Your Forever Is All That I Need (Sleeping With Sirens)

Chapter 35 - Old Memories

It's 2 am so I decided to update since I promised I would Thursday but I went shopping so I couldn't. I'm sorry. :( I'm awful, I know.

We were in Maryland so it wasn't far from home. I smiled at the scenery.

I looked over at Jay and he was styling his hair, as usual.

"I swear if you brush your hair anymore all of it will fall out." Bayli said and I laughed.

"You're just jealous that your hair isn't as great looking as mine."

Our driver finally parked the bus in our destination. I got out, breathing a breath of fresh air.

I worried about the kids with Kellin. As much as I wanted Alex here, I should've left them with him. At least I trusted Alex.

"I love Maryland." Tyler smiled at the sky and I smiled with him.

"I do too."

"So how are you and Kellin?" He asked as he took a cigarette from its pack.

"Huh?" I asked confused.

He placed the now lit cigarette between his lips. "Where do you guys stand? Talking? Not talking?"

"Oh," I said, feeling like an idiot, "we're talking a bit. I left the kids with him, which is a big step for me."

He nodded. "Very big. What he did to you was wrong. You already know this, but if I would have been with you, I would've found him and killed him."

I raised my eyebrows at him.

"I'm not even kidding."

"Wow, Tyler, you're a murderer?" I gasped.

"No," he chuckled, "not yet."

I laughed and looked as the All Time Low tour bus approached us.

Alex was the first to step off, followed by Rian, then Zack, then Jack. Jack ran toward me, engulfing me in a bear hug.

"Dez, please never leave me again. I love you so much." His grip went tighter.

"Jack-please l-let go." I gasped for air.

He giggled. "Sorry."

I laughed, placing a hand on his shoulder to steady myself. "Stop going to different places and you can see me whenever you'd like."

I turned my attention to Alex and Jack ran off to who knows where. He smiled and I did too.

"How are you feeling?"

"Good," I said confused, "uh, how are you feeling?"

"Good," Alex laughed, "I meant because of our growing child."

"Oh. Well I'm okay." I nodded.

"Good, I was worried you wouldn't be." He sighed a sigh of relief.

I laughed. "Why wouldn't I be?"

He shrugged and stuffed his hands in his pockets. "I don't know. I've never had a kid before."

"Don't worry. I'll tell you if I'm not." I smiled and he hugged me.

"Has he texted you any?"

He meaning Kellin. "No, surprisingly."

-

It was our bands time to set up. I was slightly nervous because I haven't preformed in over 3 years. It seemed like so short of a time.

I was feeling a little sick, but I haven't thrown up yet.

"Are you okay? You look like a ghost." Tristen said and grabbed her drumsticks.

"Yeah, just not feeling well." I said and shrugged it off.

"Well if you're going to puke, can you now?" A blonde haired girl said snobbishly.

How did she even get back here? She couldn't be a fan, so she had to be in a band.

The side of her head was shaved and she had a nose piercing. Not to mention a lot of tattoos.

She turned her attention away from me and to Alex. "Alex!"

She wrapped her skinny arms around his neck and he didn't know how to react. I didn't either. I just looked away and grabbed my microphone.

"Juliet, please. Fuck off." Bayli rolled her eyes and mad last minute tunes to her guitar.

The girl who now had a name, rolled her eyes and smiled at Alex. I had to admit I was getting pretty pissed off.

"Bye Alex. I can't wait for our duet." She walked off.

Alex rolled his eyes and mouthed, "sorry," to me. I looked away.

(I was about to end it here because I'm really tired but I feel really shitty doing that bc I always promise you long updates and shit so I'm not. :) )

Before I knew it, we were performing and I was watching Alex preform.

I ruined a lot when I went on because I threw up backstage. It was embarrassing because I bet Juliet was making fun of me. What the hell am I thinking? Why should I care what she thinks?

"I can't believe she has the nerve to do that to you." Jay said.

"Yeah, you should tell her straight up." Tristen said.

I was completely zoned out and didn't hear a word they said. "Huh?"

"Juliet is a bitch who is trying to get with Alex." Tristen reminded me.

I rolled my eyes and felt an arm lay on my shoulder. "But I thought Juliet was with Andy Biersack?" Tyler said.

"I've only heard of her today so I don't know." I shrugged.

"That makes her a slut." Jay said and laughed.

As Juliet passed us, she said, "Heard that."

"Sorry Jules, just stating what's true." Tyler said.

"And I thought Jay was gay. Rhymes so it must be true." She smirked and walked around to a bus.

Jay huffed. "I. Am. Not. Gay."

"We know, Jay. She's just a bitch." I assured.

"I mean for fucks sake, man. I have a girlfriend." Jay frowned.

"She can suck one." Tristen rolled her eyes at Juliet.

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I'm sorry it's not very long and I'm 4 days late with your update. I've been so fucking busy. School starts in 3 days and I'm literally crying. I hate school so much because I have social anxiety and anxiety period so like I hate crowds of people and I cry and shit.

I know you don't wanna hear me go on about my problems so I'll say thank you for 27k reads and 200+ votes. I love you and thank you so much for reading this even though it's shit. :)