Done.

3-The bathroom

The test. It's pretty easy so far. This is going to be an A or B, let's not think it's going to be an A.

The higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment.

Let's just hope it isn't an F and I'm good.

Lunch break, some people love it, some people hate it. I'm a proud hater, without the proud part. Lunch break basically sucks because you can hear everyone talking, gossiping, saying nasty things behind your back. You can hear it all.

People can also walk to you and decide to ruin your day by judging you for the way you look. Like what Jesica did yesterday.

Because of all that, I love to eat alone. Outside or on the toilet, I don't care, as long as I'm alone.

Since it's lovely weather outside, well as lovely cold weather can be, I'm going to eat there.

I found a bench outside of the school, I didn't even know this part existed, so I think I'll be alone out here.

What about Sam though? He was sweet, but he can't be my friend. No one can be my friend. I can never be a good one, I'll suck, I won't be there for them, they'll think I suck and that I'm fat, ugly, pathetic, lonely and should I even go on?

I'm bad for people, that's probably even why Jesica replaced me for plastic Barbie dolls. Because I'm me. I'm never good enough, why should I even keep on trying?

Maybe it's for the best that I just- No, we're not going there, yet.

Jesica comes around the corner with a guy I've never seen before.

Shit.

She walks to me. "Oh. You're here." Yes I am. "Why don't you just get your calories and go somewhere else? You'd make a lot of people happier if you'd just leave." Well jeez, thanks.

I grab my "calories" and walk away, she really needs to learn how to talk normally to people.

Well then I guess I'm eating on the toilet again. Great.

Why does Jesica need to be like this? Why can't she just be nice to me for once. I groan in anger. I really want to go back to her and scream in her face.

But let's be real, if I do that I'd create a scene and I would guide myself to so much more trouble.

I really want to go home, but then people would suspect something and I really don't want that.

I'm finally on the toilet, oh god I'm feeling so low. I know Jesica just said calories to hurt me, but I truly feel fat.

"Fuck this." I say and throw my food in the toilet, then flush.

I sit down again and grab my gum. I don't even know why I do it, it just happens.

I roll up my sleeve, no, not on the same arm. I roll it down and roll up my other sleeve. I take a deep breath and...

After I'm done I clean myself up and put the gum back. I think calling it gum makes it less dramatic and sad.

I let out a deep sigh, the cuts of yesterday have a count of 7. Today it's 6, is that better?

I put on my hoodie and pull down my sleeves so low you can't see my hands anymore. Then I put my head in my hands and my mind sees an opportunity to go crazy.

Everything is too much, I begin to cry, a lot.

The door opens, I quickly wipe my tears away and am trying to be as quiet as possible.

Heels, multiple heels. They don't go to a toilet, probably just some Barbie dolls who want to fix their makeup and such.

But then I hear that one voice, of course it had to be her. I bet all of you know who I'm talking about.

Jesica Dewis.

"I got to fix this mess on my face, Adam made my face a mess." too much information.

"Jes, why even were you friends with that loner." I hear some girl say. "For her brother of course." The other girls laugh. "But her brother left for college, so she was for no use anymore."

It was my brother?! I should've known, of course she used me for my brother. The fake that she is.

"Was he good?" What the hell? Who even asks that. "Incredibly good." I think I'm gonna throw up.

After 10 minutes they finally leave, so I can as well. I walk to the mirror and look at myself.

Jesica, my former best friend was screwing my brother.

Today is not my day.

Physics class, I don't want to talk to Sam again, not today. It's been enough for today.

I go to the back of the class and sit in the furthest corner, some time alone hopefully. Hiding your feelings is so damn hard.

Everyone walks in, then I see Samuel. I quickly do something, you know acting like your busy so people won't notice you're looking at them.

He walks to me. No no no no no no, please don't do this Samuel, we can't be friends.

And takes a sits next to me. "Hey." He says with a shy and curious smile on his face. I don't do anything because I don't want him in my life, I will just hurt him.

"Are you ok? You seem a bit off... Uhm.. I suck at this.. I guess what I'm trying to say is, if you ever need someone to talk to I'm here." He says while looking at me and lightly playing with his hands.

I look at him and smile,I let out a small thank you. He smiles back and class begins.

He's there for me? But.. he doesn't even know me.. why did he say that to me?

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Hello everyone:)

Can we all agree that Jesica isn't the nicest friend to have?

What is your opinion about Samuel? Do you think Elisabeth is going to let him in?

Oh. And of course. Do you think it's true what Jesica said?

Please, comment. I'm curious about your opinions:)