Done.

6-Dad and the moon

"Wake up Elisabeth, dinner's ready." Someone whispers. I slowly open my eyes and yawn. "Hm?" "Dinner is ready Elisabeth, lets go downstairs." My mom says.

"Ok." I say back. "Did you feel better after going outside yesterday?" "A bit yeah." I lied of course, I will probably never feel better. "Ok, let's go downstairs then. Your brother called a thousand times and asked for you, I said you weren't available."

I smile. "Thanks mom." "What he did was wrong, he shouldn't have done that to you." True. "It's ok." I lie again.

We walk downstairs, my bag is wide open. That's strange.. I thought it was just a bit open. Whatever.

As we sit down and eat, my father is staring at me. I don't know what kind of look he's giving me, but it's creepy. So I just try to eat.

He slams his hand on the table. "How are you able to eat!?" He yells at me. "Richard!" My mom yells at him, as a sign to calm down.

I shyly sallow the food I had in my mouth. "What do you mean, dad?" "This!" He yells. And he shows me my test. Yes the one with the D minus.

My eyes become bigger and bigger.

"Explain!" He yells.

"Richard enough! She's just a girl! She just got a bad grade! She can work on it and instead of letting her or explaining what this means you start yelling a her out of nothing!" My mom fires back.

He takes a deep breath and looks at my mom. I don't know what he's gonna do now, but this was scary. He sighs. Then looks at me again, trying to be calm, but he has very strict eyes so it's really scary. My dad is never like this, I've never seen him like this before.

He's the one quiet, nerdy one from your class you know. I've never seen this coming, this is not who he is.

But I made him like this, it's my fault. It's my fault he yells and that he's mad, I should've been a good student, but instead I was a failure, like always.

"You're grounded for a week. No hanging out with friends, nothing. You'll be up in your room to study." He says.

Well, great. I don't even have friends. So that's ok, but I don't want to be punished for something I was so stressed out about already.

That makes me think about Samuel, he helped me, he helped me calm down.

He was so sweet and protective there, I don't want to ruin him, I don't want to let him in, he's too precious for that.

"I'm sorry.." I say quietly to my dad.

After dinner I go upstairs to my room. I want to be alone. I close my door and immediately I start crying.

I'm so stupid.

I wish I had Samuels number, he could calm me down.

God dammit Elisabeth! Don't think about Samuel! You don't deserve him!

I grab my bag, I got it from downstairs when I walked to my room, and go to the bathroom.

You all probably already know what's going to happen, well, you're right, but first I took a warm shower to calm down. It didn't work so I grabbed my gum, like expected, and it just happened.

It was on my thigh, I did it over old scars, ones from 2 weeks ago. I made a promise I leave scars alone for 2 weeks before I can do it again. I don't want to be scared for life so I'm as careful as possible.

Which is dumb because I'll be scarred for life anyway.

I leave the bathroom, without taking care of the cuts, I cleaned them, but didn't do anything else.

I grab my schoolbag and make my homework, I can't focus at all, but I can't handle any more problems.

After I finally wrote the last word of my homework my phone started ringing. I grab it.

It's Daniel.

"Oh no, you do not even deserve to talk to me!" I yell and throw my phone on my bed.

I walk to my bed, climb on it and look out of the window, it's behind it if you know what I mean.

I stare outside, it's dark, some stars light up the sky. The sky is dark, dark blue, it's the misery of the day. The day is happy and the sun shines happily for all of us. Then the night comes, darkness.

The moon and I understand each other, both lonely yet the sky is filled with stars.

Just being there, all alone in the darkness.

Then the day comes, it pushes the moon away, out of the way.

The moon then doesn't mean much at all, it's there but never visible.

I want to be in the happy sunshine, but I can't. I'm gone. The moon is gone.

Me and the moon drown in the darkness, the happiness is up, but we can't swim up, we're  stuck in the darkness, so far you can't even see us anymore.

The moon and I are the same.

I lay down, throw my pants and hoodie to the other side of the room and bury myself in my blanket.

Staring at the ceiling once more.

Jeez I should start looking for a hobby, my life is just pathetic.

Hold up, I need to make a plan for tomorrow. Samuel and I can't speak, this has gone way too far already. I need to focus in class and stop being a little baby.

Then I notice something poking me in my arm, I take a look and see a little piece of paper.

I grab it, it's fold up. It must've fallen out of my hoodie or something.

It says:

Hey, call me whenever you need me. I'm always there for you. Samuel.

Then there's a number.

I put the paper on my night stand.

"Goodnight moon." I say looking up.

I try to sleep, but everything keeps spinning in my head, my brother, Jesica, my dad, my scars, the grade, the phone number.

Before I know it, my pillow is soaking wet. Of course I'm crying, when was the last day I didn't?

Should I? Should I not? Should I? Should I not?

After a while I decide to just grab my phone. I press all the numbers that are on the paper, this should be it.

Breathe in, breathe out. Let's go, you can do this. I press the green button.

Beep

Beep

Beep

"Hey..." I say quietly.

"Hey" I hear from the other side, it's a happy but tired voice.

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