Done.

5-The test

The clock ticks, every second a new click. I'm clicking my pen two times in one tick of the clock.

I'm nervously looking at the clock, I'm starting late again, but after this class I have a small break. Not a lunch break like yesterday.

In the middle of the hour we get our tests back, the moment I've been waiting for.

The teacher walks to me with a sad smile and hands over the paper. "I hoped you'd score better miss Whitmore."

I look at my paper and see a -D. I stare at my test, not believing my eyes.

I just ruined everything.. I feel like I can't breathe. I raise my hand. "Sir? Can I go to the bathroom?" He nods a yes and I rush out.

I run outside, I need air. I go the the front of the school, since it's the middle of the lesson, nobody's outside.

I kneel down and try to breathe, it's hard, way too hard.

My mind is going crazy at the moment. I try to focus on heartbeat, but no success.

Both of my hands are in my hair, how could I fail this test? I studied so hard.

"Hey are you ok?" I hear a vague voice in a distance.

I'm panicking so bad, I can't breathe, tears are rolling down both of my cheeks.

I feel two big arms around me, a calming voice in my ear. I still can't figure out who this is.

This is a safe feeling, I grab the jacket of the person holding me and push myself against him or her.

It feels like a him, I feel a hand on the back of my head. Pulling me to his or her shoulder.

"It's ok." I hear over and over again.

Breathing is still hard and I'm still crying, but I'm calming down.

I look up to see who's holding me, I see two friendly green ish blue eyes.

It's Samuel.

He smiles friendly and wipes my tears away with his thumbs. All of a sudden I'm breathing normally again, I'm calm.

I look at him with big eyes. "Do you feel a bit better?" He asks. I slowly nod.

"Do you think you can stand?" I nod again, still holding his jacket.

He helps me stand up. I still look at him. He still holds me.

"Do you want to tell me what happened?" "Not now." He smiles and nods. "Why are you smiling?" "You're voice is beautiful." Now it's my turn to smile. "Thank you."

"Why are you here? Don't you need to be in class or something?" I ask him. "No, I came earlier to check some things." "Oh ok."

"Thank you Samuel." "My pleasure Emma." I look uncomfortably at him. "My name is Elisabeth.." "I know, but you didn't want me to call you that." He says. Oh, so he's playing smart now.

I smile and shake my head.

"C'mon, let's go inside, you need to go back to your class." I sigh. "I don't want to go back there." "Did you escape from there?" "Yeah."

"You can look forward to science class, I'll be waiting for you." He says looking me in my eyes. I smile. "Can't wait." Are my last words before I go back to hell.

"What took you so long miss Whitmore?" Are the first words the teacher loudly says to me, all the eyes are on me now.

I freeze. "Uhm.. I uh.." "You what."

"It's a girl thing..?" "You mean you're on your period?"

My cheeks are getting warm, I feel my face heating up. All the people in the room are staring at me.

"Uh.. yes.. sir." I say. It's not true tho, it's not that time of the month yet. "Well sit down and pay attention." I quickly go to my seat and try to focus. Most of the people lost interest and pay attention to the class again.

How can a teacher say that? Is that even legal? I know I shouldn't be ashamed of having periods, but having a teacher confront you with it in front of everyone is just.. uhg!

The bell rings and I go to the bathroom and look in the mirror. I take a deep breath.

"It was just a moody teacher, it's not your fault." I say to myself. "It's not your fault." I say again. "It's not your fault, it's not your fault, it's not your fault, it's not your fault." I keep saying this till someone else walks in, then I leave to avoid a judgy look.

During the day I try to avoid people as much as possible, until I'm in science class. I take a seat and wait for Sam.

When he arrives he takes a seat next to me. "Are you okay again?" "I'm a little better yeah." Shit! Why couldn't you just say 'I'm fine' or 'I'm doing great, thanks' why did you tell him the truth?!

"Again, if you need anybody, you can talk to me k?" I nod. "Okay, thank you."

"Thank you so much for helping me back there." "Any time Emily, any time." I smile and grab my stuff.

"Did I spot gum there?" My eyes get wide. "No you didn't!" I quickly say. "Yes I did." He says jokingly.

"Quickly put that away before everyone is gonna beg you for gum." "Yeah, ok, cool, thanks. It's empty anyways." I say before putting my bag away. He gives me a confused look and also grabs his stuff. The class starts.

When I get home I untie my shoes and put them somewhere in the hallway. I also open my bag and grab my gum, then go upstairs.

I think I need a new place for my.. stuff. If Sam is gonna find out what's really in there I'm gonna scare and disappoint him and I don't want that.

Wait.. what am I talking about? Samuel and I are never ever gonna be friends, I need to stop this. Sam can't know me.

I put the gum on my desk and lay on my bed, you probably already guessed what happened there. I stared at the ceiling of course.

'Why did Sam talk to me?' Because he's bored and needs a new toy to play with, he doesn't even care about you. Who can even care about you? You're ugly, mean, fat, selfish, hopeless, sad all the time. Who would want to be friends with someone like you.

I wipe my tears away, yes tears. Thoughts can make you really sad.

Oh and of course you're a cry baby, no one wants you. You're just a boring usable object Elisabeth. You're a no one.

Okay this is enough. I'm so sick and tired of all these thoughts! I don't want to admit that I want to end the thoughts, my mind, everything, but I almost can't escape it. It's haunting me every single second of the day.

I grab my pillow and hug it tightly, I think I'm gonna try to sleep till dinner's ready.

Today was really not the way I expected it to be.

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Chapter 5 already, this goes fast. Is the story still ok so far?

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