walk out of my room i didn't want to face suie i didn't want to bring up the topic of yesterday i didn't want him asking questions (knowing he would)
suies POV
I don't know what i did wrong im too afraid to go talk to her im scared of all of this losing my best friend.im too afraid of feeling this way about someone. its too much to take in at once i really wish i didn't say anything to her and lucid she would have never come upstairs and we would have been fine or she would have been fine i would i have still had a secret and been mad the whole time lucid was here because they kept flirting i don't understand how can he say he sees her like a sister but later that day be all cuddly with her i don't think it makes sense or maybe he has seen how great she is because sam is great no sam is better than great sam is perfect.
Back To Sam
i had to get ready so i go to the bathroom but i have to pass suies room which the door is open i plan on talking to him today but i don't want to be friendly i don't want to be mean but i want him to not like me anymore but that means i cant like him which is so hard he's perfect. but i walk fast in front of his door hoping he doesn't see but then i hear my name being called i ignore it and continue to walk to the bathroom I brushed my teeth did my hair then went back to my room and get dressed and this is what I've been preparing for since nine in the morning its now twelve
i walk to his door and knock
suie is bold sam is regular
"go away"
"Suie it me Sam" i start to get butterflies
he opens the door and has a slight smile i really just wanted to hug him and yell date me but i couldn't i feel like such a bad person when i see him
" Sam i am so so sorry"
"why are you sorry"
"because i know you don't feel the same" his face fell a little and he looked down
"Suie please just let me do all the talking so you don't make it harder than it already is to sit here and do this" he looked up and started to listen to what i had to say
" Suie you are such a great friend and me and you have gotten so close, but i don't like you, and i feel its best if you don't hang out with me until you stop liking me"
he started crying. and that's when i really felt bad and i didn't know what to do i got up and i hugged him he shrugged me off of him and started to talk
" why do you want to give me a hug now you just told me you don't want me around you"
"but suie you are still my friend no matter what but i want you to lose these "feelings" doing the air quotes with my fingers
"SAMANTHA IS ITS "FEELINGS" IT IS ACTUAL FEELINGS I FUCKING LIKE YOU BUT NO YOU LIKE MY BEST FRIEND. YOU LIKE OUR BEST FRIEND. BUT YOU WERE MY BEST FRIEND BEFORE YOU WERE HIS, IT'S NOT FAIR"
"i can't control it suie"
"but why him? what does he have that i don't?"
"SUIE I DONT EVEN FUCKING LIKE HIM IT WAS JUST A COVER UP"
"a cover up for what?"
I left suie in his room crying and with many questions
And I also left crying
Hey honey sooooo should i do an imagine book or another suie book?
