Fixing Me ~ Markiplier x Reader

Youtube...?

-Next Day-
I wake up, checking the time. 6am.
Really? Fuck me.

I try to get back to sleep but know i won't so i get up and head to thw shower, putting on a (again, not "emo")  random song. Cher Lloyd - Love me for me comes on through the now connected speaker to my phone. I hum it.
Phone rings, don't wanna pick it up.
So scared i am going to say to much, I tip toe around your questions.
I now sing "Why you got to dig so deep?"
It continues and i sing as the shower runs from me turning the hot water and cold water on.
Keeping it all inside.
Trying not to trust you, yeah.
I begin to sing it.
"I'm done! I give up, i don't want to pretend no more. That's it, so what?!" I sing.
Cause i don't want you to love me... if you don't want to love me for me.
The song keeps going as i sing too, smiling.
"I got problems, i got issues. Sometimes it's all too much for me..."

"For me... cause i don't want you to love me if you don't want to love me for... me." I smile, finishing ir off before the next song comes on as i shower.

-TimeSkip-
I walk down the street, like usual. Nothing new. Music blaring my ears, as i try to relax from the cold stares i am getting or i think i am getting. Least, i am wearing my jacket. Even though i am dying of heat in it. I hum to my song, walking into a place to grab a drink, i try to speed up the process of ordering even though i should take my time and relax, but i quickly get a drink and head out again, walking around for a bit, knowing i needed to get out of the house. But having nothing to do at all, and Mark is probably busy or i am telling myself that.

I get home around 11:53am, i shrug and grab my guitar, setting up in my room, i grab my laptop and decide to record it again as another attempt, i pick the song i did yesterday when Mark heard. I smile at the memory before starting.
"She said she wants to end it all..."
-TimeSkip-
I finish off and save it to my usb and laptop before packing all away and heading down for a drink, i grab one and hum the song still as i head to the couch. I take a deep breath, as i sit down just as the door goes off. I groan. Not in the mood for people or even to get up now, but i should get the door, i sigh, standing back up. I head over to the door, opening it to reveal, (and oldish friend, joking 😂) a christen like person with a bible, they look me up and down with cold hard stares.
"Oh... you are..." i roll my eyes.
"And you are leaving because this emo isn't in the mood." I go to shut the door before they smile, then i realize.
It's...
"Oh heyy!" I laugh and smack his arm, he smiles back.
"Eyyy, sinner!" He chuckles.
We talk for a bit before he leaves.
(He wont be in it sooo)
I smile and shut the door, taking my seat again. When youtube comes to my mind, i begin to think.
I can't... can i?
I push it away after letting it sit for a bit, before putting on something to watch on my tv.

Also was listening to Gonna show you - Bebe Rexha
**brofists** 👊