Who? *Complete*

Why?

My Dear kids,

Life will never be what you expect it to be. It is that ride in those electronic parks which goes up and down and everyone shouts.
Sometimes that ride gives you chills, sometimes it scares you, sometimes it is peaceful, but most of the time, it is fun.

I have lived a good handful of years and I am now ready to depart on the journey that waits for me, on that side.

I fell in love, married the man I wanted, cried for the loses, had you all make my life beautiful and now, I want to sleep.
I want to sleep like a baby in my coffin. One can never be ready for death, but you have to be.
So here as I breath through this oxygen mask and look at your sad faces as this handsome gentleman speaks out my will to you guys, I want to say this:

I don't want you all to remember me for what I left for you all. I know I gave my children the best parenting I could and I don't have to say this, but I will. I am dying. I spent my entire life earning and teaching you all the hardships of life and now, I donate all my money to the charity which I always wanted to work for.
I want you all to remember me not for my legacy, but for my charity. I want my youngest child to have this opportunity to start a charitable organization for needy and helpless and keep it going for the upcoming generations.

Your mom, grandma, or unni might be leaving you nothing, but know this, that she is leaving her heart with you all.
Remember I'll be watching you all from up there.

Your Lovingly,
What ever you like to call me.

As the letter ends, tears flood down my cheeks. Unni might not be dead yet, but she will be, soon.

Looking at the satisfaction she has with the life actually stuns me. Everyone complaints that life didn't give them a fair chance or that life was cruel to them. But look at unni, she accepts that life is not what we expected, just like a roller coaster which by the way she defined very well despite not knowing that those electronic parks are called amusement parks.

I hug mom and she cries a little more in my arms. Soon mom and dad leave to rest in their rooms. It is almost midnight and I should also start preparing to sleep but I don't want to, not yet. So I go up to the terrace to find Kage.

He is laying there on the dirty floor staring at the sky. I go and lay down beside him.

"Why are you up here?" I ask as I dust the floor near my head.
"I wanted you to have some family time" he says still staring the sky.

We both lay there in silence as I watch the light black clouds pass, clearing the sky for us to see the stars.

"How weird counting the stars never ends," I say mesmerised by view.
"And how weird is that counting never ends" Kage replies.
"It's an infinity within infinity" I say astonishingly.
To which Kage props his elbow up rests his hand on his palm looks at me and says, "just like there's infinity in my love, for you."

For a second the world stops spinning and the stars start falling on the ground as if a meteor shower, the air whistles and suddenly my heart wants to jump out of its place and land on the ground and he keeps staring me, "Don't speak as loud as my heart...." I have no idea why I say that in such a moment. It is like my mouth has its own mind. My breath is stuck in my throat as Kage starts to lean down, when suddenly I hear mom crying. And I know that the time has come for us to sing our prayers and bid our farewells to unni.

------

"Tori!!" Anna shouts while sitting right next to me. I flinch at her sound and look around as the entire class in the auditorium stares at me.

"Scissors?" Anna says eyeing towards my motionless hands.
I say my apologise and pass her the pair of blue scissors out of my hand. The class goes back to doing what ever they were supposed to as Anna starts cutting the huge black and yellow bee for the entrance display board which I drew.

I start collecting the garbage pieces of paper to throw them in the dustbin when Anna asks, "I know unni died a week ago and you might not have had enough rest but, something's off in you. What is going on?"

I take a deep breath as I drop the collected pieces of paper again on the floor, look at Anna and say, "Unni died, and it was something we all were ready for, in fact she herself prepared us all to be ready... But the thing bugging me is something else." Anna stops cutting and looks at me raising an eyebrow gesturing for me to go on, "Kage has been acting weirdly....." To which she replies, "As in?" I look around and shift a little closer to her and say, "he has been saying things which, he is not supposed to say, and the worst part is, I am also doing the same."

"Can you explain the chapter with examples?" Anna mocks to which I give her a death stare and she goes all serious face and I continue,

"like the other day when we went to get McDonald's take away, because we were bored from those casseroles everyone brought as condolences, I said to Kage 'Look how funny this red take aways looks like' to which he replied, 'it's as if he's saying "is your body from McDonald's?" I immediately reply, "Cause I'm lovin it" but soon we realised that unni recently died and we shouldn't be having fun like this.
Then after that I was crying while I remembered a childhood memory of me and unni. He brought me a taco and when I refused to eat it, he said mimicking Taco's voice, 'Let's taco 'bout - ' I started laughing and continued 'how hot you are'. I was actually referring to the hot sauce, but that just made things awkward between us and I took my taco and left. We've always had these funny food conversions but lately they have become so weird." All this time Anna is very patiently listening to me and by the time I finish, her huge black and yellow bee is also ready to be pasted to the original board. She stands up carefully tackling the bee at the same time and says, "I don't find anything weird. In fact from what I can see is that, food is a medium between you guys to convey your feelings - " I cut her mid sentence and say, "no you are not understanding.... I don't want to say those things, they just slip out of my tounge..."

This time Anna gives me a death stare and says, "shutup and listen to me. According to psychology, when your desires are not fulfilled they come out in 3 ways, 1. Dreams, 2. Anger, 3. Slip of tounge. No matter how much you deny this fact, something is actually in your subconscious who wants to say that all out but can't find the words or maybe you are suppressing your feelings." I look at her cluelessly and say, "you want to say, that what my tounge slipped, was actually what I wanted to say?" There's no way I wanted to say 'Don't speak as loud as my heart' that day.....

I look at Anna and tell her she has gone mad and start to leave when she shouts, "Tori wait!" I stop in my tracks but don't turn to face her. She places her bee carefully on the ground and runs to me standing right in front of my face, "Tori, this might be the beginning of something new, ok answer me these questions. Didn't you feel jealous when Kage acted as if he liked me despite knowing that he is just kidding?" I'm not answering her shitty questions. "Why you always hesitated to call Caleb 'my Caleb' but never even thought twice before putting label of 'my' before Kage's name?" I want to deny those questions but honestly I really never thought before saying 'My typical Kage', "I guess it just sounded right....?" I say with confused expressions and Anna asks me this last question, "if you are hating this all so much why don't you simply go to Kage and tell him that you are not liking this all, unless you actually are........."

To be continued....