In the middle (Jesse Lingard/ Marcus Rashford fanfic)

Chapter 22

14th July 2018
Amanda's POV-
I was in the stands watching the bronze match and I was rooting for England. But I felt like this was a match no one wants to be playing in and I could kinda understand the reason why. It kinda seemed like England didn't want to be playing this match. They did have a couple of good chances to score but nothing seemed to pan out. After 90 minuets Belgium had won 2-0, I believe it was their first ever World Cup title. It was honestly a great achievement for them.
After the match I got to interview Lukaku, Eden Hazard and Gareth Southgate. After doing the interviews and packing everything up. I saw Marcus talking to some of his fellow man united players. I was too scared to go up to him so I just waited for them to finish talking. I was helping Pontus and stina pack up when I felt a pair of hands on my waist. I turned around to see Marcus and I gave him a really big hug.
"Wow someone is exited to see me" he joked
"I always am" I said as I kissed his neck
"Oh is that now" he asked as he let me go
"Yes, we're still on for tonight right?" I asked
"I'm not sure I'm kinda tired" he said
"Oh" I feel my smile drop and I couldn't help but feel really disappointed.
"I'm only joking I'm never too tired to hang out with you" he said and an immediate smile came to my face.
"Oh look at that smile" Marcus teased as he pinched my cheek
"Stop it" I said while slightly pushing him away
"I'm gonna go take a shower and all that" he said
"Yea you kinda need it" I joked
"Excuse me" He said as he pretended to look hurt
"I'm joking"
"I'll see you tonight" he said giving me a kiss on the cheek
"I'll see you then" I said
"Honestly Amanda if you don't marry that boy oh my god I will" Stina said
"What?" I asked her confused
"You guys are like perfect together" Stina said
"Weren't you the one telling her not to choose?" Pontus asked
"I'm not telling her to choose, I'm just saying when I see her with Marcus, I could see it working out, but the truth is I've only seen her with Marcus, obviously I've seen her with Jesse but not in the same way I haven't seen them hugging or interacting in that way with Jesse. I can only judge on what I've seen and I've seen her mostly with Marcus" Stina said
"But the way Jesse was taking care of her when she was drunk that night, you could see it in his eyes he truly and deeply cares about her" Pontus said
"I know and that's what's frustrating they both are great guys, I have no idea who is choose if I was in your position" Stina said
"You guys telling me all of this isn't really gonna help" I said to them
They both just kinda laughed as we continued to pack up all of our stuff.
After getting back to the hotel, me, Stina and Pontus were talking about what it would be like when we got back home everything was sort of different now, it felt that way at least. After resting for a bit Pontus and Stina left to get food for me and Marcus. I started setting everything up. I didn't want to set up the same spot as last night it felt a bit weird. So I decided to set everything up in my bed room, I laid out a blanket in the floor with a couple of pillows I lit some candles. Soon Stina and Pontus came back with the food I thanked them. I put out the food and drinks on the blanket and made sure everything looked good. I changed into a black floway summer dress, I touched up my make up and I was all set.
I sat on the couch while on my phone, waiting for Marcus to arrive. After waiting a bit there was a knock on the door and I got up to open it. I opened it to see Marcus and a smile automatically came to my face.
"Hey come in" I said letting him into my room
"Why is it so dark in here" he asked while giving me a hug
"Well come along, I have something to show you" I said as I took him by the hand.
I lead him to the bedroom and told him to close his eyes before entering.
"Okay open them" I said as I opened the door
"Wow you did all of this?" He asked
"Yea, you leave for England tomorrow and I thought I'd make out last evening together special" I said sitting down on the blanket
"I'm gonna miss you" He said sitting down next to me
"I'm gonna miss you too" I said as I gave him a peck
"Have you thought about what I asked you, you know to go on holiday together when all of this is over?" He asked me
"Marcus you know that I like you and saying bye to you tomorrow will be hard enough, and then spending another week or 2 with you, I feel like im gonna get more attached to you and I just don't know how to put my thoughts and feelings into words, I'm not saying no because of you I'm saying no because I'm just not looking for a relationship and I want to make this easy for both of us" I said trying to explain how I was feeling and my thought process but failing miserably.
"No I understand what you mean" he said
"It just sucks knowing that I'm gonna have to leave you tomorrow, I never in a million years would of thought I could end up liking someone this much in the span of one month" he said
"I never thought it was possible either" I said
"There just something about the way you make me feel, how you always seem to make me laugh, you bring a smile to my face, your personality and just everything about you" he said
I couldn't help but tear up, I had no idea that that was the way I made him feel.
"Are you trying to make me cry" I joked
"No I'd never want to make you cry" he said pulling me into a hug
"I know, that was just one of the nicest things anyone has said to me" I said looking up to him.
He didn't answer me he just gave me a kiss, I knew for a fact this was one of the things I would be missing, just being in his arms and feeling his lips against mine.
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We had finished our food and we laid and cuddled for a bit. But we some how ended up on the roof of the hotel, which I didn't even know you were allowed up here. There was couches and sofas, I was guessing this was a hang out type of area. But there was no one hear which was confusing but I didn't question it. Marcus lead me over to one of the couches and we laid down there and covered ourselves with a blanket. We were looking up to the stars and the fact that this was most likely my last time being in Marcus's arms, made me feel so sad. I didn't say anything I just pushed my thoughts to aside and continued looking up at the stars.
"What are you going to do when you get home" I asked him
"I'm gonna go on vacation and just relax" he said
"Which is well earned if you ask me" I said to him
"Yea I can't wait to be in some warm country and just be relaxing" he said
"I don't like the heat" I said
"Why not?" He asked
"I don't like sweating, I'd just rather be somewhere where it's cooler outside" I said
"Do you like winter then?" He asked
"Fuck no, I hate winter with a passion" I said
"I sometimes feel like nothing can ever satisfy me" I joked
"Why do you feel like that?" He asked
"I'm not sure, I just feel whenever I get one thing I end up wanting something else, it's kinda bad if I'm gonna be honest with you" I said
"It's like you never settle, that doesn't make it a bad thing" he said
"It is because like let's say I've got a good thing going for me I then I don't want to settle, that sometimes results in me losing that thing I had going for me, that's why I feel like I'll never be satisfied" said
"I think what it is, is that you just have to find the right balance, like know when to strive for more and to know when to settle" he said to me
I didn't quite understand how this conversation had gotten so deep in 0.2 seconds but I didn't mind it either.
"I think that's one of the things I'm gonna have to work on" I said as I looked to face him.
Marcus just nodded and he put his hand on my cheek and looked me in the eyes.
"You're so beautiful" he said
I was horrible at taking compliments so i just leaned in to kiss him. I wasn't sure how long we were up on that roof, watching the stars, talking and kissing. But soon enough the stars and the night sky was soon replaced by the sun and the morning sky. But I didn't want to leave this couch we were laying on because I knew I'd be faced with reality when we do decide to get up and leave.
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Hello everyone, it really is coming to an end. I'm not sure why I'm emotional. There's gonna be like 2 or 3 more chapters before the sequel.
I hope you enjoyed it.
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