Love Deprived

Chapter 11

Bluebell's P.O.V.

I feel weird.

I get this way whenever I watch a movie or finish a book.

It's like I'm angry, sad, and questioning everything at the same time, just, why.

Also, I have no idea what to do. And what I mean by that is; I have no idea what to do right now, or with the rest if my life.

I mean, during the school year I'm all;

Ooh I can be an artist because I'm good at this class!

OMG it would be so fun to travel the world and learn about stuff!

Woah! I love acting SO MUCH, I should be an actor!

I could be a therapist or something! Cause I'm good at solving other peoples problems!!

... But I just totally suck at Math, like jeez.

And now I'm all;

Wtf am I supposed to do now???

Also on top of that, I usually get visions and feeling about what my next school year is going to be like, buuuttt... I got noth'in.

I keep getting visions from later on in the year, but not the start. And it is SOOO annoying. Ugh!

One thing I know is that this year is going to be good, from the signs that I've gotten. And a fire is going to be ignited again, of some extreme of kindling. All I know is that it has something to do with Griffin, but that doesn't mean that it doesn't include other things too. If there is one thing that I have learned from this is; Don't trust so easily, but do trust your gut and instinct, and always expect the unexpected, best or worse, so you're always prepared.

But I don't know if it going to be:

1. Good!

or

2. This is gonna be good. *evil, maniacal laugh with villain hand sanitizer gestures*

So, confusing.

And , on top of that I got a vision of Xavier trying to do something very bad in Spring, with me.

And, you're probably going to think this is totally weird, but, if I think of a person, I can tap into their mind sequence and get an idea of what they're thinking, and sometimes the thoughts are loud, so that's when I get detailed interpretations. I'm shivering just thinking about it.

And also sometimes, when I sit in silence, I can hear voices of anonymous people's thoughts. Also the voices of spirits and other figures telling me things of which I should know. Which is great!

I mean, if I didn't have these feeling, visions, and others telling me these things I would have been dead A LONG time ago. So that's good. I guess it can get creepy sometimes, but I have gotten used to it over the years.

And the visions can go anywhere from me knowing that my sister is going to have a Toasterstrudel for breakfast to, there is going to be a red car crashing into a blue Mercedes on the West bridge 20 miles from my house at 4:25 and 10 people will be mildly injured, and one with a broken arm, and another with a cut lip. I also sometimes get license plates and facial details.

Except sometimes I get visions while I sleep, so I don't remember them until right before they happen, or get a de-ja-vu feeling and a shiver.

Or I will get them, and I usually can't control when I get them, and I will suddenly be very still with wide eyes staring ahead, seeming in "a different world." And it is always very, very important that I do not "wake up" from these visions or it could totally mess up the future, it has happened before, and I almost got hit by a car, let's just say that (it was 6 inches away from me, Oh My God).

I don't know where my visions came from, I think they might have to do with me being part vampire and caster. Oh, and speaking of which, I am definitely mostly caster, like duh, it runs in my family, as long as whichedry, and, no, you may not burn me.

In case you're wondering, I will give you details on this.

I have a very secretive, but magic family past, and I can't explain everything but, let's just say that there have been very many mysterious deaths and traumatic situations within my family's past. Which makes me even more a target for mortals, and other creatures along with being supernatural/ paranormal. And yes, when you are supernatural/ paranormal for some reason people are drawn to you, I don't know why, I guess it happens to do with our energy, magic, and image affecting their spirits. Huh, makes sense.

And with me having an affinity for the five elements (air, water, fire, earth, and spirit) I am more of an "attraction" which explains my kidnappers being more drawn to my presence and, weirdly, some mortals finding me attractive? I don't know how they see anything with the face that I have, but whatever.

Oh, and, yes, I can control the weather, it always matches my mood. It's very cool.

And that just makes a lot of things better because it means that I have yet another thing in common with my best friend. Wysteria is also vampire and caster. Sure she doesn't have the same situation as me, none of us do, that is what makes us special but together. It just makes it easier so we can always talk about new powers we are getting, or weird visions, or feeling, and it's okay.

And trust me, I have tried to reveal some of these parts about me with mortals, and it didn't end up well.

I was having a conversation with my classmate two years ago in 7th grade, and we were studying ghost stories. Without thinking I revealed that I could see spirits and ghosts, simple as that sentence. The room got totally quiet, and when I looked up everyone in the room was looking at me like I was a crazy lunatic and a witch (which I am part, haha!), even my crush and my friends (at this time he didn't know about me seeing spirits). And eventually they all started backing away from me, and I was afraid of the situation that occurred when I was younger and everyone thought I was a witch and if they came near me I would put a spell on them, or they would get poisoned and die. Bullshit.

And I mean, my classmates reaction was typical, they tend to go against and/or avoid anything not in their own little fake world of normal-ness. They're not very accepting. Most non-supernaturals I get along okay with, but that class was full of the type of people that burned my ancestors on the cross... and we're even Christian.

So, my point is. It's awesome to have an accepting, awesome best friend that can relate you, and listen without threatening to send me to a therapist or looking at me crazily. :) And also Kendrick and Griffin are like us, they are just a teeny bit in denial ( *coughs* Kendrick), but they're boys so. Ps. they hate it when we call them that, they like guys better, but boys is better used a lame turn so I can understand. But we don't ask them to call us "women," so I guess they really are quite particular, haha! Sorry guys. ;D *blushing*