Running Into Noah

RIN/Chapter 10

I was curled up into a ball as I was still crying. The words got to me, not because they were true, because Noah said it to me.

Noah. Out of all people called me such mean things. And maybe, just maybe, I was all those things, selfish, manipulative, a bitch. But to have to hear Noah say that to me while looking at me with a straight face hurt. It hurt bad.

And the crazy thing out of all this was that I wanted to apologize to him. I wanted to say sorry for the way he saw me, I wanted to cry and beg him to take them back but why? Why would I say sorry, why would I beg? It should be the other way around.

I know that what I did 4 years ago was bad, yeah I know, but did he understand that he was dating Daisy? Did he understand that I had Tom?

I wonder what happened with him and Daisy? When did they break up? When did he see her last?

There are so many questions I want to know the answers to but the only one who can answer them is Noah. And I'm not really in the mood to talk to him, not today, not tomorrow, not ever.

Oh, who am I kidding?

I know for sure if Noah came through this door right now and apologized I would smile and say its okay.

And that's what I hate.

I hate it so much.

The door opened my heart stopped... is it Noah?

I'm too scared to turn around,

"Dani." Mikes voice filled my ears and I felt pure relief hearing him say my name right now.

"Mike." I said as I kept my head into the little ball that I was in, "What do you want?" I asked as I felt Mike sit down at the edge of my bed.

"Both you and Noah are mad, what's going on?" He asks, "I have been gone for a couple of hours, only a couple!" He almost shout.

"How about you go ask that bitch." I said in full anger. "Why would Noah even be mad?" I ask, "Its not like I was the one who called him and lying manipulative bitch, now was it?" I said as I shot up and looked at Mike.

"He said that to you?" He asked and I nodded my head and I felt the tears again.

Don't cry, Dani. Don't.

"I'll have a talk with him, don't cry." Mike said as he pulled me into a hug and I cried on his shoulder.

"It really hurt me, Mikey." I cried and he shush me down.

"It's not your fault-"

"Who's fault is it then, huh?" I asked as I looked up to Mike. "Who is there to blame?" I ask him but I didn't let him answer as I cried out, "I can't blame anyone else anymore. It's because of me, everything is because of me!" I was full on crying right now and Mike looked down at me with a frown.

"You shouldn't blame anyone, not even yourself." Mike says in a soft voice as he tried to calm me down.

"But it's all because of me." I whispered. "If I wasn't such an idiot none of this would of happened, I would of been in New York right now and at Richards cottage but I just had to come here, here were I left someone really important."

"You chose a new life, Dani." Mike said to me as he made me look at him. "You were thinking of yourself like I wanted you to, remember?" He asks and I nod my head.

"But why do I feel like shit for what I did? For who I chose?" I ask him and he just thinks but I can tell he comes out blank when he doesn't say anything, "Can I be alone?" I asked.

Mike nodded his head and kissed my forehead. "Get some sleep." He said and I nodded my head even though I wasn't going to sleep. It was just 6.

I looked at the mirror after Mike left and just looked at my messy curly hair and makeup smeared face.

Wow. My suckish life gave me a new look- the lying, manipulative bitch.

Just then there was another knock at my door...

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