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[1.20] december mood

december mood

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     My dress flows at my feet, and I've never felt prettier as I spin around in my living room. The white material is beautifully made on the top, with sleeves that go from full white till nude with white snow crystals. The waistline is like a usual ball gown, without any belt or special design except for the clean white material. The bottom flows nicely in a poof but the two upper layers are the same as my sleeves, turning it into a winter wonderland.

To be honest it looks like a wedding dress, but for these kind of charity balls things like this are expected. Gowns for thousands and jewels for the same. These events are some of the most beautiful ones, because of the meaning they hold, and the love the give. I always look forward to these arrangements, and I always work with my management to find the best things possible to auction away. The better the thing is, the more money the poor kids and families get.

My management wanted me to bring Shawn to the charity dinner for some publicity, but I refused seen as this thing between us is new and blooming, which is something I'll protect with my life. Therefore, I'm going alone and there's something so relaxing about that. I have all the time in the world for my own things and I won't have magazines on my ass looking for my new romance life. In that way I'll be able to make sure that all my attention is at the charity and the helping, and not the unnecessary media.

"You glow in this dress dear! It's so sad that it's not going to stay in your closet." Jas gushes as she walks around me in circles, checking if everything is as it should be. "Just imagine this as your wedding dress when you marry Mendes!" Oh god. Here we go! I'm about to protest when Jas starts babbling again. "It's going to happen. My bet is that you'll be engaged in a couple of years, then married before you're 23. Magnus thinks you'll be 25, but I pray to god I'm right. I don't want to lose my 100 pounds."

"What the hell Jasmine! You're an adult and shouldn't be betting on things like this!" I laugh, and I can tell she gets slightly offended by me mentioning her "adulty side" as she calls it. "And we just admitted that we're even into each other, how does that mean that we're going to get married? You guys seriously have no life if this is what you gossip over!"

I can see her cheeks flow with red and it makes me laugh even more. How did I end up with a crew this childish? Sometimes it's a blessing, and it can make life happier, but other times I feel like I'm back in elementary school.

She claps her hand in an awkward manner to try and change the subject. "Enough about that. We need to get you to your red carpet."

"It's not mine."

"Yes! In this dress you're all the media will see!" Within a few minutes we've gathered up all my things for tonight, and we're sitting in the car on our way to the ball. I'm excited and slightly nervous because I hardly know anyone who will be there today. Meeting new people is great, but as my name has grown known to the world, I get nervous every time. People expect something from me because of what they've heard, and that means that in one way or another I'm not what they want.

As we pull up to the venue I feel a hand on my shoulder. "I'll be right behind you no matter what." Magnus says with a small smile. By now my closest family and team, know about my fear of being left alone on social events like this. I thank him for the gesture and take deep breath as I see a doorman opening my car-door. Just a few minutes Adria, and you'll be all good.

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I make it inside without any problems, and I breathe out in relief as soon as I step out of the cameras' eyes. There were as usual, lots of questions and an interview, but nothing that I wasn't prepared for. Magnus walks closely beside me, thankfully. I look around and see a couple of faces that I recognise from TV or social media, but in general, all the faces are rather unfamiliar. I guess I might get lonely today, but I shouldn't be complaining about that. We're here to serve a great cause.