I'm losing myself, trying to compete
With everyone else
Instead of just being me
I sing to the song, as i wash the conditioner out of my hair.
I need to change my ways instead of always being weak
I pause, preparing to try and sing
I don't want to be afraid I want to wake up feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay cause everyone's perfect in an usual way
I continue to sing and attempt to hit the high notes that are in this song, as the warm water washes over my back and down it before meeting the floor, going to the drain.
The mirror can lie doesn't show you what's inside
And it can tell you your full of life its amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile
I'm quickly finding out
I'm not about to break down
Not today
I guess I always knew
That I had all the strength to make it through
I finish washing it out now, and wash over my face once more.
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
Now I believe in me
-TimeSkip-
I put on ripped black skinny jeans, short sleeved band shirt, my usual leather jacket and my bracelets. I run a brush through my hair and shrug, knowing i can't look good. I grab a grey beanie and put that on, heading to the couch. Humming a tune in my head when i hear a knock at my door, i groan, heading to the door.
"Heyy?" I open it, Jack and Mark standing there, smiling.
"Bonercast!" Jack laughs and welcomes himself in, i roll my eyes, turning to Mark.
(Is next morning, just so you know)
"Don't mind him." Mark laughs.
"I have learnt not too." I shrug.
We both laugh before joining Jack in the kitchen, as he gets a drink out.
-TimeSkip-
"Whoa... ohh." I hum, changing into clothes to wear to bed.
I grab a book, lying on my bed to read. I had a good day with Mark and Jack, we played just dance and cards against humanity- which i won. And shocked them about how dirty i truly am.
I wake up, checking the time. 2:13am. I groan, knowing i can't get back to sleep now. I sigh. I begin to stand up, grabbing my phone off charge and heading to the bathroom, i was planning to have a bath, but decided i shouldn't yet. So, i head to the kitchen, grabbing out a drink of juice, pouring it in a glass before placing the bottle in the fridge and grabbing the glass, i head to the couch, placing on a show to watch and maybe fall asleep too. I eventually feel my eyes begin to get heavy and i finally fall into a deepish sleep.
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Fixing Me ~ Markiplier x Reader
FanficBook 2 Of Broken Me. 2/3 ~~~ You made a promise to not harm yourself. Or try even harder but all recovery has relapses. But how will it work out when you have Mark, Jack and B/n with you every step of the way but you still push them away? Will you...
